Thirupavai -1.

Maargazhi thingal madhiniraindha nanalaal,
neerada podhuveer!podhumino neirizhaiyeer!
seermalgum aayarppadi selavasirumeergal'
koorvel kodunthozhilan nandagopan kumaran!
yerrarandha kanni yashodai illam singam,
kaarmeni senghan kadirmadhiyam pol mughathaan,
Narayanane namakku paraitharuvaan
 paror pughazh padindhe lorembavai.

Meaning

In the month of Margazhi on the auspicious day of the full moon all those petite girls of Gokulam who are interested in bathing in the river do join us.
One who is the son of Nandagopan who bears a sharp spear  and has a fierce profession,

One who is the lion cub of Yashoda who has beautiful eyes,

One who is of the hue of rain bearing clouds  with red eyes  and a face that is like a moon which radiates the brilliance of sun,
He is Narayana .He will grant us the boon that is approriate to our penanace.
Take part in this penance that is hailed ,world over.

Nothing earth shaking to comment upon.

A decision was arrived to form a govt in Delhi by Aravind.k and an emotional blog was written by N. Modi   expressing his relief.

Both are personal choices well within the rights of respective individuals to exercise,so what is there for me to comment upon?

Similarily  how should it matter to me as to who takes the ultimate decision in Cong [if at all only to the extent of clearing the foggy operations around me ] and if it is S.ghandhi then whether their pm candidate will be declared or not and who that would be is obviously her personal call, so what is there for me to analyse, advise or present emotional evidence?.Absolutely nothing to comment upon.                                              

Tsunami averted on tsunami day.--politics.

Is the verdict giving a clean chit to modi in zakaia case a moment to rejoice for modi and his fans as all msms and libs are dinning ?
Viewing this from a purely political point of view [with my unique way of processing  events  which is why i am in this crazy set up] this verdict has in one swift move removed the victim hood of the hindutva icon,who was literrally deified in UP recently which even to my limited knowledge and interest of electoral politics  that is seats etc, is the key state in determining as to who would rule india.

This verdict of cbi court is definetly a relief in small measure   to cong and detractors who can feel relieved that  in some measure an tsunami of sympathy wave that may have been unleashed.in a crucial state has been averted.                                                                                                                                                     With regard to aap it is my view that cong and libs will prop it up come what may by pumping money for all those poll promises to be kept  for gaining a toe hold in north as well as to trim any excessive power that m could acquire in a re- election.

Politics i am learning is a painful thinking process that involves .taking stock of all probabilities and then  acting .An scientific gamble.

Note :If i sound crude it is because my initiation into politcs 1 and half years back was very crudely done and since then i have been repeatedly exposed only to the very dirty and bloody underbelly of politics.

Realisation --diary written on 20 .12.13 -8am

The very fact that what i write personally  in my house is selling like hot cakes amongst politicians and media and what i bellow in anger in my drawing room is keenly heard by many a political ears and  my fast running thoughts  are constantly jaw read from above and neiboring flats as well as by an army of  constantly shadowing locals, as well as professionals where ever i go testifies to the fact that it is my emotions as opposed to my reasoning that is in great demand ,specially in the politcal class.

This explains my deliberate isolation to frustrate me in even having small social contacts with people around --neighbours,vendors ,relatives,pedestrians etc [like a open air solitary confinement -which perverted/autocratic mind devised this reminisent of kgb rule in stalinist ussr and more recently like despotic human right activists of western country mindset?] accompanied by constant hostility [which is obviously tutored but it does get on one if followed non stop for 2 years] to provoke me to display emotions either in writing or in speech or both..It is a pity that no one has the guts to stand upto the authorities and even if they do ,are not much  bothered about me..
Ofcourse the dominant partner in this unholy alliance would prefer that i restrict myself to verbal venting and not write it down --Naturally to cut losses.

Ok this diary writing is not for probing the unfanthomable devious intentions of politicians [by doing so  is only turning my once black hair, white and nothing more is coming out of it]but to list down the probables who could be influenced to talk  decisions with the help of my emotions.

1. Women in power [ofcourse] Specially those who are depressed at large part of time or at a given point of time ,who are therwise extremely busy and socially active.
2.Old men who  once held a lot of power  but now doddering on senility , isolated due to advancing age  and therefore emotionally vulnerable.Again at specific times.Of late even men of my age or a decade older and losing the grip are influenced.
3. Men  a decade or so younger than me .This category truly mystifies me.They are well educated, uptodate with happenings around ,well read ,more than me and yet my emotions touch them specially when they feel cornered or when their confidence is shaken
Just how do they relate to me is truly puzzling.Mind you this bunch belongs to all shades of opinions and idealogies and at times in direct opposition to each other.
The former two category is understanadable --age, nerves etc but this 3 category   a confident lot in thier very prime should beinfluenced by me puzzles me and made me try and solve it  early in the morning today.

Could it be that i appear to be in their generation?Same Popular culture, general knowledge,philosophical musings etc ,yet one step ahead in taking a firm stand which they would like to but are hesitant to do so?The typical dominant ,reckless yet vulnerable sibling or friend or alter ego?
Any way the people cookers who have already observed my influece are using me to emote suitably.Now who is a caged parrot in this embroiligo though this should also clarify to all as to who is actually ruling India.Political advisers with their caged parrots.

My innocuos middle class  neighbours   from this flat complex tucked away in south ,driving in thier two wheelers ,seemingly leading an ordinary citizens life are either facilitating decisions or even actually making decisions that affects this country  for all those super busy worthies  living in super spendour  in super sanitised areas ,who in time of political crisis crave for a feel of the dust , grime and grind of ordinary folks[ mine is artificialaly made] to steady them.

My luck,no no it is ill luck that i have been caught in this trap.If RG jumps with joy that he had empowered an ordinary citizen like me i 'd like to splash some cold water --facts--on this myth .I am no ordinary citizen
resaons
1. My family background--political and scholarship
2.My education.
3.Financial independance
4.My grief and resultant blogging.

I was already empowered  .This shady going ons is an attempt to curb it.

If all this imposition writing i am doing like one posessed is somehow to trap me into influencing ak to form a govt , my decision when my emotions were originally tapped into remains firm and the original one-viz--To form or not to form a govt is a decision only ak has to take by himself..


All those intelligent journos etc reading this make your connections with the gist in earlier blog.

Redeeming the trust reposed.

For the past 2 weeks i had been put under extra ordinary pressure by people cookers at the behest of their masters --politicos and media.
My nights were spent tossing in the bed and days sped in a  incoherent daze and in writing reams and reams of confessions .Only last night i finally got some respite --a few hours of undisturbed sleep when the b------- switched off their gadgets  let go off their mind controlling techniques.

Here is a list of dates of my compulsory involvement.in the aap drama.

From 8 th itself my mind was constantly tapped with suggestions that fell in place only as and when i spoke to my son over the phone on 9 th evening .It was to gauge my view that is at a very deep ,deep subconscious level as to what i actually thought that Aravind k should do now,after bjp had decided not to form a govt[before going to lg].That night as i slowly drifted into sleep i said to myself[remember pf and co can jaw read ] it is up to Ak to decide.

I suppose this totally detached view wasn't in the line of thinking of the politicos/media who kept putting more and more presurre which would make me write ad trap me into taking a stand .

As the Delhi dead lock continued i fought the temptation to broker  a deal between A.K and bjp .A gust of  chilly wind  of early night blowing on the terrace sobered me with the realisation that for all my power over the net ,it would be unfair to use it over all those persons and parties who have actually toiled on the ground expending money, energy and time with fond dreams and objectives.So i refrained from attaching the alluring tag of 'Honest broker' to my accomplishments.

A few more days passed and just like the public that has a short memory i observed aloud that it was better for ak to form a govt and fulfill his promises if he wanted to retain the trust of the public.
I neither wrote this nor blogged it busy as i was writing impositions after impositions on totally unrelated topics.It was so tiring that blogging was impossible. The pitfalls of over dose  of pressure tactics that a hard pressed people cookers overlooked in their eagerness to deliver.

Finally i wrote the view of a fatigued public in my diary on 17 .12.13--10 pm .I suppose i was expected to blog this .i didn't .Earlier that day i had written in my diary about me  as a sister would not poke her nose in a married couples life as to whether they wanted a child and if how they would go about it [test tube baby etc] .This could have given ak [who also reads my diary,so how clean is he?] the idea of forming the govt [child]after  holding a referendum. pf  succesfully wrangled out an idea.

Since the pressures over me  were building up [god knows ,who and what gave me strength to endure such brutality ]i decided to stay away from the net so as 1. not to get confused 2. not to give any indication to ak and co or ppts  that would be contrary to my view the original one that ak has to decide for himself.I will have nothing to do with it.

Why was i firm in this view.?

Reasons.
1. When he and others were  activist i gave them  moral support  as i didn't want to be the one dampen the   enthusiasm of the young,idealistic and naive net users to the anna movt  who were turning a indifferent eye to foreign funding, tax evasions , financial irregularities ,etc of the leaders of this movt.Even if i did,that is attempted to open their eyes to the futility of yet another law [lokpal]to eradicate corruption and that  their leaders were all not saints and totally above suspicion like all the well informed journo's , bloggers were pointing out  then itself ,they wouldn't have been in a mood to hear.Time pounces on every one and the freshness of youth is not ever lasting.But now the stakes are too high.The person and once activists will be in a position of responsibility with resources of the state and people in their command and this makes me baulk that is shy away at the very idea of pronouncing them clean since with all the info available that points otherwise i am unable  in a basic level  to view them as incorruptible or honest or financially above board.as they are projecting themselves to be and therefore would rather that the trusting youngsters digest the bitter pill ,that i am administering--viz-truth. right now itself..

2. was disappointed when ak and co  chose politics over activism by forming a party but respected his decision that could have been the true fruit of his desires and ambitions.Maybe my blog at that 'fast' to end the futile and life threatening exercise may have crystallised this decision .

3. My disillusionment was complete when instead of being a clean politician committed only to cleansing up the system he trod the typical crass pseudo secular politicians path by wooing highly controversial  and avoidable elements in minority community.

Hence i couldn't get myself to give ak a clean chit which was what the ppts [may be from all  political parties] were demanding from me.
So this clean blogger refused to certify this mega creature of the net that had taken real shape[aap]on terra firma.

Again why did i hold back with such persistence ?I could have blogged and secure my release from that never ending psycho torture and felt free  much earlier as i do now ,today..
Reason.

1.My entire being ,down to the very sub conscious level rebelled against this  illegal unconstitutional and simply crazy intrusion into my house and my privacy and refused to submit to coercion how ever helpless i may be ,that is totally isolated and cornered without evidence to fulfill some dirty politicians/medias totally selfish agendas. If i hadn't so grossly meddled with i might have written just what the adjustment bureaus wanted ,on my own.                                                                                                                                                                    2.My initiation into the the net world was due to my late son who was a centrist tilted to the right , patriotic, incorruptible, hard working and also enjoying weekends , idealistic and altruistic.The recognition i got through the net was the fruit of his endeavour to bring to the public his mother's [me] abilities .An mother whom he knew would never lie to him how so ever trying circumstances she may be in .And i had to redeem that trust come what may.To hell with shceming politicians ,let them do what they like  with me but i' ll not give in try my best to weather it out.

Now net has become irrelevant.My diary was and is.Since both has merged --public and private space, the battle of nerves was getting tougher and tougher each day.So when ever i as tricked into writing i somehow realised the true purport for making me write --to give a clean chit , a certificate of validation to a typical politician --ak--who was fooling the public by acting like a clean activist .Had he been truly a honest  politician or a clean activist he wouldn't have dilly dallied this long to arrive at  a decision..

After my early morning writing on 20 th  pf  spoke in a voice [from his balcony above] that was curiously flat [at least he informs me , small mercies].Exhibiting his disappointment at the lack of fruition of that night long pshyco tortures and orders.

Why? just what is stake in here?Was it in any way connected to US state depts decision to proceed with legal proceedings  that was hanging fire against that woman diplomat ?Robot like i immediately switched o n tv news and read the breaking news that state dept [some young man] was going ahead with its rules .That diplomat  showed the indian politicians their place.Serves them right. Were the politicos drumming up public outrage theory to score some diplomatic points and secure electoral advantage and i threw cold water on that manufactured media rage?That means even foreign media or even worse foreign countries are having  a  direct access to my house .On that day too i had reiterated that i wouldn't intervene in ak'a decision and had mentioned about caged parrots .

Or is it even more sinister ? That US had of late started engineering and encouraging civil rights movts  in developing countries to cause confusion in such countries[read it on net] and then later make such movts enter politics so that it can indirectly control such countries through their activists turned politicians- puppets?
Was ak movt one such? And  a clean apolitical  member of public, or activist --like anna -- or in my case a  clean blogger  certificate of probity was needed to affix a sincere stamp of approval[did anna distance himself on coming to know about this?] so that several such spontaneous risings can be funded to embarrass the country as well as the party in power?The next could very well be bjp and next some one else but the fact that could be is that the sovereignity of our state constitution and laws could be seriously compromised insidiously.

If so i gave the message that day itself to US as well as to all those selfish and unpatriotic root less Indian politicians of all hues clinging to it in fond hope of power and pelf  to just get lost ,don't meddle in our affairs by sticking to my stand that ak wasn't squeaky clean .

At the end of this long fortnight  of intense pressure applied to me i am glad that i found the strength not to betray the trust my late son[ which would also include all those young viewers with similar views and ideals] had reposed in me by standing it out.

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27.12.13
The irony of it all cannot be lost on my regular viewers and to myself.Last may --june  ie in 2012 i was hounded by political parties for having blogged in favour of anna movt as well as supporting ak and co and tried their level best to make me join a political party and to stop blogging now for the past 15 days i was incessantly hounded by the same set for not blogging  after joining a political party or even writing in my diary in favour  of ak and co!I am living and shining example  to the extent the major national political parties are willing to go to seek validation for themselves and to push their selfish interests..
Further if ak and co were like the cong decades ago  viz making a lot of noise about corrupt ion i was like and am like bjp that was decades ago viz spreading hinduism[mine genuine interest but politicos are trained to see only politics ] and hindutva pretty thick in my blogs.
But both parties changed over time and were clearly embarrassed at our respective tenacity of purpose and  to top it all our mutual backscratching,mine  over the net .So an concerted psycho warfare was launched to bring both the non violent activists to the main stream of politics.
The former succumbed first owing to inherent ambition but the latter held on for quite some time and also succumbed owing to humanitarian considerations.Water finds its source .Ak with all his protestations is actually comfortable with nehruvian cong and i found my way to bjp due to basic ideological confluence.
How typically masochistic of us both to join the respective groupings that hounded us in the first place.!A victory to big two.It is also a victory to the mini  two's.
However tiresome and irksome we may be neither of the big two can wish away their [original] mini me's.[As activists we could have been handled with more nicety and diplomacy or simply ignored.]

At least it holds good for me.By intruding into my activist life and  by deliberately blurring the private and public space it is the party's [to which i have joined] 'duty' to either to bear with me or exercise the right to remove me from the party formally.because ill stick on without foregoing my individual identity.There is no q of defection ,etc.

Aap's forming the govt in Delhi

Congress's consolation prize in the recent race..

Hypocrisy.

I am unable to comprehend this sudden furore over a ruling of S court on LGBT issue where in their Lordships were accused of re -criminalising LGBT who were de criminalised by H.court ruling few years back.
An witch like anchor's non stop rants against the verdict at front of the camera  for the whole day scared the devil out of me  and made me cast my mind back to pre de criminalisation of lgbt years .Not a single instance of the overwhelming millions they are said to be in numbers as per all the worthies on the media was  ever heard to be  jailed by this penal provision  and was never brought to notice of the public.So the assumption is that the law was never enforced.
If supremo is taking cudgels on behalf of individuals rights ,what about mine madame? Do i have to declare myself as lgbt so that my privacy can be restored ?How so ever odd i may appear with a different mindset as a individual i am also entitled to the rights guaranteed under article 21.Let go.

The judge has applied the existing law to the case in  technical manner.If ruling dispensation is appalled of this portion which is appalling all it need do is delete the offending portions of the section 377.

My view: I do find lgbts odd.But do not view them as criminals [nor does anybody around] and do frown upon them being derided constantly.The ranting and wailing in the media is a bit too exaggerated..           written at 11 AM   13 .12 13

The dichotomy in the  happenings currently[12 pm] that of a well known politician [who opposed the lokpal bill vehemently] in jail for corruption getting bail from SC and the tabling of Lokpal bill in rajya sabha  at the same time  ,as if on cue is truly amusing and ironical.

Doctrine of karma---reaction to an article

An author of an article on Karma in Bhavans journal  was playing the devils's advocate in his supposedly first instalment [the next issue didn't carry the next  instalment with alternate arguments] by questioning the irrationality of this doctrine by posing the question as to how a fish condemned to its lowly state due to its previous karma know that it was suffering due to its past deeds?So this doctrine is laughable as there is no repentance.

To my knowledge the doctrine of karma is propounded for the benefit of a human being with his sense of right and wrong ,who is warned of the pitfalls that await him in due course of time ,if not  then in his next birth ,that of being born as a lowly form of life without any power of reasoning.It is not necessary for the fish to know its former birth but for human beings endowed with reason to know that a birth as a fish may await that person as a result of his karma / deeds.
That person could be born as better person viz,in a good family with scholarship and prosperity.Even then that person enjoying the fruits of past deeds has no knowledge of his prior birth because  Sri Krishna has said in the Gita "Arjuna i have the knowledge of my previous births [as a bhagwan] but you as a mortal do not have",must be taken by all reposing faith in karma doctrine  as its justification  and rightly so.Learnt this
by personal experience.
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Kangroo court.

Yesterday i was listening to a discussion between Kanchan and Swapan gupta on niti Central radio on the e impending communal violence bill.

They referred with disgust to a national authority composed solely of activists who would sit in judgement over cases relating to hate propaganda and riots, by passing all the legal procedures an ordinary court has to follow .That is, the decisions would be subjective and not professional.A parallel  jatpat judicial system more or less like a khap panchayat in other words a legalised lynch mobbing.

Now take my personal case. If the bill comes into existence i can lodge a complain against my Muslim, non brahmin,and christian neighbours for communally harassing me a Hindu brahmin woman living in a muslim dominated non brahmin majority area.and  constantly spreading hate propaganda against me.though brahmins could also be involved but they would be considered minority over here and so let off.
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A teesta  like activist as well as all those leftists and extreme leftists manning that panel may overlook my plea for harboring rightist views.Instead of teesta what if a ' right' activist was in that panel?The presumption that naturally rises in me is that  is that he will throw all my harassers into prison at least for 3 years.So the presumption of 'subjectivity' of the activist panel proposed ,is more or less correct 

Mine is real scenario, i may or may not actually go the full length,but swapan also referred to scenarios that are fictitious, that is spreading false rumours and creating false riots to fix anyone . This could happen both ways.

 That is if this bill comes into existence and right leaning govt comes to power there could be a move to dislodge all the leftists from this all powerful panel  and there could be a move to fill it with rightist activists, both moderate and extreme .To fix an opponent by mere merit of activism and stroke of  a pen would be as enticing to the right and  far right as it is to the left and far left.

The book launch.

I was manipulated to attend the carefully choreographed book launch of right wing blogger that had as its chief guest an astrologer ranting about past atrocities ,an dusky right wing  lawyer persistently glaring at me and avowing his deep bonds with a christian father and a dusky political analyst  and it was timed to end with the pony tailed journos internment.There were a lot of young bloggers buzzing around feigning  total ignorance to my presence [sujataism] on the net .
Reasons for this drama-

1, To show to  me, my insignificance in the net and the total indifference of  even educated  intellectual rightists to me .It was overdone.I didn't buy it.

2.To show me as superstitious to all those intellectual/rational bloggers.--Succeeded.I am superstitious to a certain extent.

3.To show me as delusional ,that is float a curse theory that of my [bjp]cursing journo in 27.10.13 blog  to under go my travails through their womenfolk and because of that Tejpol[cong] was caught and the tamasha was extending too long for anyone's comfort specially the ruling party that got severely hurt in nirbhaya case and the supremo was not melting and when i the mini bjp /designer aam aurat in shadowy custody for more than a year and half, so easily manipulated , nodded my head that curse would return when Sandeep spoke about it[so unlike him to talk about curse or believe in it ] and the signal was given by the supremo taken in by my remorse and the so far her  very loyal journo was shoved into custody and i would write about this and all bloggers as well as other msns journo's  [my regular diary readers] would rightly conclude that i was delusional, to cover up some of my  very real insights and the grasp of several gory political happenings under the constant wardship of Intel's for the past year and more.--no idea of impact.But one q that troubles me is am i that important to be shown as delusional to all those bloggers who already know what is  happening around me more than i do or  was it really orchestrated so that some one fascinated as well as repulsed by me had to take a decision by melting down and forgiving the curser [me, who was enjoying the show put up by rightist bleeding hearts on tv unaware that the pony tail did what his baser instinct made him do  was because of my curse! ]and avert another of those  civil society movt much feared by the political  class?Since a omerta of silence has been thrown over me ,i have no feedback hence no idea of its impact.

4.To use it as a opportunity to nasty Internet Hindus a tit for tat for nastying msn journos, anchors,left liberal writers,etc on the net by compelling their attendance by show of state power in a event that was hijacked to nasty one of their,[rightists] own [me].and used me as a ruse.
succeeded.The discomfiture shown by sandeep betrayed a queasy conscience and it  reminded me of the embarrassment suffered by aravind k at the hands of tricky Cong and i doubt whether the dent to his ego would be so easily forgotten.Have to wait and see.

The book Tippu the tyrant  of Mysore is a scientific endeavour by the author to dispel the halo that ruler has acquired It is well researched .

Trifurcation of j&k.

I am for it.

Womem's reservation bill.

I am not for it.If a woman is ambitious for  a political career or service minded or both  there is nothing in any Indian law or in the society ,that prevents her from contesting elections by either joining a political party or on her own just like men.
The word reservation itself smacks of a patronising mindset.It demeans one socially as well as individually.Women who have set their heart on politics have to compete with men on equal footing or simply perish just like it is in  all the other careers  open to women .                                                                          Aren't talented, ambitious as well as service minded women [for eg ias]doing very well in all walks of life and careers purely on the basis of their merit? .

Blemishes that media seeks to bind india as a whole.

1. Corruption:   Reporting scams after scams with great gusto apart from the initial politics this aberration   was in a way projected as the common thread of unity running and binding all Indians.
That it backfired on the very establishments that pedalled this is another matter.

2.Atrocities on women: Reporting rapes after rape  reminding one of 1970's bollywood films that had a mandatory rape scene in each film and every film.
Since rapists and their victims have no caste or creed hence another factor has been pounced upon in the noble quest of integrating the supposedly warring communities.

result.1. Demonisation of Indian male as lechers. [Truth is most of them are at least most of those i happened to come across].
2.Diversion from scams and corruption ,the original unifying tool abandoned hurriedly after it unleashed a Frankenstein monster.

Enjoy the unpreventable.

I examined all the options to extricate myself from the impossible position i find myself that is of being the fake conscience of high and mighty  by emoting after a  painful process[the worst part of this  bargain] cum script writer for speeches to high flying politicos cum the trigger for swift political moves .[from ideas gleaned from my diary]
Since  all  politicians are into this clandestine operation ,to drill and mine me what justice or remedy can i expect either by approaching a women's organisation or  the police or counselling and treatment from a doctor of my choice?
.Even that idealistic and quite tough right wing blogger was rattled [slightly] by the presence of intels in his book launching function for having to come, face to face with the clandestine but real army of State power,that to only for few hours unlike me weathering them day in and out for the past one and half years.Yes of course he is not an politician to take it in his stride only a journo so neither am i.

The fact that i am cornered from all directions without any escape route put me in a fit of sudden depression specially at the thought of having to bathe, dress ,eat, relax under constant glare of seemingly inexhaustible supply of energetic and malevolent man force 24/7 ,when the sage counsel of CBI director, that' if one cannot prevent rape one must enjoy it'  came to my mind and this golden words of wisdom from the highest custodian of law and security chased away the dark clouds of fear, shame and frustrations and galvanised me to action and enjoy my nityakarmas.

I have blogged a lot of mantras in this very blog but the only  mantra i remember and chant often to elevate myself these days  is the one  so generously proffered by that profound man to victims of rape.It is helping me to deal with the situation.Thank you kind sir..

I do have one option viz judiciary to combat this unwanted burden of shifting the responsibility of taking decisions on to my shoulders due to compulsive obsession with power coupled with superstitious belief's at the  highest level of this great country.All i need is one shred of evidence to take to task all those actively and directly involved in this shameful charade i am being subject to day in and day out.

Acquittal.

The interview of Sri Jeyendra Saraswati which was devoid of rancour or exhilaration  on a daily soon after his acquittal that  the only regret in the decade of his trial  he had was his inability to help tsunami victims personally as he was interred [the seas exploded a month  after his imprisonment] coupled with my recollections of the indignities such a gentle and pious seer had  to suffer in the hands of a crude policeman[who died later]which was  shown on TV and the silence with which he suffered these tortures as well as all the hostilities and wariness of  those very same who had once  feted and revered  him moistened my eyes.
 
My heartfelt prostrations before the holy feet of the seer and i sincerely hope that all the good work that his holiness was forced to abandon would henceforward be executed by him without any further obstacles.

Reactions to news .

The relaxation of sanctions on Iran is good news for me not due to any romantic notions of civilisational ties etc pedalled by secularists ,which would mean that we should have even more closer ties with Africa where the first ancestor of all of us is said to have been born,but because my LPG gas cylinder may cost less and petrol prices could fall and so would prices of commodities ,travel fare etc.
The govt may be relieved at the prospect of making amends. That is try and bring down prices before it exits. The opposition a wee bit disappointed for losing a nice electoral plank if prices  fall. 

On Arushi case it was obvious to the public after the second cbi investigation which corroborated the original findings of the local police that the father did the act under grave provocation and the mother chose to be a loyal wife.

              How ever the timing of the verdict to co incide with 'violence against women's  day ' has me pondering at the political angle.Another news raging till yesterday regarding sexual assault on a young woman journo by Tehelka editor that would have had the ruling dispention in tenterhooks at the terrifying prospect of yet another spontaneous civil society movement of net savy indignant youngsters waving palcards and flags in indiagate area  has been in one stroke pushed to the background. An suspicion that  there could be some nexus between some segments of executive with some segments of judiciary  is naturally aroused.

Over all the political class and  its minions are  simply too smart for a guileless person like me who is also mesmerised ,diverted and constantly provoked to take a stand by the highly voluble and suggestive media channels.

Photos of Sri Narasimhar temple near Kollegal

Photos of Keerthinarayana temple at Talakad -

 The original sanctum .Not in use now.

The original entrance ,since it is the only surviving structure of the 1000 year old temple  after the temple crumbled down a decade back,the main deity is housed  under the gopuram itself.

Photos of Satyakala.

 Vimanum of perundevi thayar

 Entrance

 The path leading from the temple to the banks of river kaveri where Desikan meditated

 Rice fields on the way

 The very tree--fig  under which Desikan sat and meditated.

 A close up of the tree withered by time

 A view of the Vardharajar temple

 Perundevi Thayar.

Desikan's sannidhi in the temple.His processional deity is placed on the turtle like slab of stone on which he sat and meditated .

Satyakala ..

Today 19 th morning visited Satyakala at Kollegal .The way to and fro from Mysore was flanked by rice fields in pretty green slabs . A very fertile area.

Nearly all boards  in towns and villages are only in Kannada so couldn't make out as to which building was ,what.
Satyakal is a small village amidst very lush paddy fields,being right besides river Kaveri.The purpose of our visit was to see the ancient deity of Sri Vardhrajar ,who was worshipped by Sri Desikan in 13 th cent AD when he took refuge in this tiny hamlet after fleeing persecution by invaders from north at his original place of residence at Sri Rangam.He stayed here for 12 years and went back when the threat was removed.It was also an exercise in tracing Sri Desikans trail across the south. 

The village reeked of prosperity but the roads were poor and  muddy and were turned to  sludge by a slew of tractors used in the farming operations.But the small temple is very well maintained thanks mainly due to the generous contributions of NRI 's ,mostly US based .The temple that was once said to be in a very bad shape has been  very well renovated  with halls, kitchens and toilets added for the convenience of pilgrims.The temple was empty save for the priest and a watchman's family.

The turtle like stone slab on which Desikan is said to have sat upon and meditated daily is housed in his sannidhi at the temple.Till 1920 it lay on the bank of the river a short distance away and was brought here for preservation.It made me pause and compelled me to sit before this humble seat of that wise and learned acharya and to meditate and try and  gather at least in a little measure the strength it must have absorbed by his sacred presence to see me through in my lonely battle.

The theertham --the taste of  the  holy water offered by the priest was  incredibly sweet unlike in any other temple i visited.What sweetened it? The fact that it was kaveri river water or simply something more?.

A short walk on a mud road flanked by banantrees , lush paddy fields right next to the gently flowing kaveri river is the fig tree under which Desikan sat and meditated .It is no longer in full spread as it is said to be in his days.But the trunk though dried and stunted seems to have survived  letting off few leaves to keep it going.
Desikan wrote 'abeedhitatva' a sloka to dispel fear and restore courage in this very scenic and serene spot and recited it several times.This sloka in later year inspired Harri hara and bukkha to establish the Vijayanagar empire that ruled the south for several centuries and its kings built several temples with great enthusiasm.
As and when Desikan wrote this sloka would he have foreseen such a tremendous event in the political history of  medieval India  ,that his heart felt sloka would sow ?Desikan was a scholar, poet, wise and seeped with bhakthi..A  man of religion alone who studiously avoided rulers and kings.Yet ,may be he did.Can't say.

As we passed over river kaveri its gentle unhurried flow seemed to murmur an assuring massage that any one will come and go but i will be going on and on seeing more and more . A detached witness to changes in human history and an affirmation of permanence and solidity amidst rapid changes and insecurities of life.

written on 19 .11.13   9pm in train from mysore to chennai

Visit to Melkote CheluvaNarayana Temple -

Chella pillai Perumal and His consorts at Melkpte Temple

Chelluva narayana temple at Melkote

On 18th noon after an insipid lunch at the hotel we left for Melkote by cab to have a darshan of Chelluva Narayana and  also see the idol of Ramanuja which he himself is said to have conscreted transferring  some his Powers and part of his self at  the request of the populace of melkote who couldn't bear the separation from their beloved acharaya as and when he decided to repair back to Srirangam.

For several miles the landscape was lush and picturesque.Bouquets of rose tinted flowers atop slender white and tall boughs of sugar cane swayed bewitchingly and a carpet of green rice fields with a dusting of gold ,the colour of ripening rice spread as far as the eyes could behold.An pleasant surprise and a delicious feast to eyes gone weary of seeing only man made machines ,crowding the streets ad distancing oneself from what one is madeof--earth, water, air and sky.
All the small and quaint houses on the road side were painted red with some advt or the other.

The landscape turned a bit arid and stony as we neared Melkote and spotted the Narsimhar temple atop a hill where Prahalada is said to have meditated.It therefore predates the Narayana temple below.

The town is just as i remember it .Not much changes .The Narayana temple was built by Hoysala ruler Vishnu vardhan in 11 th cent ad after he embraced Sri vaishnavism ,taken in by the personality and the healing powers of Ramanuja who had taken refuge in his kingdom after fleeing violent  sectarian persecution by a fanatical chola king  in his hometown in Tamilnadu  .This temple enshrining chelluva narayana was consecrated by Ramanuja.

Many figurines adorning the temple depict dasaavatar, various classical poses and mudras of dancing girls, rishis performing yoga and so on.Many of the figures have their limbs loped off.But the granite pillared mantap with its rich carvings of dancing Krishna performing various feats are intact.An cunning carving of an animal that looked like an elephant from one angle and like a horse from another angle caught my attention.The woven basket like filigree work in stone on several pillars are a testimony to skill and artistry of the sculptors of days gone by.
The main as well as the processional deity are bewitching.So is the idol of Ramanuja.The beauty of the panchaloka [--alloy-]-processional deity known as chellapillai was mesmerising and made me wonder whether there was any credence[ as the dates from history  simply don't match ,there was no sultanate at time of Ramanuja , it came after him, maybe this story has been spun for communal harmony  ] in the story that when ramanuja came seeking this particular idol from the Delhi sultans spoils of war and was allowed to take it ,the  young daughter of the sultan who played with this idol and was her favourite couldn't bear the separation and therefore followed Ramanuja hoping to retrieve it  and passed away.
A tiny figurine at the base of  the idols Naryana somewhat like Lakshmi caught my eyes. The priest explained that it was that of Bibi nachiar  --the daughter of that sultan ,installed there in commemoration of her unsullied and deep devotion to chella pillai.

The climb to the hill enshrining Narsimhar was strenuous.The skies drakened and the nambi narayana [also consecrated by ramanuja] temple in the next stop a few kms away was closed.

The lights were out and the village--Thodanoor was plunged in early darkness of the night.Yet i didn't want to miss having a look and feel of the lake said to have been dug by ramanuja during is exile in here.

Fireflies flitted and a pale Venus shone through cloudy skies as i sprinkled the water over head and watched the silent dark lake.Not a single person was around.Was such a huge lake actually dug by Ramanuja?Most probably.Digging wells and ponds for good of people is enjoined in our shastras.He had a large gathering of devoted disciples and they had a lot of time at disposal being forcibly kept away from their regular hectic religious activities .

On our return the colourful fields had become dark and forlorn silhouettes ,reminding one of constant cycles .They were carefully tended so that they may grow lushly only to be reaped to make  a living and then to be  cut and disposed off.

written on 19 .11.13  9 pm tuesday in train

Interpretation of intellectualism--comment on a news item

As per the observation of A. Roy the Booker prize winner an 'so called' intellectual is one who advocates non violent methods to protest against injustice , exploitation etc and it is implicit in this snide observation that a real intellectual is one [probably referring to her self] who will either have the guts to endorse or wilfully turn a blind eye to methods of protest which could be termed as violent and is violent.

Each person is entitled to define what constitutes intellectual honesty or intellectualism.

But in here it is the intellect of Mk Gandhi that has a large currency of influence over masses as well as intellectuals and we all know what he preached and practised and not of Mao the leader of a neighboring country whose violent preachings also we are well aware of.Whilst the formers views apart from shaping the minds within this country has also shaped and managed minds and is still shaping minds of many world over whilst the latters influence was limited to his country  and is waning even therein.

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Comunal violence bill.

Read an  article on communal violence bill on the net.

On  reading the several provisions referred to in it, the bill appears to be very draconian and very very heavily loaded in favour of minorities and very very heavily loaded against the majority community which in here means Hindus.Is this the present govt's answer for pota? A tit for tat?

I was  ruminating and analysing the political fall out if this act came into force.

Its immediate benefit would be for Cong and other Secular parties ---that is minority wooing parties in extremes by foisting a sense of security[false] and the  feeling of being avenged, on minorities who would register their gratitude at the time of voting.
But in the long run this bill could prove to be the nemesis of Cong and pseudo secular parties[this is only an assessment not prediction and nor am i looking forward to such a scenario, though i am more or less a rightist]

1. Riots occur in lower startas of society . The segment that votes religiously.If this bill is pressed into action with the usual over enthusiasm that characterise these parties these days, so as to make them turn a blind eye to real situation  ,resentment will build up amongst the Hindu -viz majority to such an extent that they would lose trust in these parties and their resentment could boil over to the streets and could make them boycott these parties for ever.

2. The middle class is never involved in riots due to its natural abhorrence to blood shed and violence.So that part of the bill will not touch it. But if the forced integration the  lofty  notion of idealistic few living,  away from ground realities ,history [both communities have learnt not to tread on each others toes  ,having fought ,lived and adjusted with each other over the centuries] and sensitivity to religious beliefs , that this bill envisages that is dictating as to whom a person should rent his house etc would touch a very raw nerve.Not only at the blatant encroachment on the fundamental right to property that every civilised nation guarantees its citizens but also on equally  dangerous and sensitive issue, that of core religious beliefs and practises.

 Cut to the basics most Hindus [ unlike me and others living along with Muslims] are extremely finicky in their eating habits.Generally A veg Hindu will not let out his house to another Hindu if he is a non veg or even live near his house Then how will he tolerate minorities  with eating habits that goes against the basic religious belief  that of according a deep respect to cows , and the taboo against consuming its flesh , digest?An taboo religiously followed even by non veg Hindu.Wasn't it the greased cartridges which triggered the 1857 mutiny [,that is, it was the immediate cause apart from others] and didn't the Britishers become wiser after the event and restrained themselves from interfering in the socio religious practises of its colonial subjects with commendable restraint?

This forcible integration would breed resentment specially against the party that spear headed the bill The sense of betrayal and being short changed would bring a back lash that will be shown  at the elections..

3.The bjp which has no dilemma, guilt or shame of its  Hindu heritage which is basically secular and if it does not resort to excessive appeasement of minorities for sake of votes ,a trap that Cong has fallen into which is actually pleasing none, would become the natural gainer.

Acting as a rightist i shouldn't be pointing out all this .Just keep mum or make the right noises and secretly jump with joy at the prospect of rich harvesting of votes this bill would bring one day or the other to bjp.

As a blogger i am merely reacting.

And as one stuck in memory of Cong during my grand fathers time i feel sorry for the suicidal course it seems bent on taking by distancing itself more and more from its original confident [and not self effacing] secular Hindu moorings and edging closer and closer to be labelled as very partisan with its balance tilted to such an extreme that it could be one day called as  ,Muslim party of India and lose its much touted inclusive tag.  .

Photos of Kattumannar koil.

The sannidhi of Sri Nathamuni at Kattumannar koil

 Nearer view of  back of sannidhi of sri Nathamuni at Veeranarayana temple at Kattumannar.This is said to be the original residence of Sri Nathamuni which is  very close to the sanctum.

 Veeranarayana temple at Kattuimannar

Entrance

Photos of Thiruveendhapuram, Devanathan Temple

 Devanathan temple at Thiruveendhapuram as seen from steps leading to Hayagreeva  temple in nearby hillock

The hayagreeva temple conscereted by Sri Desikan in oushadhari hillock in thiruveedhapuram near cuddalore tn

The place of residence of Sri Desikan at thiruveedhapuram

Sloka from gita.

Prakrter guna sammudhah,
sajjante guna karmasu,
tan akrtsna -vido mandan,
krtsna -vin  na vicaleyet.

meaning.
              Men deluded by the dispositions of Nature ,get attached to work prompted by these dispositions
Those who know the whole Truth should not unsettle these dull witted men of imperfect understanding.

29 th verse chapter 3-- yoga of action.

chogm in Sri Lanka and indian representation.

My view on this .Since the Northern province of that country has elected its own Tamil CM it is his right and duty to take care of Tamil needs there in.It would be simply churlish to insult a democratically elected President of a friendly neighbouring country with whom our ties are from time immemorial by boycotting the meeting.
Yes a  war has taken place . Horrors in war is nothing new in this subcontinent or even world wide.It is un palatable but one has to move on.
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I hardly move with anyone so i don't know  nor have i  felt the supposedly palpable  emotions on this issue in here at Chennai or TN .Nor am  i well versed in foreign affairs to grasp the China threat.

My simple reasoning is that since the affairs in that country have taken a better turn, that is no longer killings or mass exodus, it is wiser not to poke the' humanitarian nose' whether real or political  that is getting longer and longer these days into internal affairs of sovereign countries .


The news that our PM is not attending the chogm  came as a disappointment to me.This may make india not only to lose its  leverage with Sri lanka to do more for theSri lankan Tamils therein  but  also lose  the  good will and gratitude of the Sri lankan people as a whole to India. Hence i am constrained to observe   that as       Bharat has weathered a lot and survived mainly due to the inner yearnings and longings of its people as a nation at a given point of time in its very long history and would do so in future also.

Tapping in by constant provocation and jaw reading.Bonded labour and slave trade of ideas and emotionsmodern times.

so ppts today's[6.11.13] keyword was' loyalty' just who are u and why this constant hypnosis?what is that u ppts want to make out of me?imposition writer in a diary read by all? parrot? idea giver-- that is tapping into my recently opened inner world  without any qualms?Am i such a 'genius' or are all those around more mediocre than me or simply sheer exploitation specially by the insatiable beast 'the media' , 1 known scoundrel which is obvious is , a popular news paper and its large retinue of cheap labourers coached to hound and provoke and supplied with gadgets to tap in,there are definitely other hidden scoundrels as well  in the media, on daily basis whilst the politicos do it on and off ?just what ppts just what?
                                                        
 or is it to prove that i am only a parrot and easily brain washed to those who may believe in my originality ,and remove the halo around my head that is the sting in my writings?another trick?what comes out of me is bound to cause confusion  oh yes now i see it  maybe as osho has observed politicos thrive on creating confusion and  in keeping probs alive.ppts just get lost
                                                                               Why this unquenchable thirst and unabating greed to drain and by employing  24/7 process to exhaust me to your own detriment?[the same tenacity shown in scams--my current hostage like state is a living example of such conscienceless greed ]just for having an ordinary Hindu view point  ?so i am the dangerous enemy,that would mean millions of middle class honest and law abiding Indians  also who in ppts wisdom need to be constantly engaged with.crazy and desperate notions with the help of the media that serves the political classes of all shades specially the' Two Nationalist parties' and to one discerning enough a pathetic attempt but with persistence of the motto that 'perseverence pays'to keep itself ,a parasite and much hated class [most view it as such and with personal experience of  very close encounters for the past 2 years ,so do i now ] alive and relevant.   .i thought our enemies were outside our borders.



In fact the person or persons living in  and around responsible for alerting the decision makers with help of technology and deviousness that would rival the NSA scandal to possibility of execution of ideas picked up in random to put to political use  ,  that toys with the lives of ordinary as well as the  extra ordinaries,  along with the carriers as well as such perverse decision makers  and all those in the know, that is their rivals who are turning a blind eye even after i joined their camp are the ones that need to be put in solitary confinement and constantly monitored and brain washed to round off the rough edges  or simply be shut away.

kattumannar koil-- tour diary --29.10.13

The next place of visit the next day was Kattumannar koil the birth place of Sri Nathamuni and Alavandar--Sri Vaishnavaite acharyas , former the grand father of the latter.

The 50 kms of the distance from cuddalore ,was a treat to weary eyes .Green fields of rice stretching on both sides was a balm .Thank god urbanisation hasn't as yet spread  its tentacles in these life sustaining lush pockets , though a few , very few concrete houses amidst green fields have appeared giving me a sour feeling.

The line of swarthy skinned peasants sowing or weeding  in  a single file in the hot sun stirred my gratitude. If not for them [ tho' it is their ancestral vocation for livelihood] who will supply me rice?It is also amazing how mother earth never tires of her bestowing her bounty though used and reused for centuries!

The town was medium sized and quite dirty like most such towns in India.When will they ever become neat and tidy as those in us or UK etc?

Vishnu is enshrined as Vasudevar in this ancient temple .It has two separate sannidhis for the  2 most important sons of that soil--Sri nathamuni and Alavandhar.Sri Nathmuni of 10 th cent ad , collected and compiled 4000 Tamil hymns of aazhwars-saints of preceding centuries ,that were scattered around and nearly forgotten.He revived Sri Vaishnavism by dint of sheer perseverance and tireless efforts and re established the eminence of Tamil hymns in Hinduism at par with Vedas.

It is a wonder how some persons from somewhere arise and is a spark to revive and re vitalise Hinduism or  a branch there of.

The next spark is Alavandar, his grand son.who awoke to his real vocation --that of propagating Sri Vaishnaviam after a stint  as a very successful and prosperous ruler & householder ,the kingship that was gifted to him due to his precocious scholarship,and relinquishing his kingdom  and taking up sanyas ,after being gently reminded of true lineage by his late grandfather's loyal disciple.

He settled at Srirangam and wrote commentaries on shastras , gita, and so on and has written a beautiful Sanskrit's sloka known as strotramala which has all the ideas and seeds that helped Desikan few centuries later to work upon.

The priest pointed out to the nathamuni's sannidhi abutting the sanctum,  as the place of his original residence .
What propelled him to undertake such a onerous and daunting task? The proximity of the deity within coupled with the deep grief of losing his only and youthful married son  ?

If not for his single pointed devotion to restoration i wouldn't be enjoying the poetry's and hymns of saints/azhwars of yore and deriving strength and solace from them ,by mere thumbing through pages .
I registered my gratitude silently before his and his grandson's idols in unspoken words.

written on 30.10.1`3 1 pm

Tour of thiruvaheendra puram Temple town....cuddalore.0n 28 &29 .10 .13

The top floor terrace overlooked the only busiest inter section of Cuddalore ,a small and neat town whose traffic on the road was so small in comparison to that of Chennai even at peak hours that brought in its wake, laughter of relief.
 The early morning air was fresh and spiced slightly with the special  saltish twang of coastal areas.The sky was awash with white cranes flying in formations to  a specified secret distant destination in earnest silence.The squeal of some birds attracted my attention .It was that of pairs of white crested eagles  or Garuda's who were circling overhead leisurely and settled   gracefully on tree tops and then again taking off
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Seeing them i was reminded of Sri Desikan and his sanskrit slokas- Garuda panchgam, the Sri vaishnavaite acahrya of 14 th cent whose journeys across south i was tracing and the purpose of my journey to this town.
Sri Desikan lived in nearby hamlet Thiruvanheendrapuram for 40 long years
The place is as untouched by time and is more or less like it would have been at his time.
Vishnu is enshrined as Devanatha perumal in the temple since ancient times. The inlay of silver and gold plating's on pillars, entrance and doors inside the temple is breathtaking and reminded me of the gorgeous and rich decorations of temples at Manglore mainly that of srivenaktaramana temple

A flight of steps cut on the vertical wall of a hillock right in front of the temple takes one to the summit where Sri Desikan meditated often .This is a quiet place with a good view of fields and villages down below.It is here in one of his moments of solitude and connection that he received the blessings of Haygreeva an  avatar of Vishnu known for bestowing knowledge like Saraswati.Desikan then consecrated the idol along with the idol of the vehicle of Vishnu- Garuda [unlike the usual of practise of enshrining garuda outside the sanctum] and worshipped the chosen deity ever since and was  blessed with uninterrupted  literary flow  in form of Sanskrit and Tamil slokas ,philosophical treatises,shastras ,and innumerable poetic and scholarly works.It was in here that his Sanskrit works on Rama and slokas on Garuda were written.

Thanks to the efforts of earlier pontiffs of Ahobila mutt the place where Sri Desikan lived and held katha kaltshebham ---lectures  on dharma Hinduism and vaishnavism,in the tiny town below is well preserved .So is the well that Sri Desikan himself is said to have dug with his own hands as a challenge to one of his many adverasries .He was a versatile genius.

Maybe the call of the garudas that attracted my attention are the descendants of those garudas that must have attracted Desikan's attention as well as he sat meditating in total solitude on that uninhabited hillock and inspired him to write slokas of the bird that is considered to be the vehicle of Vishnu.

He used bis vivid imagination, command of language and scholarship purely to enhance sri vaishnaviam faith and philosophy.
Reading them and grasping their deep meanings is truly a delightful and exhilarating experience and his immense literary compositions are unrivalled;ed till date.

written on 30 .10.13 11 am

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Reaction to a blog.

Like i have observed earlier certain articles of certain journo's or blogger tend to prvoke me,try as i might to ward it off.
The latest provocation is that of sandeep, the blogger who mostly attacks only 'secular 'liberal  'commie' luminaries orbiting around in various guises and never any politician, most of which i have enjoyed reading in the net over the years .The concluding blog on Girish karnard.
Somehow i felt that in substance it was also directed against me.i am no fan of gk though i  was aware of his fame and recognised him, once when we shared the same coach [diff berths] of the train running from Delhi to madras , in my late teens as a college goer in late 7o's in one of my families annual trip to south.

Am i being extremely prickly or just exquisitely sensitive?What ever i take this as oppurtunity to clarify the position i took on Anna movt  on the net which i think is the main cause for cops to come calling to my flat complex and haven't left and have  taken firm roots ever since thriving  in draining me of all my juices.

I knew then and do still believe now that such movts cannot change the corrupt scenario [though it serves the sacred purpose of scaring the politicians out of their thick skins and to knock down some of their cockiness] ,but on reading the overwhelming down pour of comments[5000 and more] of young Indians from all over the world in the net on blogs and articles of msm's , [those days without pale face and co breathing down my back as they do now i had all the time in the world and the solitude to read them all ]i just  didn't have the heart to break their naive idealism.Youth is and its innocence is so short lived that i couldn't bring myself to dirty it with cynicism.So i just played along contributing witty one liners.After all wasn't the net youth's territory? And wasn't i in it because of my youthful son[late]?He too would have joined such a movt being as idealistic as all those young supporters of Anna and as a mother how could i break such innocent hearts?
So it was not an opportunity for me to grab and extend my support base.More over I am not all that tech savy to gauge my impact on the net with numbers or facts.

Second that Gk fled like a hare the moment cops came calling in a demonstration against the right is hilarious.I wouldn't have.And the very fact that i withstood 2 months of rigorous attempts to dissuade me and scare me out of my wits and am continuing with their crude and authoritative but shadowy presence into every nook and corner of my very private and social life and am even writing comic pieces ,enduring bouts of nausea and constant battles of wills , the punishments meted out by paleface and co for being myself, is no joke.To me it was similar as well as converse--double dose of opposing liberals attempts to civilise and prune me and try and fit me into the prevailing secular discourse.Ironies ,that those who coined the term psuedo secular themselves are snared into it for sake of politics and wanted me to be one!Since i have no political compulsions nor any guilt at being a conservative hindu, i stood it out..Then it is the nehru ghandhi parivar that is demanding its pound of flesh for daring to cross it.Probably lack of ambition and lack of scycophancy and ofcourse myHindu conservativeness  coupled with that darn irritating thing called conscience which would make die a 100 deaths if i went against it, is making me battle it out every day.

I suppose not one of those journo's reading  from the comforts of their cocooned life,what i write will have even the guts to' imagine' only imagine  their wives or mothers or sisters or daughters  in the de humanising situation i find myself in . Nor see their spouse reduced to popping pills  for a weakened heart rapidly failing  by intense shadowy pshycological tortures.  I am excluding  hardened politicos .they are a breed apart .All this may not faze them but only  a sudden milling of leaderless youths in India gate would so definitely.Jitters and nightmares.Thank god for them --the vast numbers of young indians relying only on their ability and merit .The one and only check on conscience less politicians.

The latest bout of nausea and burning in the throat i realise now was a whacking for my piece on malala.
It was a genuine observation on a precocious child.I didn't factor in the intl and natl [i am not all that well read] politics in it .Come to think of it not a single politician or secular liberals have spoken about her after her recovery.Though i am from a political family it seems that not even one cell in my body possess the cunningness, calculations, groupisms and pure selfishness ,etcetc that characterise a true blue blood politician .

I don't suffer from delusions or hallucinations but may be from grandiosness.And if Obama asked Nawab sahriff to speed up the trail of 2008 carnage because of that piece i am glad.The picture of all those innocent passengers lying dead in the rly way station and the anger of the daughter of the slain police man is still fresh in my memory.

If pf and co [ if he is not a muslim  he is more mus --[the voting type & not intellectuals or upper middle class] than a mus  is angry at my insensitivity to victims of drone attack[i read only later] i can't help it .Frankly all those innocent deaths at the station stirrs me more naturally they are my country people. That is what matters. I am a local.

written at 11 30 am 27.10.13

Note:In all probability the nausea etc was to prepare me to yell on the net so that the hand that may   have a hand in beating [bombing]the child would rock the cradle with soothing words.Cold blooded deviousness and indigestible [for ordinary folks like me and not to ppts] points to prior knowledge ,planning and preparation..The role foisted upon me forcibly is that of a conscience keeper of the bearers of the nehru-Indira ghandhi dynasty for unwittingly being its mascot[maybe causing in small measure as well as definetly rescuing it in its most terror stricken moments --the anna movt and nirbhaya -fury and may have even staved off another bout of civil society fury over 'criminalisation of politics' order by reading toi and its campaign half an hour before that 'nonsense' tamasha at  a media meet  ] as well as its woes [by predicting Modi's role in future of india and his increasing popularity[which i guaged only through the net]in real time ever since] ..

Happy diwali to all may real light dispel the darkness of all-----2.11.13.  
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The bright jewel --malala.

Watched the interview of Pak teenager Malala first on videshi and then on Desi TV .Was totally floored by that very young girl's [only 16] wisdom , confidence and clear articulation which is simply beyond her age.

A brave girl not only because she has not cowed down to Taliban's terror tactics  but also has charmingly refused to bow down to the unwritten code of domination followed by nearly all males in this part of the world ,that is label a woman of strong views  as loose moral or promiscuous and put her down at the slightest opportunity ,when she without the slightest trace of fear of this powerful tool ,used often with societal sanctions to keep a woman in her place ,replies to her mothers castigation to cover her face that she too was looking at the males staring at her!A very natural , innocent biological instinct of the adolescent age which she has admitted to without any hypocrisy though she must be fully aware of the repercussions of such admissions in a conservative society.Truly brave. 

Hmm the gene 'truth' seems to unfailingly pop up with great vigour and strength in some unlikely individuals in this part of the world..

The visuals of large number of her country men praying for her recovery was another eyeopener.Wasn't Pak an backward country run by the diktats of dark ages and the Taliban had the societal sanction to do what it does and did to her? It seems not.

Restoration.

Read the news that Foreign' hand' has been replaced by' red faced natives'    in the old old paper bearing the name of the majority religion.
The foreign hand had made the paper sort of interesting and open to debates similar to its main rival.

Would restoration imply that it would entail reading real intellectual pieces which was its signature long long ago?

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What i write is purely an reaction to news items, articles and my experiences and observations either sitting in my house or whilst travelling.

A National song by Bharathiyar.

The national song is on the exit of Bharat that is taking leave and on the entry of the new Bharat.

Cursing the exiting Bharat.

Gilli piditha nenchenai po po po
Vetru veru bhazhaigal karpai nee veetu vartahi karkilai po po po ,
Jaadi nooru solvai po po po ,
dharmam ondrum atrilai po po po ,
Needhi nooru solvai ,kasonndru neetinaal ,vannanguvai po po po

Meaning:                                                                                                                                                      Terror stricken heart go go go,
Instead of learning native languages and lore you are learning foreign language go go go,
You speak of castes in hundreds go go go ,
You will invoke hundreds of laws but will bow down to outstretched palm with cash go go go

Welcoming the new Bharat.

Illaya Bharathinai va va va ,
Yedhirilla valathinai va va va ,
Olliyizhundha nattinele nindrerum udaya gnayirru oppave va va va ,
Yerru pol nadaiyinnai va va va 
Khallai izhuindha naatile mun polave khallaisirraka vandhanai va va va

Meaning.

Young bharat come come come,
Un rivalled prosperity come, come come,
 Like a rising sun dispelling darkness daily do away with the gloom that has descended upon the country , come come come
Striding with the confidence of a bull,come come come,
Restorers of lost glory of Bharat come come come 

This song was written by this fiery poet burning with national fervour  in early 20 th cent[1882-1921]          but wasnt alive to see unshackling of india from foreign yoke or the  reform movments .    It has stood  the test of time as is the  nature  of the concept called Time ,that of being cyclic .   

Full form of vip.

I read this article in toi today [11.10.13]morning in which a' aman ki aasha 'fanatic has given a humorous interpretation  or full form ,  the wry variety  to the abbreviation of VIP.I'd like to chip in with my own full forms derived solely from my personal experiences and grasp.They are---

1. Very intrusive persons
2.Very intimidating persons/politicians
3.Very inhuman persons/politicians
4. Very indecent politicians
5. Vastly illusive preceptors
6. vested interest politicians
7. vigorous in preservation [of self and pelf specially by politicians]
 8. Vekkame [shame in Tamil] illadha [lacking it] politicians.

written on 11.10.13  .9 am

Coment on a article .

"When state does not do the obvious to grave problems society moves in to set things right.And as unlike the state apparatus,it is not organised ,it moves in a haphazard way.As a result the weakest ,the helpless are the ones to get hurt."------By Arun shourie

Reference from his book 'A secular agenda'

This is in reply to article in Hindu[8.10.13] by vidya  whose underlying message seems to justify the murder of members of extreme Hindu outfits by members of extreme mus outfits and sort of mocks at the states recent endeavours to establish law and order and security.

"It follows that the politicians, the press, the intellectuals who are today preventing the state from acting are far from being compassionate towards them .They are in fact setting up such people [or if i may add their community ]as targets".--Arun shourie on Bangladesh infiltrators.

Hindu as defined by Vivekananda

Mark me , then and then alone you are a Hindu when the very name sends through you a galvanic shock of strength.                                                                                                                                                  Then and then alone you are Hindu , when every man who bear the name from any country ,speaking our languages or any other , becomes at once the nearest and dearest to you.                                                                                                                                                             Then and then  alone you are a Hindu when the distress of anyone bearing that name comes to your heart and makes you feel as if your own son were in distress
Then and then alone you are a Hindu when you will be ready to bear anything for them ,like guru Govind did.
Driven out from this country , fighting against its oppressors ,after having shed his blood for the defence of Hindu religion , after having sen his children killed in the battlefield --ay ,this example of the great guru , left even by those for whose sake he was shedding blood and the blood of his own nearest and dearest --he, the wounded lion retired from the field calmly to die in South ,but not a word of curse escaped his lips against those who had ungratefully forsaken  him!
Mark me ,every one of you will have to be a Govind singh , if you want to do good to your country.You may see 1000's of defects in your countrymen , but mark their Hindu blood .They are the first gods you will have to worship even if they do everything to hurt you .even if everyone of them sends a curse to you ,you send out to them words of love .
If they drive you out retire in silence like that mighty lion, Govind singh.                                                       Such a man is worthy of the name of Hindu,such a ideal ought to be before us always.

From --Hinduism --its common bases--a lecture delivered by Vivekananda  at Lahore in 1897
courtesy Ramakrishna publications.