From my diary----22.3.14 Saturday 6 pm.Felicitations

After writing long long imposition viz my analysis and trying to understand the bizzare andaman triangle into which i was fitted in decided to de clutter my brain and escape from the flat with some shopping so proceeded on to co optex shop to buy curtains,shelving the strange but persistent urge to blog my piece on pm's last laugh.
A group of school girls got off the ptc bus lugging their school bags without a care in the world .The future citizens of india!To them i would be just another middle aged woman walking down the street .
Their laughter and innocence suddeny made me giddy with the importabnce of what i had done and achieved.I had fought a valiant battle against all odds , against conniavance of politicians who shout from the roof tops about providing security and empowerment to women including those who wear patriotism on their lapels , as well as weak kneed politicians from nearby countries ,as well as the complicity of our own govt and the pm and its vast machinery ,to turf one out  from their charmed circle -- a -political leader ,the supremo of Cong who had got caught in a legal tangle in US and every politician here as well there wanted to willy nilly rescue her though it would involve the blatant intrusion of  a foreign country into our own , that is foisting its principle of juriprudence , on me in my country.How dare ?


For the pm who perpetually throws up his hands ,the ukraine crisis provided a golden oppurtunity to finish of his hearts desire before demitting office --take a neutral stand on crimean issue and  and get russis's help in making it accept the new contract which has claim for damages whilst providing nuclear reactors [ the damages clause was what all the opposition parties wanted  here as well] to which russia had shown reluctance to accept till now.and had stalled the project .

How ever dark forces intervened .With re indiction of dev.k , the mystery of the missing plane , a full moon and a emotional  blogger at hand  who could be compelled to write reams with hypnosis and other shady works,an oppurtunity arose to find a escape route to sg .And they worked pretty hard on me to get the emotional evidence to unsuspecting jurors in US  courts  or even congress men to nullify the harsh law with a humane decison.To show what a illiberal place india was   and it had to come from the horses mouth viz me --.a middle class observer.

The more i was worked upon the more i resisted .Some what similar to the attempts and my ordeal in dec last which co incidently also fell on same date viz 8th and 9 th onwards  
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I did burst out showing how very conservative a society we are as well as my conservativness .For all my knowledge and reading western literature all my life the  long conditioning of generations upon generations will never allow me to go the full hog .This could have turned into sg's favou r if i had not proceeded to rant against obama [ cursing obama was very uncharacteristic of me .why should i ?he hardly figures in my life .so he was deliberately introduced or i was making a link with that similar dec 8 th episode sub consciously]     and list out  assumptions on the basisof articles in net and newpapers which i was forced to make owing to the mystery sorrounding sg's illhealth. since i felt it was unfair of me to cast aspersions on another person's character without being aware of the actual facts.

That did it the deal was off and pm by default was free to claim his laurels .His pliant complicity in this entire affair is obvious  , hence i am in no mood to praise him .In fact i had cursed him and his deputy as well in one of my imposition writings.Again out of the blue.

If i had succumbed on the crucial days--14,15,16 th march [when a decison was awaited to isolate russia ] to presures exerted for the sake of one womans' entry into US  india would have had to support US  [that must be the deal if not why was my diary writing so important and  broadcast internationally and keenly read ?]against russia and in the process suffer a set back in nuclear energy.Russia wouldn't have melted.

The bright faces of the young girls filled me with a warm glow.I have stood up against politicians, natl and internatl  so that these  young saplings the  ordinary citizens  may never see a power cut or grope in darkness in their adult life.

So i achieved something .And it is no mean achievment.

A policeman was training a jet black labrador  , which was totally out of place in the co ptex grounds and several men in gray were standing around . A lot of young policemen barely out of their teens lined the streets and the slum tenements idiot an adoloscent boy was made to run wild in the heavy traffic of the busy mount road .The felicitations from a perverse party.

Just what was i battling both the times at a sub conscious level and refused to surrender ?Cursing obama on 15 -16  shows it was the obama admns !The Americans!Maybe the fighting spirit inherited from my freedom fighter grand father spurted up and refused to submit to foreigners/westerners exercising their legal or admns system over me in my sovereign country.

All our woderful netas connived for their collegue and forgot the duty they owe to their people.

If i wouldnt have stood up this time around those girls may have to study in candle light or be denied the simple pleasure of watching tv and every affected person would chaffe at having to endure powercuts when all netas in unison claim that we are in race for super powerdom!

Those laughing faces of those innocent young girls whose hassle free future was in a way in my hands was my true felicitation

Realisation --diary written on 20 .12.13 -8am

The very fact that what i write personally  in my house is selling like hot cakes amongst politicians and media and what i bellow in anger in my drawing room is keenly heard by many a political ears and  my fast running thoughts  are constantly jaw read from above and neiboring flats as well as by an army of  constantly shadowing locals, as well as professionals where ever i go testifies to the fact that it is my emotions as opposed to my reasoning that is in great demand ,specially in the politcal class.

This explains my deliberate isolation to frustrate me in even having small social contacts with people around --neighbours,vendors ,relatives,pedestrians etc [like a open air solitary confinement -which perverted/autocratic mind devised this reminisent of kgb rule in stalinist ussr and more recently like despotic human right activists of western country mindset?] accompanied by constant hostility [which is obviously tutored but it does get on one if followed non stop for 2 years] to provoke me to display emotions either in writing or in speech or both..It is a pity that no one has the guts to stand upto the authorities and even if they do ,are not much  bothered about me..
Ofcourse the dominant partner in this unholy alliance would prefer that i restrict myself to verbal venting and not write it down --Naturally to cut losses.

Ok this diary writing is not for probing the unfanthomable devious intentions of politicians [by doing so  is only turning my once black hair, white and nothing more is coming out of it]but to list down the probables who could be influenced to talk  decisions with the help of my emotions.

1. Women in power [ofcourse] Specially those who are depressed at large part of time or at a given point of time ,who are therwise extremely busy and socially active.
2.Old men who  once held a lot of power  but now doddering on senility , isolated due to advancing age  and therefore emotionally vulnerable.Again at specific times.Of late even men of my age or a decade older and losing the grip are influenced.
3. Men  a decade or so younger than me .This category truly mystifies me.They are well educated, uptodate with happenings around ,well read ,more than me and yet my emotions touch them specially when they feel cornered or when their confidence is shaken
Just how do they relate to me is truly puzzling.Mind you this bunch belongs to all shades of opinions and idealogies and at times in direct opposition to each other.
The former two category is understanadable --age, nerves etc but this 3 category   a confident lot in thier very prime should beinfluenced by me puzzles me and made me try and solve it  early in the morning today.

Could it be that i appear to be in their generation?Same Popular culture, general knowledge,philosophical musings etc ,yet one step ahead in taking a firm stand which they would like to but are hesitant to do so?The typical dominant ,reckless yet vulnerable sibling or friend or alter ego?
Any way the people cookers who have already observed my influece are using me to emote suitably.Now who is a caged parrot in this embroiligo though this should also clarify to all as to who is actually ruling India.Political advisers with their caged parrots.

My innocuos middle class  neighbours   from this flat complex tucked away in south ,driving in thier two wheelers ,seemingly leading an ordinary citizens life are either facilitating decisions or even actually making decisions that affects this country  for all those super busy worthies  living in super spendour  in super sanitised areas ,who in time of political crisis crave for a feel of the dust , grime and grind of ordinary folks[ mine is artificialaly made] to steady them.

My luck,no no it is ill luck that i have been caught in this trap.If RG jumps with joy that he had empowered an ordinary citizen like me i 'd like to splash some cold water --facts--on this myth .I am no ordinary citizen
resaons
1. My family background--political and scholarship
2.My education.
3.Financial independance
4.My grief and resultant blogging.

I was already empowered  .This shady going ons is an attempt to curb it.

If all this imposition writing i am doing like one posessed is somehow to trap me into influencing ak to form a govt , my decision when my emotions were originally tapped into remains firm and the original one-viz--To form or not to form a govt is a decision only ak has to take by himself..


All those intelligent journos etc reading this make your connections with the gist in earlier blog.