Anti -conversion Law

Have heard of conversions all my life starting from my primary school days with my mother literally flying into rages borne out of fear of conversion to Christianity when i did not put a bindi on my forehead to school and later in college days  when i went out of the house even it could be  just to a nearby shop in carrying errands for the household.As i grew up to teenage,I had laughed at her fears and was uncomfortable with her traditional mind set but obeyed her orders.
As a young adult i read about mass conversions of tribals in north east who had become civilised owing to the sacrifices of Christian missionaries  .Those brave men [as per such articles and general impression in the circles i moved ]had left the comforts of their homes to live in forests infested with snakes and disease so as to educate uncouth and ignorant tribals and civilise them.So what if they were converted to Christianity in that civilising process.
                                                                          This was news ,a piece of information about distant regions .It hardly touched me .

When i first started to browse the Internet in my 50's having been introduced to it only in this late age  due to force of circumstances [if not for this blog site created for me by my son when i was 50 years old i would have never come on the net or browsed it so widely.Had he been alive after creating it, again i would never have got so involved in this blog site or read from Internet]

When i started visiting various sites to pass the time i smiled to myself at the paranoia of many bloggers  at conversions that took place earlier and also taking place now.

How can i billion Hindus be converted to other folds so easily?

Apart from gullible , innocent and ignorant persons getting converted enmasse which was only a news to be read and forgotten what bemused me more was the news of very educated persons and famous author like kamala das and several popular   film personalities of Chennai converting to Islam.It made me wonder how can change of ones religion to another to solve one's psychological or emotional problems? These persons who have converted are not in want of money but are trying to solve their emotional problems thinking this religion will solve it for them.These problems can be done away with  by any  trained therapist .                                                                                                                                           i  felt sort of let down only  when a famous no nonsense journo cum ex minister Arun shourie exhibited his bitterness at our religion and favoured Buddhism as a panacea for his terrible personal problems .Felt let down because despite his  scholarship and knowledge he was not able to find solutions and, comfort in our religion  nor understand it properly where as I in some what similar circumstances did not find it wanting  .

Few years back was going through the debates of constituent assembly that took place from 1947 -1950 which i found were available on the net which just a click .I wanted to know about the role my grand father played in them as i had heard from my father that my maternal grandfather was member of constituent assembly and had helped draft the constitution .

Going through his debates on various clauses of the constitution i learnt that he was forefront in pushing for a law on anti conversion!

This was surprising news for me .As i continued to read his arguments in favour of such a bill i was amazed at his very strong views on this subject.It also embarrassed me .It jarred at my moderate cum 'secular' views.My secular views =Do not offend other communities .

His convictions did not touch me . It was his views not mine.The fact that his quest was shot down by majority of his party members also did not bother me .This indifference was what i  felt  then but  no longer now.
                                                                                                                                Now i admire his lack of hypocrisy and his determination in  adhering  to his inner convictions  and his  perseverence in trying to achieve it.

Let me give two other examples of my secular reactions to happenings in public sphere.decades back.

1. When Vajpayee was the pm he called for a debate on conversion immediately after the murder of a Australian missionary. i found his call for debate so soon after a horrific incident as being  highly insensitive.
2. The present cm of Tamilnadu in one of her earlier tenure as cm had passed the anti conversion bill  .i .immediately  felt that she was doing a political blunder .She would be antagonizing other communities and this  would cut into her votes .She did away with  this bill  after sometime. I wish now that she hadn't.
3.Read about mass conversions to Islam by SC villagers down south few decades back.This news also didn't touch me.

Apart from my upbringing which was free of rancour or discrimination against other communities i     formed my opinions mainly by reading mainstream media papers which have consistently for decades in no end have  blacked out the news on the other side ,about provocations the other side could be facing and not supplying enough information   or statistics regarding any controversial activities they may  be indulging in   and generally  painting all minorities as goody goody ones pitted against baddy baddy Hindus ,This is the impression i still get by reading newspapers or watching debates on private  TV and even on DD, on such 'controversial issues'.It is no wonder that in a recent TV interview a christian father who was thanking the TV channel for taking interest in the mishap his son encountered ,said 'we rely only on media and supreme court' .Naturally as   media seems to be catering only to their needs and, problems and   is leaving the other 80 % out in the cold and refuses stubbornly to present the true picture with  impartiality of any 'controversial' happenings.All this i got to know only when i read information provided by other side on internet , so thorough was my brain washing for 50 years of my life.
I have no grudges against judges .On the whole i have great regards for their wisdom .

The media never supplies honest information on such happenings but only opinions.It does not allow the reader to form his or her opinion by supplying impartial information  on such subjects .it  spoon feeds.

My plight/ viz on the  conversion attempts on a middle class Hindu family  right in the middle of a metropolis will never catch their exalted attention . 
 
In recent times  several villagers in south Tamilnadu are holding the threat to convert to Islam if they were not given eminence in a particular  temple festival and its rituals.

Now i have some reaction .If they are converting to another religion with the sole purpose of teaching rest of the Hindu community a lesson for relying too much on vedic practises and rituals why can't they convert to Buddhism like SC's do up north ?Buddhism does not accept the primacy of vedas .It has no caste.yet it is considered as part of Hinduism.Buddhism that is practised in India consists of worshipping Buddha .In many Hindu mythologies Buddha is seen as avatar of Vishnu.Jayadeva the 12 th cent saint has sung songs praising Buddha avatar of Vishnu.Plus Hindu family law the personal of Hindus relying upon century old customs includes Buddhists along with Jain's and Sikh's  in definition of Hindus.

By leaving the Hindu fold they will be losing several liberal forward modern property and marriage  rights and all those constitutional reservations  enjoyed by them in education and in jobs.This is on the assumption  that state govts do not by pass constitution and gift those who have left Hindu fold with equal or more concessions thus making a mockery of the very basis of such concessions given to sc's making all those sc's  who have remained loyally in the hindu fold despite centuries of humiliations , to feel cheated and short changed.

It is my view that persons who convert to other religions like islam or christianity either under persuasion or on own accord so as to escape the low caste and very low social status in Hindu society to trade for equality in  society  with all  in these communities ,that so pride themselves in  thier casteless society and some of whom also deride our caste ridden Hindu society ,will be negating the very purpose of thier conversion if they still linger on to thier caste or sc status  by seeking concessions  from the govt on basis of caste they were born into.It is a blatant contradiction It is making a mockery of .Hindus penitence ,which  has been incorporated in the constitution.

Actual experiences in life  can touch one and give one the courage to take a stand .I am taking it now.I want a bill on anti conversion .Had it been a law as my grand father had so much desired would any one had dared to try and convert me with such impunity ?

The painful screwing i was made to undergo all the nights of June 2014 made a zombie out of me.The ejection of fluids from my bowels nearly every half hour in the first half of September 2014 dehydrated and exhausted me and broke my natural defences and confidence in me .The commands ,the nagging persuasions coupled with threats and lures  to leave my religion and become a christian along with that dehydrating process i was subject to , shattered my confidence in being a proud Hindu who had strutted around thinking that in my country which is synonymous to Hindus and Hinduism , no one will dare touch me .Well i was not only touched by this no touch torture but also abused in full public glare without a murmur of protest from my own community , viz Hindus !

What held them back? What held me back with total indifference to conversions all these years?

There is no concept of conversion in our religion .Hence we just don't know as to what it implies.It is unthinkable for us to intrude into others beliefs , customs and faith and to bring them to our fold either forcibly or persuasively .There was no concept of conversion from the very inception of Hinduism.Our minds have been set thus for centuries.It is only when i personally came up against the brazen conversion attempts of other two Abrahamic communities  in September 2014 , done in a unique manner by sending mental commands that i realized the following---

1.Conversion is a sacred and honoured duty of these religions and has its full fledged backing.They were launching a full fledged offensives on me because they have no guilt at intruding into others beliefs unlike Hindus.
2.As a Hindu we have no such religious duties and i had to tap into my own convictions to defend such a despicable onslaught and on my determination that i would rather die than change religion under persuasive threats and lures.

This conversion process  had started on me since 2012 .it was subtle then .it was shown in following manner
1.Touching and spilling off food prepared on the days shradha was performed in my house .The special food kept on the table after the ceremony was over and which no one else apart from immediate family members can partake , would be disturbed deliberately when i left the flat empty for just 30 minutes or so.
2. The pictures of various deities were dirtied , blackened here and there and smeared  with smelly yellow dirt in its corners.

3.Severing emotional links of my husband with me by giving him commands that made him find me revolting and rendering him powerless and  dumbing him down by giving him a heart attack and weakening his heart. some what like conversion under sword .Change or die or see those around you die.                                                          jeering commands were sent to me in the few intimate moments i had with my husband so as to put him down and come between us and create a rift, isolate me /us and then offer a kind shoulder.to me..Some what like love jihad

4.Created so much revulsion or fear  in him that he did not attend the 12 th day ceremony of both his elder brothers .It is on the 12 th day that the departed person is joined with our pitrus .Pitru worship is a important feature of Hinduism. This was very uncharacteristic him to do so.The  only reason for this could be the mental commands from rf's or micro waves  he was subject to like i am . Some rituals in these ceremonies were grossly trifled by Hindus themselves .They were clearly arm twisted to do so..i saw tears in a old woman's eyes when she did something odd in one of these ceremonies  which she knew was wrong and against traditional practises and her belief.

5.I caught myself reading magazines and books on Hinduism  from back to front and turning pages from back to front in the manner in which Muslims read their books .

6.Whenever i looked at myself in the mirror after washing my face to apply kumkum i could feel  or absorb the command of appreciation sent by some one watching me at my bindi less face.

.7. making me feel isolated from my community and all neighbours and making me feel very comfortable only  in Muslims company specially my immediate neighbours living in upper floor.

After 2014 -conversion attempts were full fledged .No nicety .No more slow and steady persuasions .It was all out attack.on me
The following was and is sought to be done

1.Complete wiping out of my identity by removing confidence in myself ,and in  my families abilities to protect me and the helplessness of few who knew as to what was being done to us .

2. losing sense of self worth by trivializing my abilities , teasing my private parts with rfs at will and applauding the incontinence as evidence of my base nature.  Constantly portraying me  as a child by making some chosen children in my flat to cry.before 2012 it was Muslim boy after 2014 it is a Hindu girl so as .to constantly hammer into my head that my mental capacity is no higher than a child of 4 and i needed to be taken care of.

This bring to my mind a interview of Muslim woman libber in a international conference on women say proudly that for all her capacities she is still a child to her husband who treats her as such.Was this applied on me as well and is still being done by those who have cunningly supplanted themselves in my husband's place?

3. Creating revulsion in all that has been part of one's life style so far.Erecting walls  against all those who were near and dear  by injecting poisonous meanings into filial and family relationships .Creating horror towards gods one has worshipped for decades and preventing one from visiting temples by making the priests mistreat one  and after 2014  to make me have incontinence whenever i visit a temple and make Hindus  recoil in horror at me , thus discouraging me from  visiting  temples .

4. Turning  ones own community against one so that one would would find it easier to cry and rely on the  shoulder of person of another community who is waiting in the wings for this weakening to convert one easily.                                                                                                                                 . 5.Totally uprooting the sense of belonging to this land and society and also slowly losing all sentiments attached to this land and creating insecurity Is this how some minorities feel viz no attachment to this land its sacredness and feel like as if they are visitors from another land who should keep aloof and away from others and stick only to their community  ?Those who were and are trying to convert do feel thus as they are dumping all this into my head and my life . if not why should the mental notes i make to be conveyed to my husband or son be always preceded as if on cue by
 presence of  a Muslim in the vicinity?

Now when i am gaining my confidence and regaining my memory ,it makes me wonder the guts of those converting me and their continued attempts though i have made it public in my blogs.

Apart from the sanctions given by  their religion for conversions what else emboldens them to act with such impunity?They have no fear of law because there is no law  preventing conversions.
Laws are bent , yet there will be some fear that the law can be evoked and this will be  a deterrent on such activities.

Amongst officer goers there is fear of scheduled atrocities act . So much fear that they dare not utter even a word against them for fear of landing in jail .

whilst we are prepared to have laws that penalises  dipping into historical injustices [ i hold no grudge against any law that  confers special priveleges to sc's who have not converted to christianity or islam and have remained in  the Hindu fold, The ill treatment meted to them by all our anscestors  even if it be a century and half back still makes me squirm in discomfort ]why are we baulking at laws to defend our religion and in my case against conversion?
it is also my view that all those who have been lured or persuaded to embrace islam or christianity with the main intention of upgrading their very low social /low caste state cannot then claim or be gifted with concessions that sc's enjoys.Then the  very purpose of their conversion viz equality with all in that community or being a member of a casteless society  that these religions so pride themselves in , will be negated. Caste is only for Hindus.And this is derided by  other communities.so why should it be  allowed to linger on into those converting to such communities, who have converted seeking  to  escape this  and to gain social status?  

                             How i wish my grand father had succeeded in those debates from 1947-50 on the need to incorporate articles  that would  come down heavily on conversions  and had brought his party colleagues  around.

written on 28.7.16.

Maybe i wrote this due to suggestions and induced head aches/microwaves ,though my opinion on this was clear  for a long time,many months before .Hence i hesitated to blog it as i a  had a suspicion that those who may have knowingly or unknowingly facilitated conversion  by jamming and squeezing out liquids out of me could have triggered this urge in me  to write down this  view of mine .

A  Hindu  neighbour's  genuine concern at conversion attempts on me betrayed by a unconscious jerk of head  on hearing the 'call to faithfuls' and then turning towards  me , a neighbour who may be working for the same govt which facilitated it has  how ever has given me  a shot of confidence   , the moral support that at least  one person of my community  , a   Hindu is  not indifferent to my plight  and i should blog this, .

Addition on 18.9.16 .
 A week back enroute to my annual trip to Sri Varadharaja swamy temple at Kanchipuram 50 kms away , by ac bus which has huge glass windows  despite my bodily pain and fever i had developed [probably induced for not shifting or deleting or putting this post on redraft] i observed that huge container lorries would come between the side of the bus i was seated and traffic on other side at turnings and junctions .I also observed that a ganapthi temple was  on the other side of the road or festivities  related to ganapathi puja were going on nearby .i also observed take offs of planes at such traffic snarls caused by such container lorrioes -the huge ones with metallic body without any aperture or windows .
This happened so many times on our way to the temple town in the morning hours viz 8--10 am that i knew that it was being done to protect not me . no way , but protect motorists or pedestrians who may be struck by deflection of Radio frequency waves that were being sent to me viz my implant in my teeth.i also experienced mild headaches . which i associate with micro wave mind tuning or commanding  radiation and signals .
So some one knew that i would receive heavy radiation and RF's on way to this temple and that some one was taking precaution to ensure safety of motorists caught unwittingly in this unceasing  tug of war being played over me.If that some one were one and the same viz with  the persons relaying these RFwaves then it would mean that some one wants the cake and also eat it.

That is on one hand encourage conversion and sectarianism  by allowing this censoring on my visiting temples ,specially those temples which are very popular in my sect  since it is on such temple visits that i experience obvious nastying and observe so much hullabula in traffic and on other protect motorists , [mostly from other communities who will be nearby  in pursuance of this conversion cum sectarian change that is foisted on me ,]stray defelction  of such heavy beaming of RF's from my gold bangles!
1.If i visit vishnu temples i will be made to have this incontinence .

2. if i am in vicinity of ganesha temple which are numerous , in every street corner ,there would be heavy beaming of rf signals  and there is liklihood of its deflection that could cause minor accidents  specially to christians near that temple.It could be deflection from my gold bangles or some  aluminium metals found on nearby  small vehicles  like auto or scooter or car or name plates of houses etc.

what a sick  and cowardly mind it is that devised this implant and executed it and is still executing it.Shame on humanity and also.shows little regard for our democracy. and rule of law .It is that person or people who are a threat to our society, humanity and country  and not me .It also shows intolerence to others views on any subject and total indifference to a persons inalienable rights .

If the  implant in my teeth was done by liberals in 2011,which is making me dance like a puppet, lose all my sense of privacy and make a mockery of marital and property rights what moral right do they have to speak of intolerence in society and polity to which they have suddenly woken up after change at helm in 2014?.

Those who turned a blind eye to my plight since 2011 despite my public pleas  have ceded and lost the  moral ground to show case me as a classic example of liberals/psuedoseculars intolerence .

Addition on 2.10.16
           I am seeing another  intent behind my conversion attempts that was launched full scale after 2014 general elections in September 2014.It is economic angle.

Those persons with wealth amassed by political power to sustain themselves personally as well as the costly  political process  [reality of indian politics] wanted to deprive me of my right to  my matrimonial home and my inheritance and render me penniless .[Both are laughably small when compared to the scale of money and wealth that flows in politicians hands ,yet they are my anchor as well as my freedom]
It could be a revenge for my posts on corruption .
Ok how would conversion make me penniless and literally make me beg amma thaaye pitcha podu [mother give me money]

The legal angle---

1. If i converted myself to other religions then i lose my rights under Hindu marriages and succesion act . i will no longer have right over my husband's property ,the matrimniol house and  he continuing to be a hindu and then to succession ,as i would no longer be a legal heir .So i would literaly be home less

2.If i converted i would lose my inheritance  from my faters side It will revert back to his other legal heirs .Which would mean that i would lose my economic independance and become penniless.
So had i succumbed to threats and lure mainly threats to my family held over me in september 2014 and even merely acquisised to  those mental commands to embrace christianity my economic deprivation would have been done in full scale.like i have said earlier muslim conversion attempts didn't involve any conversation but just one blowing of thier gods name in my ears once and then proceeding on the assumption that conversion was done .

Why was all this done?I observed that the saiboo --the upper floor resident who openly declared his intent to control me in 2012 showed his anger on two occasions viz--1.when i wrote about history, hinduism  and my observations on  blog censors .How could he control me if not through rfid im planted in my teeth .which means he has the ID number of the rfid.probably of my husbands also.

2. when i wrote about corruption ,even if it was  in humourous vein.

So apart from teaching me a lesson for my objections to censors  ,the upholders of secularism it was also to do teach me lesson for  my blog posts which were in tune with the national sentiment at the height of anna movt.against corruption .
this conversion attempts were done only when this movt had lost its steam viz 2014 as there was no more fear of  society
Poor Ghandhi did he take birth today a century and quarter back for this?

Now a very important question arises .Why should defence be involved in this conversion attempt ?

And the  question arises What is the job of the defence?Is it to protect the nation from external threats or save politicians from internal embarrassments?
Is it thier job to teach lone small time 'activists' like me  a lesson ? I never  considered myself to be a activist  either on safe guarding hinduism or on anti corruption .i was just taking part in public discourse off and on with my posts

.Probably others viewed me as a activist.

ok even if i am considered as an activist .Does blogging on Hinduism and corruption equal terrorisism and naxalism that defence has to facilitate conversion and  keep me under its eye?

Lets assume that i do pose a threat to security of this nation then why isn't my rfid [which was  slyliy implanted ,without my knowledge or consent  in a root canal operation in 2011,the source of all trouble to me and others ],disabled by using its password?

Those who could actually disable it are continuing with it and so it seems that those in charge  wants the cake and also to eat it .
Id like to relate a drama an emotional black mail that was played out on me in the days when i was successfully kept away from net and from blogging , in 2015 and conversion was attempted in full swing.
one day back from my walk i was confronted by hurt looks of the mother of a saiboo .Saiboo is the name given to  muslims in my family circle in andra pradesh and i prefer using it .Earlier i was confronted by  hurt look on mother of a param pita--[i have named christians as this word was often used in that month long conversion attempts in sept 2014].This was in reaction to my mentioning my discovery of thier roles in the, on going conversion drama  my diary.
These mothers  were making me feel guilty for ratting out on the pivotol role thier sons could have played in the conversion attempts on me by noting it in my diary.
It was like as if they were doing a great favour to me by sending thier sons in thier jihad and crusade missions ,to convert me  and i was being ungrateful !
It was also like this -that i went begging and pleading to them to convert me  as i realised myself or some body realised and made me realise  that i was  becoming communal day by day owing to the fact that i was finding solace in my religion to overcome the grief of  the death of vidat.And i was doing a greater crime by sharing my nuggets of wisdom from hinduism  and even radicalised  by linking some of it to my real life experiences!.
There fore i was upsetting minorities security and it was my bounden duty as a responsible citizen is,  to play down my discovery of hinduism or even better convert to one of thier religions  and forget my grief laden past .
So finding solace for my grief in my religion the religion of the majority community is communal .if i found solace in other religions it is secular!

Ok what if those two mothers were  in my place?.Would they be treated as communal for finding solace in thier respective religions?if they start blogging thier experiences and start sharing thier insight into thier religion on the net would they be considered as a threat to the secular fabric of this country and be slyly implanted with rfid's and a boorish hindu would be given the id numbers and he would boast when their husbands  and family is away ,.that he had come to control them?And if they still didn,t stop  reading thier religious texts and still share them on net will they be forcibly converted to hinduism ,citing law and order problem?

would any one dare to give control of a married middle aged middle class non brahmin woman say a obc or bc to a saiboo or any other person in here on the ground that they were  upsetting secularism  with thier blog posts? wouldn't that controller be done away the very next day and even cause riots to break out?Where as for years  no one has bothered about me being controlled and similar indifference shown  when conversion was attempted publicly.Brahmins like us who  are not very wealthy or not in  power  are soft targets in this game of power.We are the expendables .

It seems that for me to even to grieve i have to take permission .such luxuries are for the others and not for me.if i dare think of my past and my late sons tragic demise i will be doing the cardinal sin of pouring over various texts on Hinduism to get a grip over myself, undertake temple tours , share it on net and radicalise young hindus and incite them to become communal and be the sole cause for riots to break out in all corners of Bharat.
So i have to be kept constantly high with help of micro waves,be kept reeling in the induced artificial and superficial  pleasures of the body , if cancer results from blisters caused by such waves in my private parts  why should it matter to those doing it as they are safe and sure that such things like making thier woman scratch in thier private parts  when they are about to pray or make them leak in places of worship or near images of god  and constant pricks to thier sensitive places  with rf'swhich could result in cancer ,will never happen to them.




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The mystery of the broken handle of steel bureau

In April 2012 i found that handles of both my steel bureaus were  broken into half .Only today the reason behind this flashed into me .It was decided to beam radio frequency waves  and micro waves in full steam,to catch my attention .                                                                                                      If not how could i all of a sudden read my 1996 diary written when we were in our suburban house and a particular page in it where i have noted that my disappointment that my appointment as Notary public is still pending and have added wrily that since a Muslim officer is incharge of the section dealing with such appointments in the Tamil nadu secretariat,only Allah can hasten the long pending process .These lines were under lined to suggest the muslim angle  to my harrassment which was done with loud noises from the ceiling , the floor of muslim neighbours living above us. And why did i take so many other  instructions if not for such intrusive waves?This diary is kept in that bureau.

ok why was the handle  broken?Reason ---when i open this bureau to take out my clothes , a daily affair my right wrist has to twist whenever i open or close the door of this bureau.As it is our family tradition i have worn gold bangles since my marriage without ever discarding them for other metal or glass
or any other imitation .
From my recent observations of accidents -skidding of those motorists and autos coming from behind and the memory of a policeman shielding his eyes when his van suddenly came up on me in a turning in one of my morning walks and reading about  rays on net and how only gold and aluminium has this ability to deflect them  i wondered if there was design behind breaking the handle of this bureau.At that time i had thought that it was broken during one of the prying sessions of those involved in this to control me when we were away on temple tours leaving the house empty.Pretty innocent of me .

Now i am sure it was done to protect some one from  possible deflection of rays whenever i opened this burau.
The window of my room is in same line ,and a thick wall shields .Moreover i remember that it was people coming from behind my back on vehicles who skid and swered crazily . Went to this bureau's handle and looked behind me.i could see my adjacent neighbour's drawing room window . A small portion is visible through the door of my bedroom and  window of my drawing room .in fact the western window of my drawing room and the eastern window of thier drawing room face each other.They like us had always kept thier windows open till 2o14.We still keep our windows open for ventilation.

Ok back to my discovery -If the handle was not cut into half my wrist would  twist in angle to that window of our adjacent neighbour.Since heavy rays were beamed at me and us probably smothering our entire house in its radiation in 2012  precaution was taken to break this handle lest rays get deflected and sting eyes or cause cramp to any one who is near the window of my neighbour or entering that flat from the door adjacent to that window.
Similarily the steel beuru in my son's room  was also broken .Again i stood facing it , twisted the handle open and looked behind .A part of the window of the  kitchen of this adjacent neighbour's flat was visible.it was in direct line to my right  wrist ,exactly in manner the drawing window of this neighbours is from the handle of my bedroom burua.Their sink is in a angle and naturally a lot of work is done in the sink of a kitchen.
These neighbours had always kept the windows of thier kitchen as well as thier drawing room open till 2014.Closing them only when they went off on trips.It was in 2014 that all the windows looking into our houses were firmly shut and never opened  till a day or two back .It is closed again today.When i asked my neighbour the reason, way back in 2014, she said that she kept them closed to keep off rats which were causing a lot of trouble.
The reason is surely due to fear of deflection of rays from the heavy dose beamed at us probably constantly .If not why should i still hear that click near my ears?Hearing clicking  sound in ears is sign that i am in path of  micro wave radiation .i hear it in South west  corner of kitchen ,north east corner of dining room and in my bathroom and now when i am typing i heard it , in this  bedroom with window on my right side .All are in an angle to open windows and ventilator.Windows that look out at first floor of tenements on opposite side or to flats in the next apartment complex.
                                                                                                                                                                      
My observation is that deflection of rays happens in same level as i am or rather when  my wrist is near my chest.It is only then skidding etc takes place .So i was puzzled at why fear of death ones were put 
when i was doing my meditation in my bedroom seated on the floor.if the reason was to disassude me from using this room when planes fly low or some one is passing in the street below and nothing to do with conversion or change of sect.So sat in same position and saw that some windows , of opposite  one room tenements are in a angle to where i sat .During japa wrists get twisted whilst using fingers to count the number.Probably this can deflect the rays and harm those near the windows of the tenements.Though they are not behind me but at front and also not in same level.so donot know whether  they are at risk  or not.
There is a connection between planes landing , huge ones that are near and visible from my bedroom window  and the heavy cover of electromagnetic waves i am always under  .The twisting of my gold bangled may not reach to the height of the cockpit of these planes but surely these waves -radio frequency could affect the gps in the landing system of these planes. This explains why planes  who have used this path regularily 24 /7 were off twice.once during local assembly elections and before that when i blogged about my discovery of flights as is visible from my window or heard overheard and their impact on our daily activities , co ordination all our activities with flights and in causing incontinence in me.I also observed this connection to flights and incontienece in me in Bangalore as recently as a month or two back .
                                                     One day soon after my brother's demise in August 2014 the timing co-inciding with my meditation in my bedroom  my adjacent neighbour mouthing words of condolence on seeing me near this small temple on her way to work said something strange that had me wondering ,She said 'we realise only when we ourselves get it '.That made me wonder then ,as to why is she telling this to me a person who has seen worse grief and she also knows it .Now when i think of this was she warning that i was endangering a lot of lives  either with my blogging or due to deflection of heavy microwave radiation and a lesson was taught to me?

If it was to do with micro wave radiation did i ask to be bathed in it in this manner 24 hours a day?      It is victimising the victim.                                                                                                               If it was to do with blogging or writing  why didn't any authority keen on law and order or defence of the country, come forward and warn me directly instead of all these shadowy tortures ?

What ever the reason may be behind the mind control that  was done and is being done  by  using electro magnetic  rays whether to convert me or purify me or make me change my sect or merely liberalise me in 201 2 but used , definetly to convert me or change my sect in september 2014 and from then onwards very brazenly[conversion attempts were subtle from 2012--2014]  the evidence that it was used viz rfs and microwaves on me generously is  from the clicks i hear.The mute solid testimony  are   the  handles of the two beurues that were broken in 2012.
                                                                       The fact that  beaming of such rays has intensified after 2014 is evidenced by my adjacent neighbours keeping their windows firmly closed since 2014 onwards .

written on 19.8.16

correction --28.8,16
Today in the morning was standing in my balcony at front of the grill which is the only spot in that balcony to be open from  my head to foot and is in centre of the balcony to breathe in fresh air .On my left ,windows and balcony of ground floor flats of next apartments is in a angle. i can see them eating and they can also see me .It belongs to a family of  another community .Just above it the fisrt floors balcony and windows are  also in an angle to where i stood .The bespectacled thin college going son of this  family[which i think is hindu as they perform Ayyapan puja] was used  in  some sort of casing used on me profusely a year back when conversion attempts were in full swing.So it could be either or or, or both. My left hand wasnot in chest level when i turned .it was at thigh level.so were my lower parts targetted when i stood there or whenever i stand there?As a motorbike left flats i turned to my left to avoid the auditory masking . Immediately i heard a crash of metals and saw a van turning into open space stop. I guess it skidded and banged against the poles .As i watched  the minor commotion slowly it sank into me that  maybe this  was caused by my gold bangles distracting the elecro magnetic waves beamed at me or was it engineered from other floors inmates to make me feel thus?The memory of a police man turning his head abruptly on coming on me suddenly makes me also feel that it could be  truly a deflection from my gold bangles and its instantaneous result is that banging of that van which i think was also turning into that open space exactly when i turned left and my left hand hanging down was in a angle to that van or its driver .As usual this unnerved me for some time .
ok this made me think again .It is my left side that is targetted  with waves so how will my twisting the burau handle with my right hand cause the deflection if it was broken to avoid deflection?
I tried to recapture my earlier habits that have been changed over the years.I remember that i used to open the bureau standing in a angle to it and not straight backed .This standing in a angle and as against turning my back completely when doing anything is the cause .I would have lifted my left hand to press the door whilst twisting opening the handle with right hand and that left hand is in angle to the neighbours hall window .And if micro waves the mind altering ones or radio frequency waves were sent through my window facing north  as it is my left side that is attacked then it is my bangles on my left hand that could cause the deflection . The bureau is in eastern wall facing west.
                            What a lot of observation has been gone into regarding my routines , postures  etc so as to take such precautions when it was decided to start operating rfid in my implant in full swing in 2012!
The nearby temple has again started its loud advise and observations as if in response to my writing and also thinking!one such observation  is this -- 'You being alive is itself a great wonder'.Is it reffering to my over activeness and false geity unlike my lethargic and depressed self earlier on  before 2012 ?
Maybe . ok did i ask anyone to infuse me with such artificial youth?No!Did i ask any one to prop me ?Did i ask anyone to prod me on constantly to make me labour on and on?No .

i have to be my age even if it meant i ll have some ailments related to my age and declining immunity unlike the artificial induced ones like making me pass fluids or cause   premature cataract..

Why am i expected to be indebted to people who are playing havoc with my body and mind? 

An example as how i am deliberately set up for sectarianism

When i was successfully scared out of blogging i kept away from it for nearly a year.One day i decided to get my translations of aazhwars typed and then print it and sell it and make money , .making money out of my blogging was the original purpose of creation of this blog site by my late son .I wanted to see whether this objective could fructify by printing and selling translations that were popular in my blog.
Since the cost of printing was daunting nearly 35,000 rs which was due to the condition that a minimum 500 -1000 copies have to be printed in one go , i dropped the idea of printing .Even if i paid the above sum would i be able to sell all the copies without any backing  from publishers or sellers advertisers?Un likely.I would have to store them in my cupboard and let dust gather over it
So i dropped the idea and decided to get the typed script in a book form and get a few  printouts  40 - 50 in number and see if they sell.If not distribute them amongst relatives .
So i first got a print out of 50 copies of Periaazwars translation of pallandu and thondaradi podi aazhwras thiru palliyezhuchi .Had to do 6 -10 proof readings and after several tiring trips to the xerox shop and back , finally had my first baby in my hand.
Sent few copies to several organisations related to hinduism and the only favourable response was from the book stall at Tiruvallur veeraraghava swamy temple .The manager said that all my copies were sold out as NRI's were interested in such simple and interesting translations .I didn't even get back the sum i invested as a heavy discount  was requested [which seems to be the norm in sale of books related to hinduism]and i obliged dedicating the proceeds made by the temple to the deity.But the fact that were takers for my booklets  encouraged me to translate all 3 aazhwars mainly thirumangai aazwars pasurams on Veeraragha swamy and went with great enthusiasm to this typing and xerox shop to  get 20 printouts in the first instance and then if they wereall sold in that temple then get more printouts .

So i sat down with the female typist to get it typed .The english translation  was full of errors. I sat with her nearly 10 times in succeeding days to get the correct spellings.and finally managed to do so .and with great happy anticipation asked the owner to take print outs and staple them into book form.He did it hastily amidst lot of commotion in that small shop.
Came home with the bundle and put them in cover to be deposited with  the courier.next day .i was so sure that it would be perfect,that i didn't even check the contents.Next day just before mailing i glanced at it casually and saw that nearly all the first and last words were missing .Blurred and missing.A mistake in alignment?That man was very experienced  in taking print outs etc , so unlikely .

The machine was deliberately jammed .why?earlier,even the typists mistake free scripts on computer were after second or third proof readings were  found to be full of spelling mistakes much to her amazement as well as mine .We were sure that final typing on her computer  in that shop was perfect ,without any mistakes when ever we sat together and completed the correction and even revised it.So some mischief was done to her computer so that the spelling mistakes kept cropping up , tiring her as well as me.But after 10 th attempt it was spelling mistakes free but the faulty print out rendered the book meaningless.
so why was this being done .I felt that  it was  done deliberately .The reason is this--In one of the pasurams/stanzas Thirumangai aazhwar whilst praising Veeraraghava swamy [mahavishnu]in his Vamana avatar says that Ganga which Vishnu created in his Vamana avatar washes his sacred feet and then falls on the matted  locks of Siva.  So sectarians the newly found ones are up in arms  viz a drama of being up in arms was sought to be created.
Today i saw a popular and famous Sri vaishnavaite scholar who gives discourses all over south and comes regularily on tv, tell on Podhigai which is regional version of national DD tell this--When Arjuna a staunch devotee of Siva wanted to perform his puja ,Krishna stopped him as time for the battle was nearing and asked him to put the flowers at his feet.Arjuna couldn't didn't like hindrance to his daily puja  but agreed to his friend's wishes . and obliged him
Later when he opened the puja box he saw the same flowers adorning the Linga.making him realise that Krishna the avatar of Vishnu is supreme and he is in all ,even in Siva.That scholar was quoting from Mahabarata !
This telecast in seen by thousands of people , may be even a lakh .MY copies a pathetic 20 ,only and its market is only in a temple which is under srivaishnavaites ownersip and managment.These booklets  may find takers or may not.where as Mahabharata is known or read by millions of indians of all sects for the past thousands of years.And that scholar has a wide viwership unlike me.

But i ll be hounded for sectarianism! If this is not being set up deliberately then what is .it?
What i was doing was translating honestly  without any air brushing  what the aazhwar has written Again what is the need to cover up? Similar reverse stories abound in saivaism also and all this is accepted by both sects without this foolish antiquated drama of hostility between sects which is being woven around me .only me.
Finding  the booklet riddled with  printout errors i didn't mail them to that temple's book stall.The temple town where my late son met his fatal accident.

Pettiness abound in those wanting to make my life meaningless .
If i blog it is wrong.If i leave blogging and branch off to other meaningful one's that is also wrong..What ever i do will be frowned upon

just what am i supposed to be and do?Be as active as a maid servant or labourer and make mental notes or small conversations with every muslim in  my vicinity which has been programmed for me with flight schedules and auditory masking?

The facilitation of this outdated concept of sectarianism seems to based on this --Sects within hinduism fight against each other [like it was done during aazhwars and Ramanujars times]and leave other communities alone.
I am sectarian as i was born in a sect and raised as one belonging to that sect and never deviated from my sect.and am proud of my sect.But i respect gods of other sects like every other indian and also visit those temple with as much respect i show to temples of my sect
ok  since i have never deviated from my sect i am sectarian so i am secular and therefore i should not defend my right to blog on hinduism and history in general .The blogging   generally on hinduism that  causes displeasure and disquiet in other communities.
                                                                          Had i stuck only to blogging only on srivaishnavism my sect, from the begining i would have been be let off.but i defended my right to pursue my sect as well as the main ocean that it originated from-Hinduism.So i am communal.I am a shining example of a sectarian being communal .A rarity as per the drama enacted over me.
the irony of all this is laughable.in which country would one have to put up such a fight for airing one's own  views on one's  own religion ?Leave alone other countries even in this country several can air thier views but bar is mainly for me.
It is truly puzzling how my views and observations on my religion without an ounce of offence to, other religions can cause so much disquiet, displeasure to other communities that it has culminated in a horrendous conversion attempts with use of latest technologies and unusual methods .And it is still going on .
written on 17.8.16

No lessons learnt from floods.

This is a open space at front of our flats.It is opposite to the small temple that is built in the next flat.This space was absorbing all the rain water , recharging our wells and staving off flooding .Whilst streets few metres away used to be under water our street  never was thanks mainly to this open space.
Few years back it was filled with gravel and cemented alarming me at the thought that rain water will no longer be so easily absorbed .
During recent floods this open space became a swimming pool and our street under a sheet of water whilst just few yards away the roads were bone dry.
Yesterday night a thick concrete filling of this space was done the noise disturbing me .What is more disturbing is why lessons are never learnt from past calamities.Next time round if there is continuos rainfall with heavy spells i am sure the water will get collected over it.
In last floods waterswirled around ground floor of flats.Maybe next time around it may reach the first floor of all the flats in this area.

Neighbours who suggested incontinence ,sectarianism and muslim conversion

1. Incontinence or discharge of fluids
 Before 2o14 May i  was in talking terms with my immediate neighbours or rather they courted out the way.
when i was dragging my left leg  in my walking  either in terrace or in my regular morning walks [which i never left]even after a bout of sudden pain and its immobilisation in 2012 , the wife of a neighbour in my landing enquired about my ailment viz knee pain and  siad in that very landing, that she too suffered from knee pains that vanished when she had her monthlies.
I  as clearly taken aback then as i thought her to be much older than me having  a grandchild and therefore well past mensturating age.
I guess that she was deliberately putting that suggestion into my head as a precursor to incontinence operations on me. 
I always suspected that family's role in 2012 nastying.They didn't hide it much .Were quite proud of it.
When i had a showdown with her husband to know what they were doing to me in, 2014 . whilst i was angry and her husband nervous she went and stood behind me like as if that would control my emotions.
Which meant that she was doing this to me for long with help of cameras whilst i read or relaxed or had arguments with my husband and son in my house.

She never masked the revulsion or contempt she felt for me and i got to know from her son's wedding invitation that her mother had a christian name whilst her husband according to her had special entry to Murugan temple in tiruchendur in a annual function.
Her son who was and is active in nastying through auditory masking.He had a very poor opinion of my late son' when he was alive. He even suspected him of ripping off the seats of a tenants motorbike like as if vidat was a rowdy or slum dweller and had the gall to complain about this to me.He believed from the beginning that we were a low down family.  Prejudiced from the very begining of our stay in here.
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2.The muslim resident of upper floor . who also courted me out of the way before 2014 suggested that i watch serials, socialise instead of writing and blogging.Be a house wife.
After 2014 in my show down with him he some how took the topic of Thenagalis and their fight with vadagalais over putting namum on a temple elephant.Thus suggesting sectarianism within sects.Those days  even now i write only generally on hinduism which i guess was not to his liking which is in tune with a notion stated in toi paper that those who are sectarians are truly secular.and those who are not are communal.I can show any number of sectarians who are also terribly communal .

His son thinks i am a loony .He often gestured this opinion he has of me when i used to walk in the terrace and probably this  contempt at me  arising out of my blogs has been put into action to show me as one. I am saying blogs because this person came into picture only when i started blogging unlike the earlier christian cum hindu neighbourand family

3. Lower floor resident .A religious hindu.

After 2014 he was intent on me wearing back my mangal sutra .He places food on the compound wall of the above mentioned upper floor resident generally after ringing his puja bell when my hub is meditating and i feel pain in my knees or incontinence as if to say muslims are controlling you.
of all the three i believe him .I saw genuine anxiety on his face when a  call to faithfuls were made from south side in a yoga session and he turned towards me. There were many in that gathering but none were perturbed by it save this person of that call nor did any one turn towards me.

Those who were inimical or had very poor opinion of Vidat when he was alive . i mean my neighbours have become my enimies once my blogging picked up.

The lfr -hindu,in b block had a lot of fights with vidat over his playing cricket and often threatened .to call the police.Through symbols viz squrril screechings it was made known that he is behind this cruel implant in my teeth with rfid etc which has removed my self respect and confidence and clarity of mind and possibly behind causing incontinence or in delibertely  provoking  muslims against me by letting them know about it and linking it to them.

May be muslim youths who could not stomach his friendship with a muslim female colleague when he was alive  cannot stomach my blogs now.

rays and its deflection.

I think i am under a cocoon of micro wave or radio frequency waves since 2012.This cocoon thickened after 2014.
How do i know this?
The accidents that happen on the streets when i am walking .The sudden swerwerving of vehiclesThe glares that follow holding me responsible .My observation of flights and the sudden freeing of my mind for those few minutes when a huge plane is landing slowly which is visible from my window.It is those few minutes that i feel clear headed and like my original self. The diversion of such flights immediately after i blogged my observations though it be for only a day .

So the crux is plane and thier flights.Our activity and moods is entwined in it .How? with liberal dose of those mind altering waves.
The accidents are also evidence of this fact .The rare deflection of these waves by my gold bangles or gold ring  in my index finger that causes the stinging of the drivers eyes and consequent loss of control of wheels .That accidents are rare  coupled with my feeling free in those few minutes when due respect is shown to a huge plane landing nearby by stopping these rays and there after a mind which is totally muddled with trash dumped in by all and sundry  through constant questions and suggestions shows that  i am engulfed at all times with these mind altering micro waves and radio frequency rays .

effect of contracting my brain for a month --June 2014 and later squeezing out liquids--
1. Stopped reacting too much to news items .

2.Scared to emote too deeply for fear it being exploited by my observers .

3.Have become a public tamasha.Thoughts are constantly read and conversed with.My physical weaknesses,like incontinence, which didnot exist before  2014 are tom tomed to public.My mind is so ravished and my body so   constantly teased ,it has been made so transparent without even a tiny space for feeling like myself with the comfort afforded by, the rights and duties and my own capacities  i had always taken for granted  like every other person does ,that it is like as if i am being compelled to lose my mental balance. 
It is like as if some one is bent on seeing to it that i no longer see this as my country ,this as my state, my belief as mine , my time as mine,the rights that all enjoy are not for me ,and trivilising my capacities that are self made and self earned like as if they are not mine.

4.lost my I sense.The feeling that this is my body , my thoughts, my property, my life, my responsibilities to my family,and convictions in my values,beliefs and faith.have forgotten who i am what i am , what made me to be what i am viz experiences in life,

ok why is my mind controlled so meticulosly?

If not for fear of its influence  on some not liked by others coupled with a grudging respect for its worth, no one will go to this extent to control my mind for years spending money and resources. 

written on 14.8.16

Why do i feel that i am in Saudi Arabia and not in Hindu Bharat?

Why do i feel i am not in Bharat and that i am in some muslim country?
1.The sound blasting wasdone from upper floor and then followed by constant knocking on the ceiling  as if reading my thoughts and as if they were giving me constant company whist cooking or dressing or bathing or whilst reading or watching tv  It is a Muslim family that resides in the floor above me.
Why am i forced to keep in constant communication with them twenty four hours a day for past 4 years ,thus which says see me see me,hear me hear me take notice of me and talk only to me?

To remove the feeling that i am living in my house bought by my Hindu husband but it is a  space taken over by them viz Muslims  .                                                                                                        Further wherever i go my  space the private space in  a hotel or temple or car or train or bus is not mine and will never be mine though it is i or my husband who pays for all the taxes, bills , tickets diligently from  honest earnings  .

2. I guess that flight and co -ordination of vehicles  + micro waves makes me have a mental conversation with my husband or son [i observed that this] and immediately after i do it in my daily house work or whilst relaxing a auto will go down screeching triumphantly or corporation garbage truck will lumber down banging its doors triumphantly or the de-frost switch of my fridge will pop up with a loud  irritating click  .All these sounds are to inform me that i have spoken to members of other community specially muslims and not to my husband or son .
Why do i think it is only muslims i am talking with .Because i observed that when i ever i have this urge to make a mental  note  there is a Muslim in the vicinity  either by design or otherwise.That person could be anybody from a decent middle class neighbour to a dirty lungi or topee or persons from lower strata on the streets. but on the whole it is made out that  i will be conversing with a muslim mentally from my heart when ever i have such  such conversations may be only a snippet  , a small reminder of having to buy this or that or about making mental note to enquire husband about the time of a function to attend or timings of the train to be caught.
That is ,a feeling has been created in me  and to all those to whom this is broadcast that  as a house wife the mental notes i make are because there is a muslim in vicinity and that  they all stand in the place of my husband and son .Each one of them is either my husband or son !

 How did i relate my mental notes to Muslims so specifically? I always hear a slight click near me ears or even within my ears when ever i a make those small mental notes to be conveyed to my husband or son.and this followed instantly by those screeching autos . switch of fridge or sound of bullet in distance or see a muslim walking on the street.

What a sick mind that is which devised this.

I dont know as to how long this was being done to me as i got on to it only a year back.At that time fear of consequences  coupled with embarassment and'Oh let it be attitude' due to constant blanking out of mind by incontinence kept me away from blogging all this or even think or write about it .Even my thinking was stopped with constant painful headaches and with kids screaming and wailing around me as if to warn me of consequences even if i dared to think, introspect or analyse .

The realisation that i am making mental note only when a muslim is around makes me feel that i am being systematically converted .I feel that i am sorrounded only by Muslims .Really laughable in a hindu majority country.But this is what is being done to me. If i talk it is to Muslims. If i dress it should suit thier sense of purdah, if i look out of the window of my house or car i should see only topeesand purdahs and mosques. if i read a sign board of shops it should be of Arabic ones .at other times i should see only dark people on the streets i walk .Maybe christians.Always see sweepresses  on road or in station or shops or temples and dark drivers in cars and vans .And when i am not seeing mosques etc i have to register Jesus statues on the road side and see churches.It is either this or that with former heavily smeared and loaded against me.
Shame on those who allowed this and are allowing it.

Is this Tamilnadu and Bharat .Are our leaders hindu's?Despicable act of treachery to make a person like me of hoary heritage and sentimental attachment to this sacred land of Rama,rishis,vedas ,aazhwars acharyas ,ancient temples and rivers  and make me feel scared of it and its people as the lack of protest from any quarter from hindu'or eevn a flicker of support from them has made me view them as impotent vis a vis muslims,  and make me feel so alienated that i really feel like as if i am living in Saudi Arabia with Muslims ,muslims every where and thier strict diktats.

In the manner in which sage vishwamitra created a  separate loka for king trishanku a mini enclave/loka  of muslim emirates has been created around me...

Next , i am made to feel that only tilaks viz  Shakthi followers need to be recognised as Hindus and rest are dynosaurs[extinct]That the six sects of hindus donot exist .When i am not seeing muslims and christians i have to see only these tilaks and feel that they are my only saviours And when i visit temples of my sect be punished with extreme  fatigue, mental pressures , swallow the shameful disrespect  they  cause to the deity by giving me the incontinence in the premises itself [i see only tilaks, iyers along with thier families visiting these very temples look at me gloatingly after a spell of such incontinence.]
Whose sick brain child is this ?

On one hand isolating me from my Hindu community and making other communities give me company
and on other cause incontinence and several other bodily abuses for professing my sect .?

why is some one doing this deliberately to me make me blog it all  and thus put down our ancient heritage cum modern democracy?

written on 12.8.16

Effects of headaches and incontinence on me.

Headaches--The deliberately induced ones makes me write on and on about anything i see on tv even for a second and form a instant opinion , which i may not write otherwise.
This means that my thoughts , my reactions to news items or on  my own harrassments , provocations, emotional responses to an event [deliberate ones] are minutely observed and then a heavy dose of radiation is given after temple visit coupled with nearness to a handicapped persons or even members of sad looking ineffectual muslims and glowering dark persons emmiting unconcealed hatred.

2.Incontinence, if heavy blanks out my mind , making me forget who i am and what i am and dissuades me from writing or blogging.It brings a lassitude that says why write or blog specially blog this silly stuff .just relax, eat and forget every thing.
When it is light it makes me concentrate only on my body and blocks any deep musings on my life or past or future or about anything in public discourse.It makes me listless and lethargic.

So headaches are given after a close contact with handicapped persons ,mentally depressed people  ,persons with luekoderma and extremely dark people,every time on a temple tour.
So i have to keep away from them.So how many people am i expected to avoid if i was to be myself and be free of incontinence, obsessive writing , sudden gripping of fear [ very dark people coming from behind me is supposed to make me shudder .it was thus once shown to me in  ttd temple .was meditating in the prayer hall and then felt a sudden fear.a man in grey safari suit hustled a huge dark woman from behind me and looked at me pointedly as if to say such people cause me fear!suggestion given to me after using mind altering gadjets on me when i wasn't alert . i have been seeing and moving with very dark people since i came here 35 yeras back and i never once felt this fear in thier presence]Muslims, christians, persons of other sect, my own sect and its subsect,-thengalais,
Is it the entire population of india  that i should avoid ? .Crazy .
so this is what is expected of me--
1.No service to handicapped .No reading to blind.If i do i will be given headaches  and then i have to  write and write and analyse and analyse .
2.No mingling or even going near a muslim or stand in a angle or look out of the window or balcony when a muslim passes or is near  .This is made known by sudden headaches.
3. No gold jewels , even mangalyam as it will cause accidents[one in a 10000]
so no walking or looking out of window less i cause accident to a stooge sent to case me.
Instead of putting me in a jail was this shadowy jail conceived?

Yes headaches + proximity + auditory maskings are used on me on and on so as to make me write on and on 



written on 12.8.16

How is my incontinence known to others?

How i that the  tiny miniscule incontinence within me is known to others?
1. May be i think 'oh no not yet again ' and this is jaw read.
2.Those familiar with my expressions or experts in facial readings can read or note my embarrasment in my face or the sudden surprise i unconsciously let out.
3.Or the gadjet that is used to cause this viz heating that creates annoying sensation  and cooling of my body tissues that causes water to condense and remove the heat, let it know to the user whether the target was reached and achieved successfully.

     Why is it let known to others who are not even remotely connected to me and make them feel revolted against me, ofcourse this scientific explanation will never be given but will be told that i am on heat and only youths of other communities as well as youths of my own community but belonging to other sects-- shakthi, or my subsect --thengalais and dark sc's are capable of cooling .
me.                        To create an impression that i am a lecheress on the prowl hunting for young males !
Again why?
1.Revenge for my writings?
2. Maybe to find a way out the implant +rfid problem without the govts hand getting soiled in it.Create so much hatred and revulsion against me amongst all communities and sects so  that one of them could be provoked to solve it for them by doing away with me.--the lechress of youths on the prowl

          Squirrels.
A lot of squrrils screech in my flat of and on .Nothing unusual except that i found out that each bird cry or animals cry is to do with with people around me .It was thus made clear to me with usual mind commands during September 2014.
When i writing about my headaches and pondering over the puzzle as to how my incontinence a very private matter for all is known to others and is made known to others to shun me a squirrel started screeching pityingly from next block lower floor flat.Is he the doer?
Whom do these squirrels represent and who is letting out thier secret doings? These symbolic screeches , enactments like birds and animals building a nest etc go on and on whether one understands them are not.
Do they represent the Intelligence?They must be but donot know who they represent whether state or centre .
I remember that squirrels had built a nest in my kitchens loft  and had its young ones in batches , a year before the accidental death of my late son.
They all quit this loft the very next day of his demise, startling a lot of mourners never to return to it .Only rats did that to only a two years back.
Was the squirrels stay on my loft  during and its leaving it for good after just a natural happening or was it also symbolic?
written on 12.8.16

When are heavy headaches given to me?

Headaches are delibertely given to me as i have observerd and mentioned in my earlier blog induced headaches.
In recent times i observed that there is a pattern to this.The last two heavy headaches i experienced was in Bangalore a month or so back and recently on 10 th august in here at my flat in Chennai
This heavy headache viz micro wave radiation to kindle or reset the workings of my brain and to make me write on and on is always preceded by two things--
1. A visit and nearness to any physically or mentally handicapped persons.In Bangalore i spent a evening in our relatives house who have a boy who has cereberal palsy and mental retardation.That night back in my place in there i this heavy headache around 2 am the appointed hour for giving it to me woke me up from my sleep .it lasted on and on .And i had this a terrific urge to write about Brahmins role [positive one on our culture] and about anti conversion bill.

2.A visit to a temple with its visit linked to my late son's memory -his birthday or day of demise.It has to be coupled with nearness of a handicapped person to receive a heavy dose as the one beamed to me on 10 the August night that woke me up at 2am and persisted on and on making me write on and on as i am still doing it.[today viz 17 th August i also  wrote  ] On 9th august evening 5pm onwards i sat next to a physically handicapped  poor youth  for nearly 40 minutes[lame]whilst watching Sahasara deepa alankara persormed outside the temple gates.I had gone to the temple my annual visit as it is the birthday star of my late son.
3 Minor headaches are given in vicinity of minorities and when i visit temples that are not connected to my late son's memory.

Written on --12.8.16

Am i being set up?

Decided to purchase vegetables hence took a different route for my morning walk.
Weather nice and pleasant unlike yesterday's simmering heat.Observed barricades on the main road to my right to slow down traffic.I stuck to the left side of the road since it my observation and reasoning that sounds of all sorts generally loud noises are used of auto rickshaws,without silencers, scooters, old noisy vans,bullets and people talking shrilly are used deliberately to attack my left ear to cause confusion and incoherent thoughts in me .Hence lent only my right ear, the lesser affected of the two  to the sounds of traffic.
I was quite alert to distracting noises on my trip to Tirupati three days back probably because i was given a back seat  , the tc's ,so no sounds of people talking loudly on thier cell or children shrieking .I could enjoy the passing scenary and came back and wrote it --Nagari mookku.I was quite alert enough to escape sounds combined with spectaled dark men and ofcourse the omnipresent micro waves which i guess is like a invisible cocoon around me to cause incontinence.
Heard buzzing sound in ears immediately after a nice long darshan of Venkateshwarar.For all the crowd there was no one was pushing me.care was taken .But that metallic sound in my ears  disturbed me.Radio frequency waves?Why? Is it for blocking out my reciting slokas and doing japa?What would one do in a temple if not for that? In a outer temple a dark tilak circumbulating the narsimhar sannnidhi left as soon as i had a small incontinence .Checked my temper as it is futile to lose it when i can never compete with all the fancy gadjets and commands etc .It has been decided to cause me embarrasment even in temples and i have to take it in my stride by ignoring it other wise i can never visit any temple.The fault is not mine but of the perpertrators.Yet felt irritated .Brain was blocked whole night  and block removed only in the morning of 10th.My body was as heavy as wood viz  fatigued .Was it effect of low frequency waves.read in net that they are capable of causing extreme fatigue

On return whilst waiting for the train at Tirupati station i lowered my guard and turned and looked at a girl shrieking on my left.Saw a dark man with specs .As i turned back  felt a incontinence though not in the scale it was on my last trip when i was commanded to carry bags with gods images.A bulky middle class northy, hindu standing at front of me as if shielding me left the spot immediately and huffed to a seat where his parents were seated and threw a water bottle in terrific rage under a stationery train ,the tracks, that had just been cleaned.Who is he? why was he so upset?Was it to do with incontinence and thus some sort of control? Who is that dark lower stratta man with specs?
                            Is a tug of war going over me?
On night of our return viz 10 th  terrific headache woke me up around 2 am and it persisted till morning Crocin didn't alievate it.and instead of walking wrote down-- nagari--[in fact i was writing on and on , analysing all this, till lastnight viz 14 th .the effect of that heavy dose  of micro waves and it will take a week to blog it all Today on Independance day the grip was removed and i felt tremedous relief.sadists at work]
ok back to my walk on 12 the August morning.Streets were deserted .All posh ones .In a corner a dog under a car started barking at a dirty &soiled rag picker unlike some ragpickers who are not all that unkempt, walking towards me.I moved away deferentially.He didnt.The dog kept barking at him common enemy?No sounds in that street except feeble sound of traffic from the main road.was that sufficient to do what ever trick he is being used for?
Went and bought vegetables.Nice walk.On way back on main road saw a barricade  just ahead of a turning on my left.Was it for me?Guard me or guard others from me?Felt angry.Am i such a threat?what if i threaten people by turning in this street on left that had no barricade?Pushed away the momentary anger at those who have landed me in this stupid situation felt that it would be petty to be revengful and decided to walk on the main road.Further on i saw that i had no space to walk due to the barricade.I had to climb to a narrow pavement by crossing sewage water .So decided to take the inner street.though it is a longer route and i was tired .
There was traffic behind me in this street ,though not much.As i walked on head songs on Amman being played from a adjacent slum which was not in view.W as this also auditory masking?Should i move to right side of this street to lessen its impact?The song was nice.i liked it so why should i move away?Is it wrong to hear amman songs? So walked on enjoying the bhakthi song .The air was cool and the melodious song a treat to the ears .As i turned left in the turning that would take me to the main road suffused with  a good feeling saw auto who had come behind me noiselessly and turn in that turning .Soon heard screams .Saw a woman lying crumpled on the turning on the road side..Her two women companions were shaking their fists at the auto who didnt stop but kept going .Not too fast.Some men chased it on foot ,but it got away.

This woman was bleeding.[ I had to stop here as heard sound of whistle maybe rf waves coming from open window and going around me, and my low back started to ache and heard a crow  cawing hysterically.so stopped blogging and left this room .Heard a van go down street.maybe it was being beamed from it.pain has left]I offered her my hanky but her companion didn't take it .Some one in the small crowd that had collected said she is a christian A man on mobike with a small girl[ i have seen him before] said bring her water. I stood looking at the middle aged woman and felt relived to see that she had opened her eyes and was trying to dab her bleeding and was also kept looking at me.So nothing too serious.The other woman said they were returning from work.Within a few minutes a red coloured police van was on the spot.Just how?The tilaked police man was cool and enquired those around --milk vendors ,labourers, if they had noted down the number .None had nor did i .A bit too far.
Seeing police i decided to move on .They will take care.Then a dark labourer asked for my hanky .The one that i made of blouse piece gifted to me in Tirumala temple by ttd years back .It has shanku and chakaram in its border.
They were now seated in a auto.The injured pressed my hanky to her bleeding forehead .They were going to a hospital.
As i left mind was in a whirl.Looked at passerbys -slum residents .Happy and unperturbed.How lucky to be so!Seeing them a little normalcy returned .
On entering the empty flat the shock of the accident and the bleeding hit me.I felt like vomitting.Did i cause it?Did my gold bangles deflect the radio frequency waves aimed at me sting that auto fellow in is eyes and make him turn wildly and hit that woman?Or was it set up?
Heard a flock of  crows caw anxiously near that turning .They always do when christians are involved in some way in my life.Why did some one shout she is christian?so that i should register it?why was she there?Why was i there?If not for the barricades and sewage i would have taken the main road.
Is some one deliberately setting me up against christians and muslims/?That my very presence is harmful to them?
That police man looked mighty cool .May be he has seen a lot yet......And they materialised so fast.Some thing fishy.
Last week i went to a shop.A huge one in pondy bazzar.On the way a balding young man with a back pack talking in his mobile caught my attention despite the crowds on the street.Parliament is in session and from past experience since 2012 i knew that he was there for me.
Went to the shop. i guess owned by muslims .a Lot of things in reasonable rates lesser than other shops.I had avoided this shop since 2014 september as i was commanded to quit going near muslims or their shops .But that day i forgot it and also revolted against this diktat.Why shouldn't i?Because i ll get knee pain ? so what? I needed a stuff badly and that shop may have it , i can rub my knees later with balm .
As i was looking at a article a sales man may be a muslim kept shouting near my left ears offering his choice.Soon i selected one ,wandered around this upper floor ,saw a dark sales man , felt a incontinence , the current dipped and dimmed as if heralding it .Ignored this constant provocation and came down the steps admiring the view of shoppers, trees and vehicles   from the glass fronted shop .Payment was to be made in  down floor.
As i neared the desk a young youth in charge of the cash kept sprinkling water on the table and kept wiping it dry with a cloth .He repeated this several times as if wiping off some untouchable dirt..He took my cash with bent head .Came out and walked back home.His action directed against me should have angered me but it didnt .i felt sorry for that kid.felt frustrated.Before i came down some one has told him of my incontinence , hence that reaction.He didnt like his place of work which is as good as place of worship being nastied thus.He was thinking that his worker and i caused it .I could understand his revulsion .My son would feel the same in reverse .Normal reaction for any honest hard working youth.
i wanted to go back and say that bald fellow caused it.with some high tech gadjet..Nothing to feel revolted about.He wouldn't understand .Even the highly educated wouldntI so walked on, my anger boiling at upper floor resident.He had used gadjets on me from 2012 and has put his own community in dock and then is showing me as a lecher
I also wanted to go back to tell him that i am not the person he is thinking  that i am My upbringing was such that i never discriminated between communities nor have i ever wrinkled my nose at other communities.i got embittered only in 2012.that to only against my immediate neighbours of your community because of their interference into my house and other rights. .It doesn't include you or any one else from your community .
And is precisely that broadmindedness of my parents  that has landed me in this conversion net.Had i been brought up like a conservative brahmin i would have ensured that i never lived near  even hindus who eat meat and never ever have landed in a apartment populated by other communities .
They were wonderful parents idealistic and sensitive but there is no reciprocity for such broadmindedness around me and there is only misunderstanding from my own hindu commuinity and they may have unknowinlgly landed in this hi tech systematic conversion attempts  to islam .                                                                                                                                        that youths wiping action kept troubling me for several days unlike the vulgar abuses i have received in hindu shops and glowering looks of several other persons of all communities and sects ,all of which i had brushed away within minutes from my mind .but this  youths ineffectual anger just like mine troubled me for days and i decided not to visit his shop.
few days later ufr came inviting for his son's marriage .A day earlier my hub has said that he would no truck with this person ,but the moment ufr gave the card he decided to attend the marriage.
Had argument with hub asking him not to go.He was firm  being conscious of social duties.I kept musing.This ufr knows all this yet has invited .The hall would be full of muslims youth.Normally i would have gone had he been a normal neighbour.Now should i go for tit for tat?Will all of them run away at my sight?Even that conceited bride groom ?
Decided to go .If he is so confident , knowing every thing why should i cower?Or am i giving yet another oppurtunity to set muslims against me for no fault of mine?
I have to face the world as a normal person.whatever flak it draws even if it be a threat of death by some angry youth of other two communities.
I have been set up in the following manner  with help of rfid, rf's and implant to hoodwink gullibles and make them hate me or be revolted of me.
1.my presence on the roads can cause accidents ,specially to.Christian women
2.Muslims youth in vicinity can cause incontinence in me.
So to gullible christians i am a witch .To muslims i am a lecher .This is what is broadly choreoraphed around me .
Even hindus -Thengalais[ this is another sect within sri vaishnavaites] and amman bhakths and sc's are set against me by using incontinence caused to me causing revulsion and anger amongst them
Why am i being set up as a hate figure?.Hoping all this will culminate auspiciously when a revolted youth bops us  off without staining the hands of those who are actually doing it?                                  Sounds like covert action of Pakistan in Kashmir? Well this is what is happening to us and me in particular.

written on 12.8.16 8.45 am.

Attended the marriage in the evening
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Nagari mookku .

From the window of the chair car in the tail end of the train to Tirupati i could see the train take a curve
.A semi circle. An breath taking sight.The feat of technology in  a parcel of land dusted with powdered emeralds and sandstones  and velvetty boquets of parrot green grass growing wantonly in clumps on hillocks bordering the pastel shades of the land.
As i gazed at the slowly curving train words of appreciation at the picturusque sight it presented leapt into [microwaved?]mind .
The person , the engineer who planned and executed the curving track's intelligence and effort will be unrecognised until a person like me who can give words to my experiences, the thrill that is  felt ,writes it down and shares it on a public platform ,like this blog.

I realised that we were nearing Tirupati which would be an hour away when i saw Nagari mookku.The cliff of a small chain of hillocks that is shaped like a human nose.The Tamil word for nose is mookku.
In my countless visits to Tirupati in the past, most particularily in my childhood this cliff was always pointed out as an important landmark heralding the arrival of our destination,our anscestral home.I also heard a real happening 80 -100 years back , that of two of my distant relatives encountering a tiger in  a road in this area and of them running for their lives and escaping with it.
The Mookku came in view as  majestic as ever dominating the entire area and the land that lay beneath looked like as if it had received a lavish coat of golden green paint by aartist par excellence!
No fields .no forests, but just this generous dusting of grass on mud.
The once thick forests have gone .Decades back Thankfully an enticing coat of grass has replaced it.No man made constructions to blot out the natural beauty .How long will this untouched beauty last?
As the train curved and moved slowly ,saw two gaping wounds on two hillocks.A major part of their middle has been blasted out to make gravel.
 Will the same fate visit this famous landmark Nagari mookku one day?The two hillocks  are like its sentinel and they have been breached.Maybe it is a matter of time.
Next time i must take a snap of this cliff from my trains window.

Written on 10.8.16.

Note this piece of writing has been suitably used .Regular TV viewers use your 'intelligence' to find how it was used...

photo of this cliff is from internet



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Thirty third birthday remembrance.

Yennul avadharithu avizhindhu arivudaiya azhagana aadavanaga valarindhu
arivurai aatri, avatrilvul aazhandha arthangalai alatchiathaivittu aarayum aatralai naan perumun,
agandru vittaiye'