Is it obvious?---- 22.7.14 7 am
Had quite a good sleep .The following suspicion arises in my mind .
1. That i am being deliberately set up as strong in my faith or as totally self centred.The joining of the party was to be a test and every one reading my long tussles with conscience would have thought that i am a true hindu who re entered only after the 10 th day. of the ceremonies.Actually didn't i announce my re entry on 10 th june the 3 rd day of the ceremonies itself?Had i been strong in my faith i ought to have said democracy can wait till i fulfill my religious duties as a Hindu . i guess that i should again formally announce it only after 13 day ceremony was deliberately planted in my mind to either show me as totally un feeling to my hub's life and condition due to my self centredness or due to my 'strong hindu beliefs'.Viewers please understand when ever i am tested etc i am also put in a hazy and dizzy state unlike my normal ,alert,feeling self which deadens my responses.
2. That i am being built up as a person who is the shadowy adviser of the pm .Specially to my in natl viewers .To what end? Diplomacy? Or embarass the govt ? or put my and families life in danger since it is often suggested to me that there are many,who will not take kindly to me being the 'unofficial idea giver 'to a foe and help him even if it is shown to be forcibly extracted from me or brushed off when i offer it in proper forum like in the party .And then spread hatred against me so that it would be easy to provoke anyone and make them do the job? --viz our extermination?By the very persons who having connived with my larger than life built up in in natl arena by taking part in squeezing me dry of my locked up views under the previous regime are finding me a thorn and an irritant in the changed political circumstances with fast depletion of my stock of ideas/imagination [having constantly squeezing it out for2 yeras without any break to recharge ] and as a person who may have guaged a few embarrassing details in diplomacy specially in that which several countries of the world either took part ,-- the triangle-- or were watching the unfolding drama with me playing a role it, keenly ,in the run up to the general elections.
So what does all this add to? That i have to pay for the sins of others whether i like it or not .The convenient scape goat who can be put to death so that some persons may breathe easy.
The more i think in a cool manner deeply about the delusion i am put in and the myth thatis being cretaed around me as idea giver to the ruling party it is becoming very apparent that it is being done with some shady objective in mind as i have observed in para 2.
i remember that the election manifesto of ruling party was prepared after receiving suggestions from more than a lakh people over an year !so where do i and my ideas figure when i didn't send a single suggestions to the party ? Running of fast trains or setting up of iims and iits in each state and so on are not my suggestions .
.So there is some ulterior motive in creating that image .
1. That i am being deliberately set up as strong in my faith or as totally self centred.The joining of the party was to be a test and every one reading my long tussles with conscience would have thought that i am a true hindu who re entered only after the 10 th day. of the ceremonies.Actually didn't i announce my re entry on 10 th june the 3 rd day of the ceremonies itself?Had i been strong in my faith i ought to have said democracy can wait till i fulfill my religious duties as a Hindu . i guess that i should again formally announce it only after 13 day ceremony was deliberately planted in my mind to either show me as totally un feeling to my hub's life and condition due to my self centredness or due to my 'strong hindu beliefs'.Viewers please understand when ever i am tested etc i am also put in a hazy and dizzy state unlike my normal ,alert,feeling self which deadens my responses.
2. That i am being built up as a person who is the shadowy adviser of the pm .Specially to my in natl viewers .To what end? Diplomacy? Or embarass the govt ? or put my and families life in danger since it is often suggested to me that there are many,who will not take kindly to me being the 'unofficial idea giver 'to a foe and help him even if it is shown to be forcibly extracted from me or brushed off when i offer it in proper forum like in the party .And then spread hatred against me so that it would be easy to provoke anyone and make them do the job? --viz our extermination?By the very persons who having connived with my larger than life built up in in natl arena by taking part in squeezing me dry of my locked up views under the previous regime are finding me a thorn and an irritant in the changed political circumstances with fast depletion of my stock of ideas/imagination [having constantly squeezing it out for2 yeras without any break to recharge ] and as a person who may have guaged a few embarrassing details in diplomacy specially in that which several countries of the world either took part ,-- the triangle-- or were watching the unfolding drama with me playing a role it, keenly ,in the run up to the general elections.
So what does all this add to? That i have to pay for the sins of others whether i like it or not .The convenient scape goat who can be put to death so that some persons may breathe easy.
The more i think in a cool manner deeply about the delusion i am put in and the myth thatis being cretaed around me as idea giver to the ruling party it is becoming very apparent that it is being done with some shady objective in mind as i have observed in para 2.
i remember that the election manifesto of ruling party was prepared after receiving suggestions from more than a lakh people over an year !so where do i and my ideas figure when i didn't send a single suggestions to the party ? Running of fast trains or setting up of iims and iits in each state and so on are not my suggestions .
.So there is some ulterior motive in creating that image .
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