Floods-- the leveller.
The floods that submerged Chennai last year and threw life out of gear for more than a week was a great leveller and a eyeopener to me.
Without the aid of flights and sound of motor vehicles owing to flooding of airport as well as innundating our street with chest deep water that took time to drain ,the dye whitened.the attack on my auditory nerves was forcibly put to an end in that week and that enabled me to see all those whom were shown to me as supermen for past 5 years in their true colours .
upper floor[2] resident mus who was projected to be robust health and vigour could scarcely wade through the knee deep water to reach the rescue boat The super man staggered and nearly fell.He came back only when flights were restored and when there was some vehicular movt in the street .It was then that i noticed that he had a slight limp on the left leg.The person who had circulated tales of my repression for having knee problems[which were also due to gadjets which he has in plenty] was and is a repressed person.himself as according to him limp means repression .
The other mus resident of the upper upper floor[3rd] who projected himself as a stern and formidable ,berefet of his car and motorbike from which he would glare at me and the lift to take him up and down looked aged ,and drooped like a old man.
My first impression before they assumed a macho image from 2012 onwards was that the former was a odd person and other a colourless neigh .Nothing special .just like other neighbours of ours.
The other person a dark Hindu also thick into this and exercising control over me since 2012 whom i had regarded as a elderly retiree till the the youth full rakishness he suddenly started projecting since 2012 under went surgery soon after the floods for parts that are associated with rakishness and normally afflicts one in old age and looks drained and weak.
In september 2014 i was brainwashed .actually the suitable word would be that i was brain drained as whole of that month liquids were drained out of me that made me terribly weak ,mentally and physically.Ofcourse all this was aided by the painful jamming of my head in june for a month,rfid gps implant and years of using infra red rays on me -eyes, knees, chest and private parts indiscriminately.
That month viz september 2014 i was thrown open to conversion through mental contact aided by cameras and implant In those days of deep exhaustion whenever i took a nap which was nearly through out the day those wanting me to follow Bismillahand Param pita --father in heaven filled my ears with filth and created a horror for my family relationships and injected sexual element in mother son relationship apart from jeering the sexual aspects in the marital status of the deity i worship .
i was so horrified that i withdrew from my husband and son .At that time barring my hub in whose presence i should actually be made to leak i was being made to do so at front of every other person i came across.And my hub was exempted from making me do so!From delivery boys to repectable aged neighbours and total strangers .The temple nearby kept advising me to be detatched from my family as if affirming the param pitas!
In the recent floods ufr's bulky son in 20's lifted his mother physically on to the rescue boat .I was surprised to see that she wasn't surprised at being lifted like a doll .She is younger than me and not all that weak.She obviously depends on her son.than on her husband. Would Bismillahs and Param pitas deride this act as laced with sexual innuendos like odeiphus complex as was done with my ties with my sons?No.It will be seen as natural ties and the son will be hailed for helping his mother.
If i rely upon my son it is sinful .But if others rely upon their sons it is a natural maternal thing to do.
I am mentioning ufr's son etc becuase it is ufr who told me he was to control me and and i keep on hearing thier thunps on my ceiling.
To sum up --
1.Without aid of flights and vehicular noise the ufrs are very ordinary persons.
2. Ties between mother and sons are natural only to my neighbours and others .It is very natural for my controller's spouses .
ufr's son can lift his mother bodily on the rescue boat They all can live together.
uufr;s son can hold his fathers hand and guide him up and down the stairs.
3.the 35 year old married son of elderly retiree whose wife has links with christianity can live with his parents ,mother on and on and not with his wife living elsewhere.
They are all blessed with natural ties.only we are not isn't it?
If i rely upon my son it is sinful. If they and many others in our flat rely upon thier sons it is natural.
If i draw sustenance from the memory of my late son it is even more sinful.It is considered so harmful that his memory has been nearly wiped out from my mind.Thanks to month long jamming and squeezing out liquids and filth and fear put into me in that period--September.2014.
.. without memories how can one nourish family ties?
A word about TOI-.I was sent to to Toi to tell about danger to my hubs life which as per the prompters was in danger as he was in Tirumala then viz 17 th sept his birthday and , my harrassment and to ask them to publish it. reached the office which is quite near .All the youngsters at thier desks looked frightened so did. several managers.Finally a police reporter spoke to me for some time and said that he will take care as media is very powerful and dropped a piece of information that i looked like his mother who died 10 years earlier viz 2004 thus indirectly suggesting that he was in conssonance with the view put in my mind that we were being targeted for being Sri Vaishnavaites specially since my hub under went the rituals associated with Sri vaishnavism in 2004!
The absurdity in this line of putting credence in such outdated views is shocking.In the garb of helping me he was stoking the myth further.and only confusing me and squashed whatever little confidence i had in my observations.experiences in life and in me .
written on 30.3.16
note --I guess that the jamming operation conducted on me through infra red rays in June 2014 which was so painful and made a tight mask of my scalp could have finished me or immobilised me had it been done for few more weeks.Why was it dropped? sudden attack of conscience or some thing else?life was spared but a lot of memories and emotions wiped out and it is seen to that i never delve into my memories or reel in my emotions.Zombie state..
The next day after writing the above in my diary i walked to and fro to Srinivasar temple in the evening .Was visiting and entering this temple after a very long time.Excellent quiet darshan and surprise of surprise even a aarti was shown !
my attention was drawn to a car black car [drawing my attention to intended objects, people is quite easy thanks to the rfid gps in me] with Army pasted on the windshield.On return saw a old dog bark at a thin dark dirty ragpicker busying himself in nearby garbage bin.Two things i was expected to take note of as if in explanation to my writing about jamming and dehydrating me in my diary the day before.
So this what i am expected to conclude and also may drawing upon the memory of the constant announcements from neraby temple from June 2014 onwards which stopped only when i flung off the in hibitions of using my house freely in 2015 that was foisted on me since 2012.
So the conclusion i have to arrive at whether it is true or false i ve no idea but is this--That September brain draining of 2014 was done by the army - or defence forces to secure me from the enemy.The enemy being the ragpicker and who ever sent him and that ragpicker's evil influence upon me and my 'precious writing.'.
i remember that from june 2014 onwards when the nearby temple was broadcasting tamil couplets from Thirukural as if to inform me indirectly as to what was happening to me the following two referred to defence and warriors.
1.That a if a mighty ruler sends his army to tackle a lesser ruler in due course of time the mighty rulers army would lose interest and would be defeated.
2.Warriors spend each day in defending the country and receive wounds which they gladly welcome and consider all those days when they don't get any wounds as a day gone waste.
After that month long painful jamming my poor brain i would feel a terrible pressure in my brain which cleared and made me feel comfortable only when i moved away from that spot .This happened mostly outdoors and i remember distinctly the first time .I had visited the beach in morn and was crossing the sands thinking about my black mood when i wanted to climb up to the road when i felt this uncomfortable pressure and saw a very dirty looking but healthy man in black like a ragpicker .seated on the side of the steps which i wanted to take.Normally ,i never shrink or avoid such people .But the pressure was so much that i felt that i should avoid taking those steps and moved on and felt the sudden release of pressure.It also made me want to visit the loo.So the conclusion is that he is a person .i am expected to avoid getting too close to.Have felt such pressures even with well dressed people but with some abnormality and who deliberately try to be near me So are these the enemy or sent by enemy?
Ok even if assuming from the above that army is in the business of controlling me why did i suddenly become such a huge threat after 2014? Moreover if not for that sadistic implant in my teeth can any one influence me in the manner which has become so fearful?It was done forcibly on me without my knowledge and consent i thought it was a root canal operation when i was advised by the dentist in 2011 to do it when i went with complaints of tooth pain .it was only recently i figured the rfid gps etc .
The person who hit on this idea of implanting this inhuman control over me just because i was blogging on corruption and Hinduism and the person in authority who okyed it and all those who knew about this but kept silent are the ones who are guilty of creating such a mess out of my life that it has pulled in the defence forces into my life!
I guess that the threat preception from my implant was so much that jamming my brain was ordered and undertaken .Had it gone on for few more days probably i would not be blogging now .would have been finished or rendered totally useless more or less in a vegetable state.
The conversion attempts in september is puzzling .was it in revenge or does it also have some defence tactics behind it?
i have to make it clear in here . i am attacking ufr mus in my blogs a because he openly said he was here to control me in 2012 .If a hindu would have said it i would have attacked him to in my blogs as i know i have done no wrong by blogging my views on public affairs before it went haywire due to the implant nor is there any thing wrong in my blogs on hinduism in fact i ought to be lauded for translating many slokas and pasurams despite disturbances due to the implant .
i have also to mention a important distinction between the neigh of two communities viz minority and majority involved in constantly prodding my private parts which reached intolerable levels soon after August to September 2014 and continued on and on and is still going on .now it is a limited edition,I am absolutely sure that prodding of my private parts has direct relation to presence of minorities viz mus in the vicinity and to a certain extent Hindus.So both are nastying me , crowing over my thoughts and secretions announcing the systematic brain draining that is going on but the difference between the two is that whilst the former obviously enjoys the physical prodding [gadjets]of my pvt parts as i saw the obvious pleasures on a neigh and watch man's as well as strangers face like as if they were having a orgasm when it was done thus revolting me from head to foot at thier open pleasure at this which shows an absolute lack of ethics or conscience and very importantly an identification whilst the latter viz neigh ,watchmen, look sheepish, regretful and still have respect for me .
I assumed the above ,that the defence forces or army were the main culprit in conducting that cruel no touch torture that breached my endurance level in the jamming of my brain in June and draining liquids out of me in September 2014 as i was expected to assume the above ,but i can also assume the following- since no body came forward to tell me openly as to who was doing what to me.-except the following from my two neighbours when i confronted them--
1. Neighbour who resides just above my floor ,that he was here to control me which was in 2013
2.The elderly retiree living on same floor that my writing unflattering things about political powers would invite consequences which could be that of throwing me open to conversion --in June==july 2014
Note 2 things .A neigh openly declares his intention to control another neighbour's wife without the knowledge of the husband by making free use of the establishment provided by my husband so as to confuse me and keep me away from blogging or control its content specially those relating to hinduism and some sticky public affairs.
2. another neigh has admitted indirectly to reading my diary.A diary which i write in my house ,which is supposed to be private property of my husband,.When i confronted that neigh ,i had not blogged my unflattering comments and never intended to do and it was my habit to first write it in a diary or note book and then blog it.in leisure So he had read my private writings.
So i can assume the following as well--
1. That i was and am being deliberately confused and misled from time to time by enacting such small acts but which had powerful impact upon me aided by suggestive songs, advise and couplets played from nearby. temple .
2.That those who have some issues or angst against the army and defence forces as well as the central govt may be the main culprit in my no touch torture and they could put such suggestions to make me analayse ponder and write and portray a nasty picture of army.,lament on and on about encroachment on my fundamental rights by strangers and the sly exploitation of politicians.In short use me by constant provocations and suggestions to deride our democracy by exploiting the unnatural and uncommon situation foisted upon me ,working on my revulsion and frustrated rebellion at a inhuman 24 by 7 control.since 2012 .
who ever may be the culprit whether singly or jointly the following is true--
1.I hear grating mechanical sounds originating from the right side of my jaw and hear its echo several times.
.2. of late that is after declaration of elections date in here the sound of cricket's trilling noise is played at nights in living room .it irritates me.
i can go on about the various ways i am being controlled .it is endless the way my head is made to change position when lying down on bed at night probably for some reactions in tune with flights and persons turning at the road corner.
The implant, jamming and draining liquids and conditioning of actions maybe even chemical reactions in my body and thought process as per landing and take off of planes and hidden cameras in my house are all true.
The meticulos control exercised over me is amazing .Is this all because i write and blog?Am i so much in demand?Doesn't it shame those who are using me thus slyly?
With my coming out openly about the way i am being manipulated and was manipulated since 2012 would this revelation put a brake on my exploitation ? would my viewers suspect the credibility of my writings and stop taking it all in or would they still be tempted to read and try and sift out the truth?
I guess that the attempts to confuse me and make me blabber or rage or rant was to remove credibility from my writings and the fact that i still have a quite a few viewers for my blogs from all over the world shows that they are tempted to read and sift .I am also guessing from the way i am controlled just for writing my diary or blogging that my viewers either in this country or abroad are not ordinary people but persons in power and reckoning.
.
Without the aid of flights and sound of motor vehicles owing to flooding of airport as well as innundating our street with chest deep water that took time to drain ,the dye whitened.the attack on my auditory nerves was forcibly put to an end in that week and that enabled me to see all those whom were shown to me as supermen for past 5 years in their true colours .
upper floor[2] resident mus who was projected to be robust health and vigour could scarcely wade through the knee deep water to reach the rescue boat The super man staggered and nearly fell.He came back only when flights were restored and when there was some vehicular movt in the street .It was then that i noticed that he had a slight limp on the left leg.The person who had circulated tales of my repression for having knee problems[which were also due to gadjets which he has in plenty] was and is a repressed person.himself as according to him limp means repression .
The other mus resident of the upper upper floor[3rd] who projected himself as a stern and formidable ,berefet of his car and motorbike from which he would glare at me and the lift to take him up and down looked aged ,and drooped like a old man.
My first impression before they assumed a macho image from 2012 onwards was that the former was a odd person and other a colourless neigh .Nothing special .just like other neighbours of ours.
The other person a dark Hindu also thick into this and exercising control over me since 2012 whom i had regarded as a elderly retiree till the the youth full rakishness he suddenly started projecting since 2012 under went surgery soon after the floods for parts that are associated with rakishness and normally afflicts one in old age and looks drained and weak.
In september 2014 i was brainwashed .actually the suitable word would be that i was brain drained as whole of that month liquids were drained out of me that made me terribly weak ,mentally and physically.Ofcourse all this was aided by the painful jamming of my head in june for a month,rfid gps implant and years of using infra red rays on me -eyes, knees, chest and private parts indiscriminately.
That month viz september 2014 i was thrown open to conversion through mental contact aided by cameras and implant In those days of deep exhaustion whenever i took a nap which was nearly through out the day those wanting me to follow Bismillahand Param pita --father in heaven filled my ears with filth and created a horror for my family relationships and injected sexual element in mother son relationship apart from jeering the sexual aspects in the marital status of the deity i worship .
i was so horrified that i withdrew from my husband and son .At that time barring my hub in whose presence i should actually be made to leak i was being made to do so at front of every other person i came across.And my hub was exempted from making me do so!From delivery boys to repectable aged neighbours and total strangers .The temple nearby kept advising me to be detatched from my family as if affirming the param pitas!
In the recent floods ufr's bulky son in 20's lifted his mother physically on to the rescue boat .I was surprised to see that she wasn't surprised at being lifted like a doll .She is younger than me and not all that weak.She obviously depends on her son.than on her husband. Would Bismillahs and Param pitas deride this act as laced with sexual innuendos like odeiphus complex as was done with my ties with my sons?No.It will be seen as natural ties and the son will be hailed for helping his mother.
If i rely upon my son it is sinful .But if others rely upon their sons it is a natural maternal thing to do.
I am mentioning ufr's son etc becuase it is ufr who told me he was to control me and and i keep on hearing thier thunps on my ceiling.
To sum up --
1.Without aid of flights and vehicular noise the ufrs are very ordinary persons.
2. Ties between mother and sons are natural only to my neighbours and others .It is very natural for my controller's spouses .
ufr's son can lift his mother bodily on the rescue boat They all can live together.
uufr;s son can hold his fathers hand and guide him up and down the stairs.
3.the 35 year old married son of elderly retiree whose wife has links with christianity can live with his parents ,mother on and on and not with his wife living elsewhere.
They are all blessed with natural ties.only we are not isn't it?
If i rely upon my son it is sinful. If they and many others in our flat rely upon thier sons it is natural.
If i draw sustenance from the memory of my late son it is even more sinful.It is considered so harmful that his memory has been nearly wiped out from my mind.Thanks to month long jamming and squeezing out liquids and filth and fear put into me in that period--September.2014.
.. without memories how can one nourish family ties?
A word about TOI-.I was sent to to Toi to tell about danger to my hubs life which as per the prompters was in danger as he was in Tirumala then viz 17 th sept his birthday and , my harrassment and to ask them to publish it. reached the office which is quite near .All the youngsters at thier desks looked frightened so did. several managers.Finally a police reporter spoke to me for some time and said that he will take care as media is very powerful and dropped a piece of information that i looked like his mother who died 10 years earlier viz 2004 thus indirectly suggesting that he was in conssonance with the view put in my mind that we were being targeted for being Sri Vaishnavaites specially since my hub under went the rituals associated with Sri vaishnavism in 2004!
The absurdity in this line of putting credence in such outdated views is shocking.In the garb of helping me he was stoking the myth further.and only confusing me and squashed whatever little confidence i had in my observations.experiences in life and in me .
written on 30.3.16
note --I guess that the jamming operation conducted on me through infra red rays in June 2014 which was so painful and made a tight mask of my scalp could have finished me or immobilised me had it been done for few more weeks.Why was it dropped? sudden attack of conscience or some thing else?life was spared but a lot of memories and emotions wiped out and it is seen to that i never delve into my memories or reel in my emotions.Zombie state..
The next day after writing the above in my diary i walked to and fro to Srinivasar temple in the evening .Was visiting and entering this temple after a very long time.Excellent quiet darshan and surprise of surprise even a aarti was shown !
my attention was drawn to a car black car [drawing my attention to intended objects, people is quite easy thanks to the rfid gps in me] with Army pasted on the windshield.On return saw a old dog bark at a thin dark dirty ragpicker busying himself in nearby garbage bin.Two things i was expected to take note of as if in explanation to my writing about jamming and dehydrating me in my diary the day before.
So this what i am expected to conclude and also may drawing upon the memory of the constant announcements from neraby temple from June 2014 onwards which stopped only when i flung off the in hibitions of using my house freely in 2015 that was foisted on me since 2012.
So the conclusion i have to arrive at whether it is true or false i ve no idea but is this--That September brain draining of 2014 was done by the army - or defence forces to secure me from the enemy.The enemy being the ragpicker and who ever sent him and that ragpicker's evil influence upon me and my 'precious writing.'.
i remember that from june 2014 onwards when the nearby temple was broadcasting tamil couplets from Thirukural as if to inform me indirectly as to what was happening to me the following two referred to defence and warriors.
1.That a if a mighty ruler sends his army to tackle a lesser ruler in due course of time the mighty rulers army would lose interest and would be defeated.
2.Warriors spend each day in defending the country and receive wounds which they gladly welcome and consider all those days when they don't get any wounds as a day gone waste.
After that month long painful jamming my poor brain i would feel a terrible pressure in my brain which cleared and made me feel comfortable only when i moved away from that spot .This happened mostly outdoors and i remember distinctly the first time .I had visited the beach in morn and was crossing the sands thinking about my black mood when i wanted to climb up to the road when i felt this uncomfortable pressure and saw a very dirty looking but healthy man in black like a ragpicker .seated on the side of the steps which i wanted to take.Normally ,i never shrink or avoid such people .But the pressure was so much that i felt that i should avoid taking those steps and moved on and felt the sudden release of pressure.It also made me want to visit the loo.So the conclusion is that he is a person .i am expected to avoid getting too close to.Have felt such pressures even with well dressed people but with some abnormality and who deliberately try to be near me So are these the enemy or sent by enemy?
Ok even if assuming from the above that army is in the business of controlling me why did i suddenly become such a huge threat after 2014? Moreover if not for that sadistic implant in my teeth can any one influence me in the manner which has become so fearful?It was done forcibly on me without my knowledge and consent i thought it was a root canal operation when i was advised by the dentist in 2011 to do it when i went with complaints of tooth pain .it was only recently i figured the rfid gps etc .
The person who hit on this idea of implanting this inhuman control over me just because i was blogging on corruption and Hinduism and the person in authority who okyed it and all those who knew about this but kept silent are the ones who are guilty of creating such a mess out of my life that it has pulled in the defence forces into my life!
I guess that the threat preception from my implant was so much that jamming my brain was ordered and undertaken .Had it gone on for few more days probably i would not be blogging now .would have been finished or rendered totally useless more or less in a vegetable state.
The conversion attempts in september is puzzling .was it in revenge or does it also have some defence tactics behind it?
i have to make it clear in here . i am attacking ufr mus in my blogs a because he openly said he was here to control me in 2012 .If a hindu would have said it i would have attacked him to in my blogs as i know i have done no wrong by blogging my views on public affairs before it went haywire due to the implant nor is there any thing wrong in my blogs on hinduism in fact i ought to be lauded for translating many slokas and pasurams despite disturbances due to the implant .
i have also to mention a important distinction between the neigh of two communities viz minority and majority involved in constantly prodding my private parts which reached intolerable levels soon after August to September 2014 and continued on and on and is still going on .now it is a limited edition,I am absolutely sure that prodding of my private parts has direct relation to presence of minorities viz mus in the vicinity and to a certain extent Hindus.So both are nastying me , crowing over my thoughts and secretions announcing the systematic brain draining that is going on but the difference between the two is that whilst the former obviously enjoys the physical prodding [gadjets]of my pvt parts as i saw the obvious pleasures on a neigh and watch man's as well as strangers face like as if they were having a orgasm when it was done thus revolting me from head to foot at thier open pleasure at this which shows an absolute lack of ethics or conscience and very importantly an identification whilst the latter viz neigh ,watchmen, look sheepish, regretful and still have respect for me .
I assumed the above ,that the defence forces or army were the main culprit in conducting that cruel no touch torture that breached my endurance level in the jamming of my brain in June and draining liquids out of me in September 2014 as i was expected to assume the above ,but i can also assume the following- since no body came forward to tell me openly as to who was doing what to me.-except the following from my two neighbours when i confronted them--
1. Neighbour who resides just above my floor ,that he was here to control me which was in 2013
2.The elderly retiree living on same floor that my writing unflattering things about political powers would invite consequences which could be that of throwing me open to conversion --in June==july 2014
Note 2 things .A neigh openly declares his intention to control another neighbour's wife without the knowledge of the husband by making free use of the establishment provided by my husband so as to confuse me and keep me away from blogging or control its content specially those relating to hinduism and some sticky public affairs.
2. another neigh has admitted indirectly to reading my diary.A diary which i write in my house ,which is supposed to be private property of my husband,.When i confronted that neigh ,i had not blogged my unflattering comments and never intended to do and it was my habit to first write it in a diary or note book and then blog it.in leisure So he had read my private writings.
So i can assume the following as well--
1. That i was and am being deliberately confused and misled from time to time by enacting such small acts but which had powerful impact upon me aided by suggestive songs, advise and couplets played from nearby. temple .
2.That those who have some issues or angst against the army and defence forces as well as the central govt may be the main culprit in my no touch torture and they could put such suggestions to make me analayse ponder and write and portray a nasty picture of army.,lament on and on about encroachment on my fundamental rights by strangers and the sly exploitation of politicians.In short use me by constant provocations and suggestions to deride our democracy by exploiting the unnatural and uncommon situation foisted upon me ,working on my revulsion and frustrated rebellion at a inhuman 24 by 7 control.since 2012 .
who ever may be the culprit whether singly or jointly the following is true--
1.I hear grating mechanical sounds originating from the right side of my jaw and hear its echo several times.
.2. of late that is after declaration of elections date in here the sound of cricket's trilling noise is played at nights in living room .it irritates me.
i can go on about the various ways i am being controlled .it is endless the way my head is made to change position when lying down on bed at night probably for some reactions in tune with flights and persons turning at the road corner.
The implant, jamming and draining liquids and conditioning of actions maybe even chemical reactions in my body and thought process as per landing and take off of planes and hidden cameras in my house are all true.
The meticulos control exercised over me is amazing .Is this all because i write and blog?Am i so much in demand?Doesn't it shame those who are using me thus slyly?
With my coming out openly about the way i am being manipulated and was manipulated since 2012 would this revelation put a brake on my exploitation ? would my viewers suspect the credibility of my writings and stop taking it all in or would they still be tempted to read and try and sift out the truth?
I guess that the attempts to confuse me and make me blabber or rage or rant was to remove credibility from my writings and the fact that i still have a quite a few viewers for my blogs from all over the world shows that they are tempted to read and sift .I am also guessing from the way i am controlled just for writing my diary or blogging that my viewers either in this country or abroad are not ordinary people but persons in power and reckoning.
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