Is shifting death

The feeling of being pinned down ,the urge to move limbs and body but unable to do so then seeing swirling soft and creamy greyish black smoke rolling towards  me in  slow and steady pace signalling that it would swallow and absorb me in its dark softness in a matter of few minutes or seconds and  feeling the  a tiny tinge of fear a fear that is born out of the regret that i feel whenever i move from a familiar place and people and routine for good and shift to another place which is not that familiar either out of compulsion or out of choice and try and get acclimatised to the new sorroundings , is death?

It felt thus last night in the semi nightmarish deep sleep i had.

written on 3.4.15--Friday  7.30am
Note :Since my cataract surgery i started getting a lot of nightmares and  body becoming heavy
                    .At day time there would be a  sudden gripping of fear or the heart missing a beat  at odd times and places --like when watching tv or meditating in a  temple or shopping  with men pointedly looking at me after such a bout and ushering away very dark complexioned women from near me  like as if they caused it .