Mailon varuga varuga-- meaning Murugha come, come

Kanda sashti kavacham ,the Tamil verses seeking protection of Lord Murugha the son of Siva was played from lower floor today in the morning.The six faced Murugha is worshipped with deep devotion and with great fervour by most of the Tamilians.

To me it is a warning like that 10 rs balm portending trouble ahead for words spoken written or  even dreams dreamt and deeds done.I have to note it down if not face painful bowel movments that are co ordinated with flights and motorbikes taking a turn at front of me or behind me and keep visiting toilet to discharge motion .Some times this bowel movt is only a forced activity to make me visit the toilet but at times it is coupled with severe abdominial pain like the one i experienced when i found out the effect of scooters and motorbikes that are co ordinated and synchronised with flights above me .Earlier suffered severe bouts twice ,one after the other, immediately after my uterus surgery.Sadism at its peak.Those days i was too fatigued to understand the meaning behind the warnings ,maybe this song was played then also ,dont remember now so did not write them down them and maybe paid the price.

ok what did i do yesterday  and today  to get this warning today?
1.Yesterday walked down to a charitable trust office  nearly 1 and half kms away through very narrow,crowded street congested with traffic of vehicles and people.Some dirty lungis [4 -5 men]deliberately walked behind me . ddint bother as i had decided earlier  in the day that if start feeling suspicious of every persons on the streets motives  i ll be forever stuck in my house and be mooning about my fate.Was prepared for whatever evil influence some persons on the roads , mostly  by those clad in dirty lungis and ragpickers have on me specially after weakening me in july and september 2014 with a solid foundation laid to do  so in 2011 itself  and  want my original normal life back .
2. Donated a sum to corpus fund in memory of my late son .This will educate a needy child from 7th to 12 th class.A donation i do  for the needy   i do every year.Could this be the cause?Is some one unable to digest this?The fact that i am remembering my late son whose memory is sought to be wiped out from me very systematically? .Even in 2014 i faced this opposition .I am spending  my money  in memory of my late son and pray why should this affect any one;s sensibilities? I am helping some needy person and this is being opposed!Do only  certain people have the right to mourn their dead and keep up their memory by such donations?
3.Night had a bizzare dream .since every thought is skimmed off my jammed forehead maybe this too was skimmed and read and this  hurt all those very decent people who very very indecently are prying into my thoughts  without any shame and are using neigh of both communities  who appeared  to be decent so far thus as stalkers in this never ending sensual game .Laughable when i remember my age

With election approaching are the authorities running scared of the fact that a muslim man was and is  given the control over a hindu woman ,wife of a hindu man and the peak of denying religious freedom was reached by allowing conversion attempts on me a person who was blogging extensively on hindu religion?The neigh who openly confessed his christian leanings though he is a hindu who visits a lot of temples , a neigh with whom we all got along from the beginning was also given the control  over us!Maybe to  some in lower strata of hindu society in here it is quite the in thing and very normal to keep images of both hindu gods and of jesus or Mary  equating Mary with amman but not for all the populace. From the begginning i was surprised at the gall  and utter insensitivity of  authorities to  me and the society  prevailing around us.Maybe in higher circles or in political circles which moves in a rarified atmosphetre this control given to a minority community over a majority community family would be very fashionable and so very secular! Must have been patting themselves with pride.But there is nothing modern or fashionable in that   man  who  in most conservative fashion keeps his wife in burkha and the other 's wife who has more such christian leanings will never venture out of her own even to a nearby shop .In ordinary circles this will never go down well  .i myself refused to believe that ufr was a muslim as i just couldn,t even imagine such a thing happening in india.This was not secular it was totally communal as i was being restricted and diverted from blogging on Hinduism by person belonging to a minority community  And i was not attacking  other community beliefs!Nor could i believe that a boisterous family that talks and moves so freely with all will come down so heavily on a neigh's wife for blogging on hinduism!All done slyly.

Today morning i recited slokas loudly unlike my usual self of mumbling .immediately a corporation  garbage truck came to clear garbage.why?After so proudly handing control over a hindu family to persons of other community  and allowing that shadowy conversion attempts was it suddenly felt that such things don't go well with ordinary public and there fore i the person  ridiculed and constantly humiliated for my hindu beliefs as expressed in my blogs  have to procalim my hindu identity by carrying bags of hindu gods images, visit temples and recite loudly slokas so that those who are evesdropping are satisfied that i am not converted.Though i have no doubt about my identity i have to keep on proving i am a hindu like a clown in a circus becuase authorities have erred and the common people who were roped into this  will never read my long  winding experiences viz obstruction to my freedom of expression and rel;igion and explanations in my blogs.Nor would they understand rfid.the id 16digit number and password if it is available to disable rfid and that  the attempt at  conversion .they all witnessed for a whole month ,with a white girl also making her rounds along with smarthas,amman bhakths and fez caps can be possible wouldn,t be possible without such people being given a direct access to my thoughts ,mind etc by using the id number and infra red rays.

Even the well educated manager at bjp office laughed at me when i said that i am being harrassed  in the four walls of my house by neigh living above us when i wanted his help to get over this constant harrassment [ after ge]/interrogation cum sound blasting and uv or infra rays piercing my eyes, ears and brain and asked how it was possible for a neigh to harrass one so slyliy and shadowily? It is not my look out to proclaim my religious status to anyone .it is also not my look out that by doing so i will be dousing fears of all those minos who took part in this charade quite gleefully lest some fringe take them to task .By reiterating my hindu status [,by procaliming i am a hindu iam a hindu to all and sundry ]from which i never went away, by carrying bags with images of gods etc i am experiencing or conditioned to experience more discomfort than i normally wouldAnd the look on the faces of total strangers and also ufr which lights up with pure pleasure after a leak in thier presence .like as if they have won a trophy in a battle is  so very  revolting and makes me hate them and makes me want to seek revenge.All  negative emotions i can do without. .

on other hand if i carry such bags or wear such ornaments my legs go weighty or limp and am made to leak in temples!guessing that since a long rope has been given these people are not letting go off me .and continue to harrass me with pure malice and hatred.


I am uploading two videos i took of that morning warning which has yet again made me come on the net though i have other work to do.