scooters and cyclists one of the slow death causing weapons.?
Few days back my husband left for Tirupati by train.[i wouldn't have mentioned or linked the religious place in this blog if not for the forcible conversions carried on me in 2014 .It was only then through mind to mind or rather some ones hidden mouth to my left ear -orders .talks most probably through mobile &; special electronic frequencies , that i got to know that Christians are allergic to the temple town of Tirupathi Tirumala]
When i waved him bye him from my first floor balcony at 5.30 am i saw the f-i-l of lower floor tenant whose wife once told me, were residing at Police quarters at Teynampet ,came inside the compound in a blackish grey safari suit holding the handle of his scooter which was running!He was not pushing it but guiding a running purring scooter by walking along with it!It looked odd and was a strange thing to do .
He came just as my hub turned right and walked towards the gate exposing his heart to this scooter and its owner .
As he reached the gate and street i saw a handicapped /lame man pedalling his shining tricycle with his hands on the street ahead of my hub.So my hubs heart was surely targetted by the person walking down the scooter and the tricycle pedaller .Why?.His political opinions are well known .and has always been in favour of supremos of state[late cm] and centre.Yet it was targetted.He is most vulnerable of all three of us as his heart is weak and is sort to be weakened further.Very sadistic and very ungrateful,to one who is so loyal .Was it to do with my blog on my forcibile conversion ? where i hold the ruling party of this state guilty?
In 2014 when i confronted the neighbour with Christian links on my floor to know as to what was going on around me that has changed my life so drastically since 2012 and even more after 2014 as i knew that he as playing a role in it ,He in a way admitted reading my diary writings by pointing to his wife and saying that she may have several faults but i see only her good ones and you to should be like that .[few days earlier i had called both late cm &; pm some names in my diary for not allowing me to have my basic freedoms ]He pointed to a woman and not to himself and a woman was ruling this state of TN then.
2,Whenever i blogged about all the strange going ons around me and mentioned Jayalalitha in passing as a guess work , her name was always underlined and even heard 'It is her doing' Maybe heard coz of that special frequencyand also the fact that my left ear was blocked soon after 2014 GE
Further he nodded his head in agreement and approval when i said didn't i bring Koodankulam deal through? By bearing with great determination the excruiting mental torture for 3 weeks to make me write and i refused to do so lest it harm the deal?
.
So i assumed that it was the state's ruling party's handiwork But i donot rule out role of shadowy agencies of centre and defence in this month long torture cum conversion .I am unable to find the rationale behind this conversion attempts which are still going on .How can conversion be a punishment for my views or derogotary references to political leaders in my diary ?How can my conversion solve the neighbouring countries malafide intentions or naxals intrusion into my life as is often hinted ?
Is our Parliamentry democracy so fragile that it can be sabotaged by my diary writings or blogs or tweets?Amusing ! Parliament was up on its feet within a week of attack by gun totting terrorists but a lot of hue and cry is being made about my potential to harm its sessions by merely writing some thing or the other ! Real politicians get their feed back of ground realities from people meeting them with petitions for help .That is how my grand father a politician kept his ears to the ground Sensational news items dominating for a week and then fizziling out and dying a quiet death can never substitute the contact with common people .
What ever the reason may be the fact is this---
1,My freedom to be the sole possesor of my body was taken away in 2012 by making me hear month long high decibel sounds over my head
2/My freedom to have privacy of my thoughts ,and voluntary introspections was taken away by one month long painful
shafts driven into my head in June 2014
3.My freedom to pursue my religion peacefully was taken away by month long squeezing out of fluids out of me simultaneously with multiple conversion attempts as well as that chup chup==the signal of reversing cars that my analysis has been taken as well as signal that i was forced to go over my past happenings and forget it .
4. My freedom to remain silent or speak only when i want to or to whom. was also been taken awayThe urge to speak is to my near family is forced on me only when persons of other communities are in my vicinity.
5. The freedom to control my bodily movements , bowel and bladder movements was taken away .Sound of overhead flights play a major role in this loss of control
6.The freedom to like or dislike persons as per my nature was taken away I was made to pine and feel a unnatural kinship with persons of other communities since 2012 Overhead rust plays a great role in this ,It made me like dirty and deceitful people and made me feel alienated from my society , my past This feeling of feeling distant from my Hindu country, people and society,reached crecendo in 2014 and there after till recently.
All the above happened to me. Still happening.i can never forget it .Most important result of all this was my total loss of trust in the decency of my flat neighbours, some relatives and people around me as well as in integrity of the highest offices of this state and country.Why should long time flat neighbours against whom i had no animosity walk speedily towards me or come running down the stairs to shake my heart or stand or walk behind me deliberately to make me view men of their community or caste with unholy affection ?
The word neighbour is often underlined though spelling is ok .hinting at role of neighbours of india that justifies all this shadowy tortures wreaked on me.This is getting on my nerves. What military or civil secrets compromising this nation's security can be dug out from me?If they are really after me for some sort of analysis ,why was i progressively weakened to make it easier for them to whatever they are upto ?I was weakened by persons in this flat and not from""neighbouring"countries.Does it mean that some persons in my flat have links to neighbors?.Why not inter them instead of trying to dumb me down and make a fool out of me by constantly confusing me?
My hub came back with a chest cold .yesterday when i set out to get a otp for linking my mobile with aadhar saw that the lower floor tenants had vacated! A noisy family but have left silently.I had written the above i my diary few days back and now the empty flat is undergoing a lot of repair works which has brought all those deadly iron tools very close to our hearts Those wanting to damage our hearts/specially my husband;s and get reactions must be rubbing their hands at glee as we have to go up and down with those tools poised readily in workers hands !.The sadistic reception committee .
This linking is getting on my nerves .Am i terrorist or will do some terror acts past 60 years of age or am i a illegal immigrant ?First my thumb impression is no longer there due to age so have to do a lot of procedures if i have to hold on to my mobile. It reminds me of the tedious bureacratic procedures of days gone by to get any thing .That time around i was young and was used to it so didn't grumble but now i am old and having got used to other way round for a 2decades like for eg getting a phone connection off the counter instead of waiting and waiting for it for years as we had to in my younger days ,it is tiring to do so much just to retain my phone connection .
Note -'After blogging this i went to nearby mobile recharge shop with old sim of phone number to link my present one with my aadhar number, [sim which i had preserved] as directed by airtel office.grumbling at having to run to pillar to post to retain a mobile which i scarcely use but cannot let go off it owing to its usefulness and hoping that at least this would click and i need not go to E seva for further procedures etc
etc/
There the salesman brought the thumb impression machine without listening to my explanations that i had tried all my twenty fingers at Airtel office after climbing head spinning steep steps leading to its office twice and at both times my impressions didn't tally .He placed the small machine .Then i thought ok i;ll give it another try and placed my thumb ==No link a red message came ..Then i tried my index finger and lo behold a green message came and the sales man did the rest in no time and said your mobile has been verified.
I couldn't believe it .Was he sure ,He said yes see your verification has come .Rubbed my eyes haven't my impressions washed away by age of which airtel was sure or wasn't it done properly in 2013?
No nothing of the above .I was simply being harrassed /obstructed all these days in my quest to link it .
ok if really my impressions had changed with age then i would have had to go through a tedious procedure with a deadline of March 2018 hanging and i would have grumbled at the govt for making the retention of a mobile so difficult And fumed at it for throwing hurdles at the ease of life i have been habituated so far the way i fumed at the earlier one to make me stand hours in a queue in a poky room for getting photographed , biometric etc for aadhar card when i already had so many identification cards in possesion like election etc That to at an age when all these procedures are too weary to undertake.'----[10 th Feb evening]
When i blogged now about my hubs loyalty ,centre was underlined.He is a known Modi fan.and unstinted loyalist.His adoration and loyalty dates back to Modi;'s CM days Any thing wrong with it?He laughs and cries with him . Is it a crime? Whether his heart is moved so as to make him emote politically in centres favour or to simply weaken it to ease him out slowly, his basic loyalty can never be shaken.The thought readers know this He with stood the 2012 onsluaght aimed at scaring him off this loyalty and didnt let go.So it is a futile excersise of those who are doing this...
I have no such hero worship for any political leader .My only hero is Rama .
Similarily the forcible forgivness sessions can never wipe out my basic Hindu beliefs .I donot believe that forgivness would liberate me and make me attain moksha I have no faith in that concept which is so central to Christian beliefs.I strongly believe in concept of karma and that i have to face the consequences of deeds done by me.Deeds done owing to my inherited gunas /nature from my past and and previous lives as part of my anscestors and that i can never escape the workings of Karma even if 1000 forgivness sessions were forced on me or ,forcing me to surrender .i believe that i was born in a family well versed in Vedas , upanishads ,Gita owing to my good karmas and this life is a step to attain better karmas and even moksha .
Taking birth as a human being is boon and not a sin .Making proper use of birth as a human being so as to reach the land of no return Moksha is solely dependant on that individuals determination to achieve it through , penance, discipline , , detatachment to fruits of work, knowledge ,Vedic rituals , devotion and so on .This is not a easy job .It cannot be acquired in a single birth ,There is no hurry in Hinduism .It says you can achieve it any succeeding birth.
Next i may have lost touch with the sacredness of this soil forgetting to remember Rama or Bhudevi when i walk on it or those scores of rihis and acharyas who have traversed it in past sanctifying each clod of earth .This loss of touch is becuase i am constantly diverted by passerbyes , scooters and the unique but perverted type of telephonic messages that has disrupt my peace of mind and tranquility and made me over alert to all these insignificant minions .When i am restored to myself i will again get back my touch with this country, its Hindu religious sentiments and my Hindu heroes of its past /
When i am prepared to get my seat in heaven or Moksha in any of my succeeding births will i accept these fellows time bound hurried [forcibile ] liberation on me ? That to in a highly childlike simple manner ==I forgive you .Now my seat in heaven is assured?That would be believing in miracles and i donot believe in miracles.I may have some superstitious beliefs but i have no belief in miracles..
Yesterday whilst meditating in my room heard a scooter speed down and immediately my left ear opened.Felt great .I guess the way to control my thoughts or to put in suggestions is to block my ears to external sounds and make me hear only my own voice or messages beamed through some special frequency and even internet .No wonder i am always compared to 5 year old girls or a dog on leash.If i have to be chastisied either for writing or grumbling at my freedom less state & at the conversion attempts the 5 yr old girl from lower floor would be made to cry loudly .Dogs on leash are brought out hurriedly when i walk as if to tease me to say that my every movement is being controlled and monitered .
This total opening of my ears has happened only twice or thrice since 2014 . So today i set out wanting to clera my block and deliberately walked on opposite side of oncoming traffic and went near scooters exposing my left ear hoping the sound of the scooters would clear the block .At two places where i saw scooters coming towards me in the morning traffic motorbikes and scooters whizzed by me from behind pushing those scooters away and also making those scootersits curse these rash drivers for breaking traffic rules and endangering thier lives..So no luck My intentions/experiment well read and and actions taken .
I observed that two wheelers mostly motor bikes whizzed past me in places where the traffic slowed down and scooters came cruising towards me slowly due to signal and a cut in the road .
If slow scooters or vehicles coming from opposite direction causes some jerk or shaking of the heart or abdomen then the cut in our street is to attack our heart ,specially my hubs when we go out and come back from walk Why should there be a unrepaired cut on the main road when we turn into our street? The main roads of tnagar are always kept in good condition so why is this break in the main road yet to be smoothened?Is it to slow vehicles ?It serves two purposes .Avoid skidding of vehicles due to my gold bangles and also shake our hearts .
How much ever i blog my travails and observations nothing will be done to give us back our normal life.That is for sure,
When i waved him bye him from my first floor balcony at 5.30 am i saw the f-i-l of lower floor tenant whose wife once told me, were residing at Police quarters at Teynampet ,came inside the compound in a blackish grey safari suit holding the handle of his scooter which was running!He was not pushing it but guiding a running purring scooter by walking along with it!It looked odd and was a strange thing to do .
He came just as my hub turned right and walked towards the gate exposing his heart to this scooter and its owner .
As he reached the gate and street i saw a handicapped /lame man pedalling his shining tricycle with his hands on the street ahead of my hub.So my hubs heart was surely targetted by the person walking down the scooter and the tricycle pedaller .Why?.His political opinions are well known .and has always been in favour of supremos of state[late cm] and centre.Yet it was targetted.He is most vulnerable of all three of us as his heart is weak and is sort to be weakened further.Very sadistic and very ungrateful,to one who is so loyal .Was it to do with my blog on my forcibile conversion ? where i hold the ruling party of this state guilty?
In 2014 when i confronted the neighbour with Christian links on my floor to know as to what was going on around me that has changed my life so drastically since 2012 and even more after 2014 as i knew that he as playing a role in it ,He in a way admitted reading my diary writings by pointing to his wife and saying that she may have several faults but i see only her good ones and you to should be like that .[few days earlier i had called both late cm &; pm some names in my diary for not allowing me to have my basic freedoms ]He pointed to a woman and not to himself and a woman was ruling this state of TN then.
2,Whenever i blogged about all the strange going ons around me and mentioned Jayalalitha in passing as a guess work , her name was always underlined and even heard 'It is her doing' Maybe heard coz of that special frequencyand also the fact that my left ear was blocked soon after 2014 GE
Further he nodded his head in agreement and approval when i said didn't i bring Koodankulam deal through? By bearing with great determination the excruiting mental torture for 3 weeks to make me write and i refused to do so lest it harm the deal?
.
So i assumed that it was the state's ruling party's handiwork But i donot rule out role of shadowy agencies of centre and defence in this month long torture cum conversion .I am unable to find the rationale behind this conversion attempts which are still going on .How can conversion be a punishment for my views or derogotary references to political leaders in my diary ?How can my conversion solve the neighbouring countries malafide intentions or naxals intrusion into my life as is often hinted ?
Is our Parliamentry democracy so fragile that it can be sabotaged by my diary writings or blogs or tweets?Amusing ! Parliament was up on its feet within a week of attack by gun totting terrorists but a lot of hue and cry is being made about my potential to harm its sessions by merely writing some thing or the other ! Real politicians get their feed back of ground realities from people meeting them with petitions for help .That is how my grand father a politician kept his ears to the ground Sensational news items dominating for a week and then fizziling out and dying a quiet death can never substitute the contact with common people .
What ever the reason may be the fact is this---
1,My freedom to be the sole possesor of my body was taken away in 2012 by making me hear month long high decibel sounds over my head
2/My freedom to have privacy of my thoughts ,and voluntary introspections was taken away by one month long painful
shafts driven into my head in June 2014
3.My freedom to pursue my religion peacefully was taken away by month long squeezing out of fluids out of me simultaneously with multiple conversion attempts as well as that chup chup==the signal of reversing cars that my analysis has been taken as well as signal that i was forced to go over my past happenings and forget it .
4. My freedom to remain silent or speak only when i want to or to whom. was also been taken awayThe urge to speak is to my near family is forced on me only when persons of other communities are in my vicinity.
5. The freedom to control my bodily movements , bowel and bladder movements was taken away .Sound of overhead flights play a major role in this loss of control
6.The freedom to like or dislike persons as per my nature was taken away I was made to pine and feel a unnatural kinship with persons of other communities since 2012 Overhead rust plays a great role in this ,It made me like dirty and deceitful people and made me feel alienated from my society , my past This feeling of feeling distant from my Hindu country, people and society,reached crecendo in 2014 and there after till recently.
All the above happened to me. Still happening.i can never forget it .Most important result of all this was my total loss of trust in the decency of my flat neighbours, some relatives and people around me as well as in integrity of the highest offices of this state and country.Why should long time flat neighbours against whom i had no animosity walk speedily towards me or come running down the stairs to shake my heart or stand or walk behind me deliberately to make me view men of their community or caste with unholy affection ?
The word neighbour is often underlined though spelling is ok .hinting at role of neighbours of india that justifies all this shadowy tortures wreaked on me.This is getting on my nerves. What military or civil secrets compromising this nation's security can be dug out from me?If they are really after me for some sort of analysis ,why was i progressively weakened to make it easier for them to whatever they are upto ?I was weakened by persons in this flat and not from""neighbouring"countries.Does it mean that some persons in my flat have links to neighbors?.Why not inter them instead of trying to dumb me down and make a fool out of me by constantly confusing me?
My hub came back with a chest cold .yesterday when i set out to get a otp for linking my mobile with aadhar saw that the lower floor tenants had vacated! A noisy family but have left silently.I had written the above i my diary few days back and now the empty flat is undergoing a lot of repair works which has brought all those deadly iron tools very close to our hearts Those wanting to damage our hearts/specially my husband;s and get reactions must be rubbing their hands at glee as we have to go up and down with those tools poised readily in workers hands !.The sadistic reception committee .
This linking is getting on my nerves .Am i terrorist or will do some terror acts past 60 years of age or am i a illegal immigrant ?First my thumb impression is no longer there due to age so have to do a lot of procedures if i have to hold on to my mobile. It reminds me of the tedious bureacratic procedures of days gone by to get any thing .That time around i was young and was used to it so didn't grumble but now i am old and having got used to other way round for a 2decades like for eg getting a phone connection off the counter instead of waiting and waiting for it for years as we had to in my younger days ,it is tiring to do so much just to retain my phone connection .
Note -'After blogging this i went to nearby mobile recharge shop with old sim of phone number to link my present one with my aadhar number, [sim which i had preserved] as directed by airtel office.grumbling at having to run to pillar to post to retain a mobile which i scarcely use but cannot let go off it owing to its usefulness and hoping that at least this would click and i need not go to E seva for further procedures etc
etc/
There the salesman brought the thumb impression machine without listening to my explanations that i had tried all my twenty fingers at Airtel office after climbing head spinning steep steps leading to its office twice and at both times my impressions didn't tally .He placed the small machine .Then i thought ok i;ll give it another try and placed my thumb ==No link a red message came ..Then i tried my index finger and lo behold a green message came and the sales man did the rest in no time and said your mobile has been verified.
I couldn't believe it .Was he sure ,He said yes see your verification has come .Rubbed my eyes haven't my impressions washed away by age of which airtel was sure or wasn't it done properly in 2013?
No nothing of the above .I was simply being harrassed /obstructed all these days in my quest to link it .
ok if really my impressions had changed with age then i would have had to go through a tedious procedure with a deadline of March 2018 hanging and i would have grumbled at the govt for making the retention of a mobile so difficult And fumed at it for throwing hurdles at the ease of life i have been habituated so far the way i fumed at the earlier one to make me stand hours in a queue in a poky room for getting photographed , biometric etc for aadhar card when i already had so many identification cards in possesion like election etc That to at an age when all these procedures are too weary to undertake.'----[10 th Feb evening]
When i blogged now about my hubs loyalty ,centre was underlined.He is a known Modi fan.and unstinted loyalist.His adoration and loyalty dates back to Modi;'s CM days Any thing wrong with it?He laughs and cries with him . Is it a crime? Whether his heart is moved so as to make him emote politically in centres favour or to simply weaken it to ease him out slowly, his basic loyalty can never be shaken.The thought readers know this He with stood the 2012 onsluaght aimed at scaring him off this loyalty and didnt let go.So it is a futile excersise of those who are doing this...
I have no such hero worship for any political leader .My only hero is Rama .
Similarily the forcible forgivness sessions can never wipe out my basic Hindu beliefs .I donot believe that forgivness would liberate me and make me attain moksha I have no faith in that concept which is so central to Christian beliefs.I strongly believe in concept of karma and that i have to face the consequences of deeds done by me.Deeds done owing to my inherited gunas /nature from my past and and previous lives as part of my anscestors and that i can never escape the workings of Karma even if 1000 forgivness sessions were forced on me or ,forcing me to surrender .i believe that i was born in a family well versed in Vedas , upanishads ,Gita owing to my good karmas and this life is a step to attain better karmas and even moksha .
Taking birth as a human being is boon and not a sin .Making proper use of birth as a human being so as to reach the land of no return Moksha is solely dependant on that individuals determination to achieve it through , penance, discipline , , detatachment to fruits of work, knowledge ,Vedic rituals , devotion and so on .This is not a easy job .It cannot be acquired in a single birth ,There is no hurry in Hinduism .It says you can achieve it any succeeding birth.
Next i may have lost touch with the sacredness of this soil forgetting to remember Rama or Bhudevi when i walk on it or those scores of rihis and acharyas who have traversed it in past sanctifying each clod of earth .This loss of touch is becuase i am constantly diverted by passerbyes , scooters and the unique but perverted type of telephonic messages that has disrupt my peace of mind and tranquility and made me over alert to all these insignificant minions .When i am restored to myself i will again get back my touch with this country, its Hindu religious sentiments and my Hindu heroes of its past /
When i am prepared to get my seat in heaven or Moksha in any of my succeeding births will i accept these fellows time bound hurried [forcibile ] liberation on me ? That to in a highly childlike simple manner ==I forgive you .Now my seat in heaven is assured?That would be believing in miracles and i donot believe in miracles.I may have some superstitious beliefs but i have no belief in miracles..
Yesterday whilst meditating in my room heard a scooter speed down and immediately my left ear opened.Felt great .I guess the way to control my thoughts or to put in suggestions is to block my ears to external sounds and make me hear only my own voice or messages beamed through some special frequency and even internet .No wonder i am always compared to 5 year old girls or a dog on leash.If i have to be chastisied either for writing or grumbling at my freedom less state & at the conversion attempts the 5 yr old girl from lower floor would be made to cry loudly .Dogs on leash are brought out hurriedly when i walk as if to tease me to say that my every movement is being controlled and monitered .
This total opening of my ears has happened only twice or thrice since 2014 . So today i set out wanting to clera my block and deliberately walked on opposite side of oncoming traffic and went near scooters exposing my left ear hoping the sound of the scooters would clear the block .At two places where i saw scooters coming towards me in the morning traffic motorbikes and scooters whizzed by me from behind pushing those scooters away and also making those scootersits curse these rash drivers for breaking traffic rules and endangering thier lives..So no luck My intentions/experiment well read and and actions taken .
I observed that two wheelers mostly motor bikes whizzed past me in places where the traffic slowed down and scooters came cruising towards me slowly due to signal and a cut in the road .
If slow scooters or vehicles coming from opposite direction causes some jerk or shaking of the heart or abdomen then the cut in our street is to attack our heart ,specially my hubs when we go out and come back from walk Why should there be a unrepaired cut on the main road when we turn into our street? The main roads of tnagar are always kept in good condition so why is this break in the main road yet to be smoothened?Is it to slow vehicles ?It serves two purposes .Avoid skidding of vehicles due to my gold bangles and also shake our hearts .
How much ever i blog my travails and observations nothing will be done to give us back our normal life.That is for sure,
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