Yet again Velon [Murugha] kaaka kaaka warning.
I am getting pretty tired of the two major warnings that seem to be given so often that it is eating into my daily activities and i am forced to come on the net and cough it out , that is ,all that i have written in my diary or said in my house or face some damage to body and pshyche if i ignore them .
This warning was played in the morning today , around 8 am the time i have observed as being allotted to the two major warnings.So i have dropped every thing and here i am to give my confessions and observations on discomforts in my body .
The day dawned, rainy and sky laden with rain bearing clouds , spread uniformly eclipsing the sun totally.This weather report has nothing to do with my coming on the net as any landing or take off of flights that are close with which what i am going to relate , and with which my life seems to be bound ,will still be visible. It is just a warm up ,to start the work thrust on me.
Whole of yesterday i didn't see a single landing but kept hearing and at times seeing take offs .This trend started day before itself.The following is what i have observed and noted down and cough it out.
Sunday --15.5.16
Huge plane's landing seen very close from my bedroom window at 8.32am On time as per my last 2 weeks of observation and noting it down
I had gone for a morning walk earlier and timed it so that i will be back when this huge plane sails by at the time it has never missed so far viz 8.30 sacrifcing the relaxation time on another sure huge landing at 7 50 as i wanted to get some exercise for health sake.
Big planes landing before this and after this mammoth , But from 10am i am observing take off's!In the eastern sky visible from my bedroom!
10.10--Take off at a distance , over opposite tenements
10.15--A huge plane's take off , just over the tenements going straight east and then curving and going south east .Airport is in south west.direction .Strange!
Today had a early bath and early pujas . i keep on repeating this innocuos routine becuase the theme of religion conversion etc has been spread too thickly to my daily mundane routines.so thickly that it keeps raising my suspicion that it could be a cover for something else or some one 's doings , more sinister which could be a shameful blot on reputation of our country..
unusual--There are usually a lot of landings in Saturday and Sunday , But today i am hearing only take offs and seeing them which normally as per my observations of past two weeks has to be only after 11 .30 am specially on weekends at time stretching to 12.10pm .Maybe shcedules change.Don't know.
10.25.am Take off over my bed room loud So near.So time to be free of control?like in close landings?if so the time for freedom is being maintained both ways.since 10.20--30 is time for close landings
Take off day Monday --16.5.16
Went to terrace early in morning to do a two in one combine walking with observation of flights.
5.30.--6.30.No landings Lot of take offs in west side .but at 6.25 and 6.30 take offs on eastern side going pretty close to overhead and 6-30 one taking a curve to south .
my companion on terrace was a pigeon and on and of a pitch black crow.i was reading hymns in Tamil greeting dawn and waking up Sri ranganathar as the cool breeze of morning and restful quietitude of dawn which is picturised in words that are a treat to read and tell and soak, in those hymns invited me to do so .
The perverted pairing continues to be propogated .
Started to feel itchy on upper left side of my body.
Around 6 26 before the arrival of huge take off it suddenly struck me that maybe the flights plan was changed because i blogged about it , in short because of me!
If so why have i been given this stupid , perverted dangerous power , forcibily?Why that fellow who did this to me be hauled up?
Just to control me or to keep me away from causing some harm , entire flight schedules had to be changed, and manipulated and controlled?Was it so important to control me in the first place since 2012 ?Didn't those who did this to me never bother about collateral damages and other consequences? Then i mocked my own anger by saying how would inhuman people bother about all such fall outs?
Am i over reacting to this Monday schedule?maybe such changes do take place once in two weeks and shouldn't i observe whole month to come to such conclusions?
6.55 A loud take off heard from my bedroom .The exact time of mammoth landing.So may be i am not over reacting.
Timings of close flights is being maintained , only it has changed from landing in south from east to take off from south to east either curving southwards or curving Northwest wards or plain south to north over head
7.49--Take off over head naturally north wars.
8.14--Take off .Huge.Over opposite tenement on my right of bedroom window going east and then slanting south wards
So timings of huge ones are maintained.
Is this my new Narayana?Does it benifit us? or is it detrimental to us or one of us? .
Was translating desikans slokas on Rama .Saw a take off in east and took a slant north wards .felt a slight pain in my upper body and heart. Some was using the rays .carrying forward the conversion drama or controlling or both.saying don't you dare' translate' slokas and hymns .
Is the change in this schedule of flights is to do with my determination to carry on as usual and continue to wear my gold bangles which has become the villian and not the rays directed at me the way it is potryaed and i also observed that it deflects them making scooters etc wobble or skid .Can a deflection harm a plane? unbeleivable.
Even if it is true no one came and informed in proper manner.So why should i leave my practise of wearing bangles of shining metals since childhood?Would any girl or unmarried or married woman or widow be without a spot of gold on her ?If deflection is true weren't those who set me up unaware of this indian custom .being indians?
Am i really jeopadrising lives ?surely i would be informed and not be allowed me to assume this and that .
Yet, yet if the flights were changed because of me[,unable to admit in open, the inhumanity perpretated on me by authorities ,] i am unable to stomach this change in flights plan .It is too enormous.Aern't flights changed only for PM of india and not even to his ministers or chief ministers?Or changed for a short period when a world leader is visiting? Such changes for an ordinary person /citizen is unthinkable.I feel like vomiting at the enormity of this situation.
17.5.16--Tuesday
Rainy cloudy
Heard only take off's
6.35--Take off over head. loud.
Observation of effects of take offs
1.Since day before am having persistent itching in upper left torso and at times pain in heart .
2.That cluck cluck sound heard near my ears often, has vanished or has become inaudible.A relief of sorts .It is a irritating sound to keep me in a hot line contact non stop with people hidden from view.
3. I have to observe again , note down timings and try to unravel take off's effects on me just when i had nearly cracked landings effects and had arrived at my tiny space for freedom from control.
8 am got the warning and so came and coughed it out.
Some more observations--on effect of take offs with the rider i am at home and didn't go out due to rains .
4. I am getting back my confidence .Started to feel , this is my house , my life , i am its mistress and my hub its master.This feeling is to a certain extent .
.
5.A bit of my gloomy nature like the weather outside is returning .Good . It feels like myself and i want to be myself and to feel i am Sujata .
More normalcy if i start feeling the following--
1.when i find my concentration is not disturbed whilst reading general articles, articles or books on Hinduism , and note down either the summary or translations of such article or books on Hinduism.
2.when i visit temples if i donot get pain in my knees or various discomforts either immediately or later at home then it would mean that the normalcy i had before 2011has returned .
3.When i stop writing reams upon reams about myself ,my problems and stop fishing too deeply into my past then it would mean that i have my house all to myself as it was before 2010 ,with no one spying or influencing me.shedding the feeling of grandoise which was deliberately fanned externally and get back to thinking that i am as ordinary and as mundane and normal as anyone around, a state of mind i had before 2010 which has nothing to boast about..
4. when the nearby temple starts playing 'Angalathuma vaadi amma'instead of Venkateswara Suprabhatham at 5am with hourly advise and stops playing kamakshi suprabhatm at evening 6pm and all flood lights removed i ll know that Thomas road is back to normal and the days of constant 24 hours of unwanted company /monitering me , is over for good.
And i 'll get back my insignificant, mundane life much to my relief.
If so would i have any regrets?Maybe a tiny bit , to be off the limelight .But the price i paid or was forced to pay was to live in a state of forced grandiosity due to constant attention , [even if most of it was only hostile ] has had nothing concrete emerging out of it to satisfy my labour nor any open recognition to goad me on .
The price of this grandiosity forcibly wrapped around my shoulders is too high , so very exhorbitant that i cannot afford it ..
This warning was played in the morning today , around 8 am the time i have observed as being allotted to the two major warnings.So i have dropped every thing and here i am to give my confessions and observations on discomforts in my body .
The day dawned, rainy and sky laden with rain bearing clouds , spread uniformly eclipsing the sun totally.This weather report has nothing to do with my coming on the net as any landing or take off of flights that are close with which what i am going to relate , and with which my life seems to be bound ,will still be visible. It is just a warm up ,to start the work thrust on me.
Whole of yesterday i didn't see a single landing but kept hearing and at times seeing take offs .This trend started day before itself.The following is what i have observed and noted down and cough it out.
Sunday --15.5.16
Huge plane's landing seen very close from my bedroom window at 8.32am On time as per my last 2 weeks of observation and noting it down
I had gone for a morning walk earlier and timed it so that i will be back when this huge plane sails by at the time it has never missed so far viz 8.30 sacrifcing the relaxation time on another sure huge landing at 7 50 as i wanted to get some exercise for health sake.
Big planes landing before this and after this mammoth , But from 10am i am observing take off's!In the eastern sky visible from my bedroom!
10.10--Take off at a distance , over opposite tenements
10.15--A huge plane's take off , just over the tenements going straight east and then curving and going south east .Airport is in south west.direction .Strange!
Today had a early bath and early pujas . i keep on repeating this innocuos routine becuase the theme of religion conversion etc has been spread too thickly to my daily mundane routines.so thickly that it keeps raising my suspicion that it could be a cover for something else or some one 's doings , more sinister which could be a shameful blot on reputation of our country..
unusual--There are usually a lot of landings in Saturday and Sunday , But today i am hearing only take offs and seeing them which normally as per my observations of past two weeks has to be only after 11 .30 am specially on weekends at time stretching to 12.10pm .Maybe shcedules change.Don't know.
10.25.am Take off over my bed room loud So near.So time to be free of control?like in close landings?if so the time for freedom is being maintained both ways.since 10.20--30 is time for close landings
Take off day Monday --16.5.16
Went to terrace early in morning to do a two in one combine walking with observation of flights.
5.30.--6.30.No landings Lot of take offs in west side .but at 6.25 and 6.30 take offs on eastern side going pretty close to overhead and 6-30 one taking a curve to south .
my companion on terrace was a pigeon and on and of a pitch black crow.i was reading hymns in Tamil greeting dawn and waking up Sri ranganathar as the cool breeze of morning and restful quietitude of dawn which is picturised in words that are a treat to read and tell and soak, in those hymns invited me to do so .
The perverted pairing continues to be propogated .
Started to feel itchy on upper left side of my body.
Around 6 26 before the arrival of huge take off it suddenly struck me that maybe the flights plan was changed because i blogged about it , in short because of me!
If so why have i been given this stupid , perverted dangerous power , forcibily?Why that fellow who did this to me be hauled up?
Just to control me or to keep me away from causing some harm , entire flight schedules had to be changed, and manipulated and controlled?Was it so important to control me in the first place since 2012 ?Didn't those who did this to me never bother about collateral damages and other consequences? Then i mocked my own anger by saying how would inhuman people bother about all such fall outs?
Am i over reacting to this Monday schedule?maybe such changes do take place once in two weeks and shouldn't i observe whole month to come to such conclusions?
6.55 A loud take off heard from my bedroom .The exact time of mammoth landing.So may be i am not over reacting.
Timings of close flights is being maintained , only it has changed from landing in south from east to take off from south to east either curving southwards or curving Northwest wards or plain south to north over head
7.49--Take off over head naturally north wars.
8.14--Take off .Huge.Over opposite tenement on my right of bedroom window going east and then slanting south wards
So timings of huge ones are maintained.
Is this my new Narayana?Does it benifit us? or is it detrimental to us or one of us? .
Was translating desikans slokas on Rama .Saw a take off in east and took a slant north wards .felt a slight pain in my upper body and heart. Some was using the rays .carrying forward the conversion drama or controlling or both.saying don't you dare' translate' slokas and hymns .
Is the change in this schedule of flights is to do with my determination to carry on as usual and continue to wear my gold bangles which has become the villian and not the rays directed at me the way it is potryaed and i also observed that it deflects them making scooters etc wobble or skid .Can a deflection harm a plane? unbeleivable.
Even if it is true no one came and informed in proper manner.So why should i leave my practise of wearing bangles of shining metals since childhood?Would any girl or unmarried or married woman or widow be without a spot of gold on her ?If deflection is true weren't those who set me up unaware of this indian custom .being indians?
Am i really jeopadrising lives ?surely i would be informed and not be allowed me to assume this and that .
Yet, yet if the flights were changed because of me[,unable to admit in open, the inhumanity perpretated on me by authorities ,] i am unable to stomach this change in flights plan .It is too enormous.Aern't flights changed only for PM of india and not even to his ministers or chief ministers?Or changed for a short period when a world leader is visiting? Such changes for an ordinary person /citizen is unthinkable.I feel like vomiting at the enormity of this situation.
17.5.16--Tuesday
Rainy cloudy
Heard only take off's
6.35--Take off over head. loud.
Observation of effects of take offs
1.Since day before am having persistent itching in upper left torso and at times pain in heart .
2.That cluck cluck sound heard near my ears often, has vanished or has become inaudible.A relief of sorts .It is a irritating sound to keep me in a hot line contact non stop with people hidden from view.
3. I have to observe again , note down timings and try to unravel take off's effects on me just when i had nearly cracked landings effects and had arrived at my tiny space for freedom from control.
8 am got the warning and so came and coughed it out.
Some more observations--on effect of take offs with the rider i am at home and didn't go out due to rains .
4. I am getting back my confidence .Started to feel , this is my house , my life , i am its mistress and my hub its master.This feeling is to a certain extent .
.
5.A bit of my gloomy nature like the weather outside is returning .Good . It feels like myself and i want to be myself and to feel i am Sujata .
More normalcy if i start feeling the following--
1.when i find my concentration is not disturbed whilst reading general articles, articles or books on Hinduism , and note down either the summary or translations of such article or books on Hinduism.
2.when i visit temples if i donot get pain in my knees or various discomforts either immediately or later at home then it would mean that the normalcy i had before 2011has returned .
3.When i stop writing reams upon reams about myself ,my problems and stop fishing too deeply into my past then it would mean that i have my house all to myself as it was before 2010 ,with no one spying or influencing me.shedding the feeling of grandoise which was deliberately fanned externally and get back to thinking that i am as ordinary and as mundane and normal as anyone around, a state of mind i had before 2010 which has nothing to boast about..
4. when the nearby temple starts playing 'Angalathuma vaadi amma'instead of Venkateswara Suprabhatham at 5am with hourly advise and stops playing kamakshi suprabhatm at evening 6pm and all flood lights removed i ll know that Thomas road is back to normal and the days of constant 24 hours of unwanted company /monitering me , is over for good.
And i 'll get back my insignificant, mundane life much to my relief.
If so would i have any regrets?Maybe a tiny bit , to be off the limelight .But the price i paid or was forced to pay was to live in a state of forced grandiosity due to constant attention , [even if most of it was only hostile ] has had nothing concrete emerging out of it to satisfy my labour nor any open recognition to goad me on .
The price of this grandiosity forcibly wrapped around my shoulders is too high , so very exhorbitant that i cannot afford it ..
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