Bhooloka Vaikuntum --SriRanganathar perumal temple atSrirangam.

 Sri Ranganathar and Ranganayaki Thaayar at Srirangnathar temple at Srirangam.

We were on our annul trip to  the temple town of Srirangam .Had a nice darshan of Ranganayaki thayar and Sri Ranganathar that night,

Next day we were up early bathed and fresh standing outside our hotel which is on the side of the circumbulatory road which is known as Mada street We were informed that the procession of Num perumal -the name of processional deity -will take place shortly at that street.
Women residents of houses were drawing huge kolams on the tar road that had been washed earlier by a vehicle spraying water on the road  so as to clean the route to be  taken by the deity .The women and  young girls seemed adept in dodging the steady flow of vehicles on this street abutting the temple compound and did a wonderful job of drawing intricate designs
We heard crackers being burst at a distance ,heralding  the start  of the procession. As we waited on the road side i amused myself by watching the skirmishes that was taking place between Mynahs and parrots over the ownership of a hole in the tall and thick stone compound  wall of the temple complex .The couple of  mynahs were furiously chasing the couple of  parrots away and succeeded in chasing them away.
Suddenly i saw several  grey coloured water birds gliding over the temple .This sight immediately took me back to Tondaradi podi aazhwars times ,nearly 1200yeras back and i remembered the wonderful hymns barely ten in all ,he had written to awaken Sri Ranganathar at dawn .In one of those poetic and devotional songs he describes swans awakening from their sleep over a bed of flowers at dawn.
I started reciting  the hymns  i know ,savouring the word play of tamil and his absolute devotion .to Sri Rangnathar .
Soon we saw the prabhandha ghoshti viz Tengalai iyengars in groups  reciting the Tamil pasurums/hymns of aazhwars [saints]Then the processional deity of Sri Ranganathar carried on a palanquin came in view followed by another group of iyengars of both sub sects reciting the vedas .We paid obseience to all .

We had to cross the street as the  part of the palanquin  facing us was covered with a gaily coloured shawl.I saw the  tiny golden hued  moorthy -deity .It moved me.So small yet so powerful !Remembered all that he has weathered .His worship being stopped for several years in 11th cent AD owing to  extreme sectarianism of a chozha king .Being spirited away to safety of Tirumala during the invasions from north by rough hordes  in 14 th century.AD .The way he was safe guarded till the invaders left and the tender  manner in which he was and  is worshipped is evidence of total devotion to this deity .

The facial features have flattened down with passage of time.yet he was radiating his irrerasable individuality .The palanquin was covered on one side so as to protect him from hot rays of the sun .It is very hot at Srirangam and he had along trip to make to a distant garden .

The procession passed on after that brief halt.After sometime we visited the temple and had a excellent darshan of Moolavar -presiding deity Sri Ranganathar in reclining form over the  bed  made by the winding black coils of serpent Ananatha,who was also  sheilding Ranga's head by spreading his five hooded heads  ,  i .In here unlike Tirumala one can go very near to Moolavar .His huge ,black and beautiful form is housed in a small but perfectly fitting sanctorium.His eyes were sheathed in gold replicas.The two nacchiars viz Sridevi and Bhoodevi in golden hue --processional deities were giving him company They seemed desolate without the radiant presence of Namperumal amidst them.

We then visitedRanganayaki Thaayars sannidhi  which is separate.There were two moolavars .Both black and beautiful .The thaayar who was behind was exceptionally beautiful so was the processional deity in golden hue .The priest at this sannidhi gave me a small lump of turmeric paste.It was freshly ground and was exuding its unique fragrance.
In all thaayar sannidhis i have visited recently like Sri Vardharaja perumal at Kanchipuram, sri Veeraraghava perumal at Thiruvallur or in here and in other temples we visited later we were given only Turmeric paste .No kumkum.

Whilst walking back to the main gate saw a lot of foreigners[white] walking in groups.Most of them  were wearing plastic covers over their socks.Some were walking barefoot like us.They seemed to be struggling to walk thus though there was cement pavement which was well shaded .Many were old, fat and silver  haired .They were taking photos of sculpters in the out lying mantaps viz the places they are allowed to visit .They are not allowed in the inner complex which only Hindus can enter.
In my recent visit to tirumala i was taken aback on seeing white men and women enter the temple .They were all wearing  the vaishnavaite caste mark on thier forehead and were wearing dhothi and sari .They looked like members of Hare RamaHare Krishna movment.some men  even had a kudumi --small pony tail at back which only Hindus sport .They were rushing in with as much fervour as any of the devotee around .I enquired a priest standing nearby as to how these white persons are allowed in .Aern't they barred from entering .He replied that they were allowed in becuase they have given in writing that they believed in the deity viz Srinivasar and were not visiting the temple for merely sight seeing .

When i saw the foreigners struggling in the hot sun in sri rangam temple , i wondered as to why they should trouble themselves so?Merely for sight seeing?Can thay understand the sacredness of this temple .Would they ever feel that this temple once  resonated with the sweet .poetic and devotional songs of aazhwars and slokas of acharyas as they worshipped Sri Ranganathar?That Tondar adi podi aazhwar walked around the same sands they were treading several centuries back with garlands of flowers framing devotional poetry in his mind ,to be placed on Ranganathars feet?That Kulasekara aazhwar  a King wanted to smear his forhead with deep reverence the  mud that had turned to slush owing to tears shed by devotees .The same soil they and we were walking ?Would they understand or relive the shock and agony that our Acharya Desikan must have felt in 13 -14 th centAD when the sacred premises of this temple where he worshiped daily and wrote beautiful slokas on Sri Ranganathar in which he reminises fondly over this deity being worshipped by Rama, Vibeeshan and aazhwars and acharyas  down the ages ,was  being trampled and ruined by a army of rough hordes in front of his eyes ? They just cannot relate to this temple.so why do they take such a onerous trip?

I myself get tired with the lot of walking one has to do in this huge temple but i have the satisfaction of getting a darshan of Narayana in his archa form and a feeling of continuity with distant past  by  tracing the historical links this temple has in our day to day worship and religion.

After noon we visited a Temple at Vellarai which is 20 kms away .It is a huge temple in a small village.With compounds , pathways and steep steps in solid rock this temple looks more like a fort .There are several legends attached to this temple .That this temple pre dates Rama and was built bt Sivi chakravarthy.That Markendeya rishi received Moksham in a nearby cave.It would take hours to visit  all these places 
This temple has enough space to accomodate more than a1000devotees at a time but there were but a mere handful of us.The priest explained that in some festivals ,1000 's of villagers from sorrounding villages would visit and it became tough managing them all.Though his earnings was poor he didn't want to leave his inherited  right to perform puja .
The presiding deity is Pundarikakshar perumal /.Narayana in sitting position .His eyes were also sheathed in gold replicas.He bears chakre and conch in his dark shoulders, The chakra is known as prayoga chakram hence it is not straight but on its side.Prayoga chakram means that the chakra that Pundarikakshar/Sriman Narayana  is holding is ready to be released to annihilate enemies of his devotees .

 Then we visited another divya desam Karambhanoor/Uthamar koil This small temple has separate sannidhis for Vishnu ,Siva and Brahma and thier consorts..Vishnu is known purushotaman.He is in reclining position Thirumangai aazwar has sung hymns on Purushothaman perumal.Siva is known as Bitchai  andaar as his quest to get rid of Brahmas, fifth head stuck on his palm after severing it was fulfilled here on getting bitchai -almns from Mahalakshmi .
A person was teaching the basics of srivaishnavism to a group of pilgrims .It is said to be  at the order of EO An order in force since last 4 years , to educate each sect of its basic beliefs.
 At night exactly 12 hours later saw the procession of Num perumal on his return in the same street near our hotel.
He was adorned with dazzling diamonds , glittering from top to bottom A silver tree -Kalpaka vriksha or wish yielding heavenly  tree was shading him with its silvery leaves.It was such a dazzling sight  worthy of gods that i couldn't take my eyes off .

Sri Rangam is more or less a concrete jungle now .Swans no longer glide in ponds blooming with lotuses nor are gardens full of fragrant blue coloured flowers nor is the air thick with the scent of  arcenut trees oozing fragrant saps yet the glittering presence of Num perumal turned it into a Bhooloka Vaikuntum 

India a Secular democractic Republic,Is it so?

India is a democracy? There is no interference in peoples personal rights?Then why was the following done on me   ?
1.Shattering my head with high decibel sound for a  whole month in 2012  in the morning as i walked up and down my flat as i did my daily chores reducing me to a nervous wreck.I couldn't escape this sound shattering my head
2.Then provoking me to write each and every day and making use of it in name of human rights.My  human rights were gone for a toss but i had to write bleeding volumes  for all and sundry .
3.Jabbing my head with sharp painful jabs for a whole month in 2014 June  till my forehead could be peeled off from my skull  All this done at night when i went to bed and couldn't hide any where to escape it.and rendering each and every thought of  mine transparent so that even a old foggy wouldn't need a magnifying lens to read them .

4.Then squeezing fluids out of me for 3 weeks in September 2014 exhausting me and disoriented and diverted all my attentions since then to only my body and its sudden unnatural changes in it .Thoughts of spiritual ism, self introspection  flew out of the window.It is yet to return


5.This exhaustion was made use of to try and scare me to change my religion from hinduism to Christianity, sects for all the three weeks at noon when i napped  by beaming messages/orders  right into my head  after securing my attention by drilling softly into my left ear, with enticements that had  caveats  and  was woken up early in the morning to hear to these crazy stuffs regarding my character dinned into my head .one of which was this --That my husband was too weak to take care of me and incapable of commanding me who according to them is a  shrew and too egoistic  to obey him .Hence my neighbours [married men of various communities and caste]are rendering thier  husbandly services in setting me right!
That is, my head strongness couldn't be stomached by these persons who then broke and weakened me with sound ,technique and then slipped into my husbands place.Various types! So now instead of handling or adjusting or tolerating just my husband i had to adjust etc with these  honey trappers [who did the trapping with help of rust  + micro waves  for bringing ;daya'-affection in me  towards only and only  Muslims and dark skinned persons maybe SC's and Christians   after threatening me indirectly that i had to obey them] forced on us. Their excuse was that  unsavoury elements were doing this outside so they had to rectify it! I see .how did outsiders get a hold over my mind and body without it being allowed by those who have the power to allow or disallow such unsavoury or any one to abuse my mind and body and my property A sick excuse after weakening me and hypnotising me 

6.Any Tom dick and harry can have hot line connection to my ears and mind through phones with internet.
It was facilitated and encouraged

7.The  Iron tools technique is often used to shake my heart to get reactions in writings in the pretext of making me a better person To reform me and and make a better person  with a melting and compassionate  heart is the excuse to squeeze as much out of me as possible.for free .No one objects to this every one  with a agenda has a go at it  Naturally they are all getting some monetary or political benifit or the other from  this sadistic torture

8 Auditory masking is done extensively to speed up my heart Planes , vehicles and people-/flat neighbours , slum tenants , watchman and workers  talking is used in this after blocking my ears  so that i will hear only these sounds in  my ears and respond to it like a dog Coordinating each  and every activity of me and my hub every day for past several years with planes landing and take offs as well as daily analysis cum hypnosis sessions when we nap.It also continues through night.

9 i have been  weakend  by such sadistic tortures then i am also held   responsible  for being weak , teased about it .and advised  to stay put in the house ,destroying my reading habit  by making use of specs i use for reading as a tool for squeezing fluids and diverting my attention back to my body.Discouraged with watching tv with similar diversion  that makes me irritated at the new changes in my body ==viz, upheavel of my abdomen, irritating stings as well as unnatural discharges  Discouraged from wearing even simple daliy use  gold ornaments  lest it block off transmissions  .Turning my life- i had been leading for 54 years topsy turvy viz my normal routine, my hobbies my past times and what i adornment i wore The purdah imposed on me has been lifted as i put my foot down but disrpution in  my life continues with a vengence .                                      

10 A lot of hue and cry would be made over me during parliamentry sessions .I would be chased and shadowed  around hoping that  one word in writing from me would disrupt our" peaceful 'parliament sessions [like as if our parliament is peaceful hall of discussions]   since disruptions started a decade or two back i was the prime cause for it .I wasn't even blogging then Is our parliament so fragile?Are our politicians  so dumb and lacking in acumen that they have to latch on to my views to  create a uproar ,if so i am truly ashamed of them .They have the media , dime a dozen which are doing a thorough  job in nitpicking much much better than me and blowing up news to extra ordinary proportions to embarrass   and  am also  surprised at  politicians  ,the real tall ones hedging around and dawdling  to tackle such people who are clutching at straws.

Can all the above or even one technique be done by ordinary persons without special training and backing of state?
 This is the under belly of  the famous Indian democracy that cherishes its constitution that has no place for such autocracy!There is total intrusion into my mind  and , body. Forcible  multiple conversions are carried on over a person, me  with total impunity   But India is a secular state.And our media is very 'liberal' hence  it is beneath thier dignity to take notice of  attempts at forcibile conversion of a middle aged middle class Hindu  woman to other religions and sect .

scooters and cyclists one of the slow death causing weapons.?

Few days back my husband left for Tirupati by train.[i wouldn't have mentioned  or linked the religious place  in this blog if not for the  forcible conversions carried on me in 2014 .It was only then through mind to mind or rather some ones hidden  mouth to  my left  ear -orders .talks most probably through mobile &; special electronic frequencies , that i got to know that Christians are allergic to  the temple town of Tirupathi Tirumala]

When i waved  him bye him from my first floor balcony at 5.30 am  i saw  the f-i-l of lower floor tenant whose wife once told me, were residing at Police quarters at Teynampet ,came inside the compound in a blackish grey safari suit holding the handle of his scooter  which was running!He was not pushing it but guiding a running purring scooter by walking along with it!It looked odd  and was  a strange  thing to do .
He came just as my hub turned right and walked towards the gate exposing his  heart to this scooter and its owner .

As he reached the gate and street i saw  a handicapped /lame man pedalling his shining tricycle with his hands on the street ahead of my hub.So my hubs heart was surely targetted  by the person walking down the scooter and the tricycle pedaller .Why?.His political opinions are well known .and  has always been  in favour of supremos of state[late cm] and centre.Yet it was targetted.He is most vulnerable of all three of us as his heart is weak and is sort to be weakened further.Very sadistic and very ungrateful,to one who is so loyal .Was it to do with my blog on  my  forcibile conversion ? where i hold the ruling party of this state guilty?

In 2014 when i confronted the neighbour with Christian links on my floor to know as to what was going on around me that has changed my life so drastically since 2012 and even more after 2014 as i knew that he as playing a role in it ,He in a way admitted reading my diary writings by   pointing  to his wife and saying that she may have several faults but i see only her good ones and you to should be like that .[few days earlier  i had called both late cm &; pm some names in my diary  for not allowing  me to have my  basic freedoms ]He pointed to a woman and not to himself and a woman  was ruling this state of TN then.
2,Whenever i blogged about all the strange going ons around me and mentioned Jayalalitha in passing as a guess work , her name was always underlined and even heard 'It is her doing' Maybe heard coz of  that special frequencyand also the fact that my left ear was blocked soon after 2014 GE

Further he nodded his head in agreement and approval when i said didn't i  bring  Koodankulam deal through? By bearing with great determination the excruiting  mental torture for 3 weeks to make me write and i refused to do so lest it harm the deal?
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So i assumed that it was the state's ruling party's handiwork   But i donot rule out role of shadowy agencies of centre and defence in this month long torture cum conversion .I am unable to find the rationale behind this conversion attempts which are still going on .How  can conversion be a punishment for my views or derogotary references to political leaders in my diary ?How can my conversion solve the neighbouring countries malafide intentions or naxals intrusion into my life as is often hinted ?

Is our Parliamentry democracy so fragile that it can be sabotaged by my diary writings or blogs or tweets?Amusing ! Parliament was up on its feet within a week of attack by gun totting terrorists  but a lot of hue and cry is being made about my potential to harm its sessions by merely writing some thing or the other ! Real politicians get their feed back of ground realities  from people meeting them with petitions for help .That is how my grand father a politician kept his ears to the ground Sensational news items dominating for a week and then fizziling out and dying a quiet death can never  substitute the contact with  common people  .  

What ever the reason may be the fact is this---

1,My freedom to be the sole possesor  of my body was taken away in 2012 by  making me hear month long high decibel  sounds  over my  head

2/My freedom to have privacy of my thoughts ,and voluntary introspections was taken away by  one month long painful
shafts driven into my head in June 2014

3.My freedom to pursue my religion peacefully was taken away by month long squeezing out of fluids out of me simultaneously with  multiple conversion attempts as well as that  chup chup==the signal of reversing cars that my analysis has been taken as well as signal that i was forced to go over my past   happenings and forget it .

4. My freedom to remain silent or speak only when i want to or to whom. was also been taken awayThe urge to speak is   to my near family is forced on me  only when persons of other communities are in my vicinity.

5. The freedom to control my bodily movements , bowel  and bladder movements was taken away .Sound of overhead flights play a major role in this loss of control

6.The freedom to like or dislike persons as per  my nature was taken away I was made to pine and feel a unnatural kinship with persons of other communities since 2012 Overhead rust plays a great role in this ,It made  me like dirty and deceitful people and made me  feel alienated from my society , my past This  feeling of feeling distant from  my Hindu country, people  and society,reached crecendo in 2014 and there after till recently.

All the above happened to me. Still happening.i can never forget it .Most important result of all this was my total loss of trust in the decency of my flat neighbours, some relatives  and people around me as well as in integrity of  the highest offices of this state and country.Why should long time flat neighbours against  whom i had no animosity walk speedily towards me or come running down the stairs  to shake my heart or stand or walk  behind  me deliberately   to make me view   men of their community or caste with unholy affection ?

The word neighbour is often underlined though spelling is ok .hinting at  role of neighbours of india that justifies all this shadowy tortures wreaked on me.This is getting on my nerves.                                                What military  or civil secrets compromising this nation's security can be dug out from me?If   they are really  after me for some sort of analysis ,why was i progressively weakened to make it easier for them to whatever they are upto ?I was weakened by persons in this flat and not from""neighbouring"countries.Does it mean that some persons in my flat have links to neighbors?.Why not inter  them instead of trying to dumb me down and make a fool out of me by constantly confusing me?




                                                                             My hub came back with a chest cold .yesterday when i set out to  get a otp for linking my mobile with aadhar saw that the lower floor tenants had vacated! A noisy family but have left silently.I had written the above i my diary few days back and now the empty flat is undergoing a lot of repair works which has brought all those deadly iron tools very close to our hearts  Those wanting to damage our hearts/specially my husband;s  and get reactions must be rubbing their hands at glee as we have to go up and down  with those tools poised readily in workers hands !.The sadistic reception committee .
                                                                                                            This linking  is getting on my nerves .Am i terrorist  or  will do some terror acts past 60 years  of age or am i a illegal immigrant ?First my thumb impression is no longer there due to age so have to do a lot of procedures  if i have to hold on to my mobile. It reminds me of the tedious  bureacratic procedures of days gone by to get any thing .That time around i was young and was used to it so didn't grumble but now i am old and having got used to other way round for a 2decades   like for eg getting  a phone  connection off the counter instead of waiting and waiting for it for years  as we had to in my younger days ,it is tiring to do so much just to retain my phone connection .

Note -'After blogging this i went to nearby mobile recharge shop with old sim of phone number to link my present one with my  aadhar  number,  [sim which i had preserved] as directed by airtel office.grumbling at having to run to pillar to post to retain a mobile which i scarcely use but cannot let go off it  owing to its usefulness and hoping that at least this would click and i need not go to E seva  for further procedures etc 
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There the salesman brought the thumb impression machine without listening to my explanations  that i had tried all my twenty fingers at Airtel office after climbing head spinning steep steps leading to its office twice and at both times my impressions didn't tally .He placed the small machine .Then i thought ok i;ll give it another try and placed my thumb ==No link a red message came ..Then i tried my index finger and lo behold a green message came and the sales man did the rest in no time and said your mobile has been verified.     

I couldn't believe it .Was he sure ,He said yes see your verification has come .Rubbed my eyes haven't my impressions washed away by age  of which airtel was sure or wasn't it done properly in 2013?

No nothing of the above .I was simply being harrassed /obstructed   all these days in my quest to link it .


ok if really my impressions had changed with age  then i would have had to go through a tedious procedure  with a deadline of March 2018 hanging and i would have grumbled at the govt  for making the retention of a mobile so difficult  And fumed at it for throwing hurdles at the ease of life i have been habituated so far the way i fumed at the earlier one to make me stand hours in a queue in a poky room for getting photographed , biometric etc for aadhar card  when i already had so many identification  cards in possesion  like election etc That to at an age when all these procedures are  too weary  to undertake.'----[10 th Feb evening]

When i blogged now about my hubs loyalty ,centre was underlined.He is a known Modi fan.and unstinted loyalist.His adoration and loyalty dates back to Modi;'s CM days Any thing wrong with it?He laughs and cries with him . Is it a crime? Whether his heart is moved so as  to  make him emote politically  in centres favour or to simply weaken  it to ease him out slowly, his basic loyalty can never be shaken.The thought readers know this He with stood the 2012 onsluaght aimed at scaring him off this loyalty and didnt let go.So it is a futile excersise of those  who are doing this...

I have no such hero worship for any political leader .My only hero  is  Rama .

Similarily the forcible  forgivness sessions can never wipe out my basic Hindu beliefs .I donot believe that forgivness would liberate me and make me attain moksha I have no faith in that concept which is so central to Christian beliefs.I strongly believe in concept of karma and that i have to face the consequences of deeds done by me.Deeds done  owing to my inherited gunas  /nature  from my  past and and previous lives as part of my anscestors  and that i can never escape the workings of Karma  even if 1000 forgivness sessions  were forced on me or ,forcing me to surrender .i believe that i was born in a family  well versed in Vedas , upanishads ,Gita owing to my good karmas and this life is a step to attain better karmas and even moksha .
Taking birth as a human being is  boon and not a sin .Making proper use of birth as a human being  so as to reach the land of no return Moksha is solely dependant on that individuals determination to achieve it through , penance, discipline , , detatachment  to fruits of work, knowledge ,Vedic  rituals , devotion and so on .This is not a easy job .It cannot be acquired in a single birth ,There is no hurry in Hinduism  .It says you can achieve it any succeeding birth.

Next i may have lost touch with the sacredness of this  soil forgetting to remember Rama or Bhudevi when i walk on it or those scores of rihis  and acharyas who have traversed it  in past sanctifying each clod of earth .This loss of touch is becuase i am constantly diverted by passerbyes , scooters and the unique but perverted type of telephonic messages that has disrupt my peace of mind and tranquility and made me over alert to all these insignificant minions .When i am restored to myself i will again get back my touch with this country, its Hindu religious sentiments and my Hindu  heroes of its  past /  
                                                                                                           
When i am prepared to get my seat in heaven or  Moksha in any of my succeeding births will i accept these fellows  time bound hurried [forcibile ] liberation on me ? That to in a highly childlike simple manner ==I forgive you .Now my seat in heaven is assured?That would be believing in miracles and i donot believe in miracles.I may have some superstitious beliefs but i have no belief in miracles..


Yesterday whilst meditating in my room heard a scooter speed down  and immediately my left ear opened.Felt great .I guess the way to control my thoughts or to put in suggestions is to block my ears to external sounds and make me hear only  my own voice or messages beamed through some special frequency and even internet .No wonder i am always compared to 5 year old girls or a dog on leash.If i have to be chastisied  either for writing or grumbling at my freedom less state & at the conversion attempts the 5 yr old girl from lower floor would be made to cry loudly .Dogs on leash are brought out hurriedly when i walk as if to tease me to say that my every movement is being controlled and monitered .

This total opening of my ears has happened only twice or thrice since 2014 . So today i set out wanting to clera my block and deliberately walked on opposite side of oncoming traffic and went near scooters exposing my left ear hoping the sound of the scooters  would clear the block .At two places where i saw scooters coming towards me in the morning traffic motorbikes and scooters whizzed by me from behind pushing those scooters away and also making those scootersits curse these rash drivers for  breaking traffic rules and endangering thier lives..So no luck My intentions/experiment well read  and and actions taken .

I observed that two wheelers mostly motor bikes whizzed past me in places where the traffic slowed down and scooters came cruising towards me slowly due to signal and a cut in the road .

If slow scooters or vehicles  coming from opposite direction causes some jerk or shaking of the heart or abdomen  then the cut in our street is to attack our heart ,specially my hubs when we go out and come back from walk Why should there be a unrepaired cut on the main road when we turn into our street? The main roads of tnagar are always kept in good condition  so why is this break in the main road yet to be smoothened?Is it to slow vehicles ?It serves two purposes .Avoid skidding of  vehicles  due to my gold bangles and also shake our hearts .

How much ever i blog my travails and observations  nothing will be done to give us back our normal life.That is for sure,

The latest type of no touch torture wreaked on me

Was wondering and pondering as to what my next torture would be to dumb me down and make me lose my memory., train of thoughts provoke me to hyper activity  .It was staring rather booming down over my head all these days/couple of years  and i didn't, realise it .So obvious yet innocuos.

The loud sound of Aeroplanes taking  off over right over my flat /Till middle of 2015 there were only the low  sound of planes landing.There were only a lot of landings seen from my window in east to south direction ,The only take off which  i remember was at 2 am at night from South to east

Since middle of 2015the frequency of take offs have multiplied tremendously and landings are very few..In 2017 there was no let up  to this shrieking mind blowing sound at all and is still continuing .the whole day now in 2018 The take offs are all in all directions  All starting from south side .The ones flying right over my flats are the worst of the lot They successfully needle my  mind. and make  me a  nervous wreck .

The following are the no touch tortures i was subject to

1Severe pain in my molars followed by painful rootcanal surgery in 2011.

2.Severe pain in my left knees in 2011must have been  caused by using the  technique of iron tools + shining metals
3.Making me hear ,only me and none of my family members around me , piercing nerve wracking sounds in my head for two weeks and more in the morning s as i walked up and down my flat whilst doing  my daily chores--in 2012
4.Piercing my head  all over with painful  intrusive shafts like as if a corkscrew was being drilled into my head This went on for 3 weeks at night when i went to bed or napped in the mornings In this also the technique involving iron & metal could have been used All my alimirahs have steel doors and edges were rusted  and there is one in each room .Shining metals are dime a dozen A  rusted table was close to my  head  when i slept .
5,Making me eject fluids whole day for 3 weeks in 2014 sept that not only exhausted me but also made me every nervous and anxious.
6.Simultaneously with this fluid ejection was coercive conversion to other 2 communities and shakthi sect was going on through a unique mind to mind orders which only i could grasp.Before the talks i would feel a tingling sensation in my left ear like as if a bud has rotated in it , woken up and made to see what ever the converters wanted me to see to put forth thier point viz emotional black mail.This was done early in mornings around 4 -5am and when i napped or just relaxed at day time. Christian conversion with a lot of emotional blackmail and threats was the longest of the lot .It went on and on for all 3 weeks

7.Take off 's thundering over my blasted, pierced , dehydrated head  which makes me lose my balance mental and physical.Mental---black out followed by anxiety Physical--loss of balance  owing to spinning of  my head .There is a sudden rush  into my head that makes it too light and disoriented,If don't stop on my tracks  i could fall down .

Currently the mind to mind talks disturbing my sleep all through at night periodically and relaxation at day is going on .wrecking my mental peace.and tranquility.These orders to mind is always before a take off
currently take offs over my head and around are dime a dozen

So this combination [7]along with iron tools in hands of labourers ,sweepers and  scavengers is the latest no torture done to me.

Making flight  change thier   path drastically  cannot be decided by private players or the enemy neighbour That power lies with the Government.Isnt it easy to guess as to who actually wants to make a nervous wreck out of me and  cause physical injury to me  and shut me down?.