Righting wrongs.

Dear viewers ,
                      Yes i have broken my resolve not to blog after  a total break from net for  10 days and after going through my earlier blogs in a cool and dispassionate manner.
I have levelled  a lot of allegations against many a top politicians of our country in near gay abandon and fury without a shred a proof .The instigator was to a large extent pf and co regarding whose true identity i am still clueless.As i read on, it made me squirm in embarrassment and shame as well.                                                                                                                                                             i dearly hope that all those politicians whom i have berated as well as others find the magnanimity and kindness in their hearts to forgive me for the  innuendos i may have hurled in anger and my various lapses.

If i have inadvertently hurt the sentiments of minority communities by my blogs i hope that they would find the kindness in their hearts and magnanimity to forgive me for doing so .

                                                    I am taking  a break to get away  from my non stop,addictive &and ;and monotonous blogging.Hope it is for good.

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Decision

Since i am all in a haze don't know what is what ,by reading too many news and getting totally confused by it all ,i react ,then assume ,then correct and this is going on and on .I have no evidence to substantiate any bizzarre things i could have written ,hence have decided to end my addiction to net, diary , tv /paper news hence i am putting a full stop to  writing and blogging and will stay away from the net hopefully, forever.

So i have decided not to write  or  blog.

Viewers kindly bear it in mind whilst going through  excerpts from my diary etc that i have no idea as to whom i  have nicknamed as pf, is in real life.The confusion regarding his true identity still persists.

Excerpts from my diary --4.6.14 7am

The motor is whizzing gently soothing my sensitive brain  as i sit in my balcony drawing comfort from one faithful , dutiful eternal entity spreading its early morning muted radiance drenching the tree, the air and me with its life and hope ,giving light and warmth without expecting any thing in return.

No wonder our ancients greeted it with gratitude and asked to be a part of that which has created it, with reiterating the belief in eternal cycle of life and permanence of air and also seeking forgiveness for acts done and yet to be done.

observation at tail end of works---2.6.1`4.---2.30pm

Yesterday  even no sooner did i write about resigning from bjp firecrackers were burst and a engaged couple were take in a procession in a chariot .Gaiety all around!

Few hours later as i stood in the baloney sawa menacing looking military jeep cruising and standing still at front of me ,like as is if they were keeping watch on a terrorist!was creepy.Night suddenly felt the jitters like that night in march.Handiwork ofcourse.

Realisation dawns like it repeatedly is doing these day at a drop of a handkerchief.
Whilst Cong was hostile and a bit fearful of me as they were embroiled in corruption and my innocuous writings may have encourages youngsters in net ,now they are out of power , so this chap-jailer  --pf and co ought to have left .He hasn't which would mean that, now bjp has become hostile towards me and is a bit fearful of me.maybe my net presence , may be now even my diary writings ,are welcomed and applauded by ywdfh whom they would like to keep at an arms length for reasons best known to them selves.Prob to project  a secular , inclusive image..A, jai use to unfailingly pop up in the run up to the elections and even later with his blogs on politics etc when ever i wrote in my diary on my mystical experiences.Adjustment bureau at work? like those toi  blogs on corruption during Cong times?. 

Despite showing me as scizho . amoral, unsocial, unreliable and delusional may be my stock rose after i determined to get concessions for Bharat and got it.So prob they fear that what ever  i write will be treated as Veda vakku  -vedic truth by most specially those ywdfh fans of mine.Hence this person continues to lord over me to like  controlling  a elephant with angusams--small and sharp knife.

So resigning is of no use . A joke. Another skit.

OK then why does this person insists on making me feel touched and make me shed tears nearly every day like as if i have to constantly repent over my sins-[-hey since this fellow landed iam always teary ],coupled with hypnosis or whatever + abnormal behaviour of passerby to provoke me to such an extent that i vomit like my hub says , a mixed fare of a beggar ,on to my diary.

So if one page thrills left the other thrills the right.

I can't help it. if my brain is stuffed daily at night and if such treatments are given i will write whatever  i feel without any fear.So it could be harming apolitical party which could be bjp ,who strangely do not mind me gladdening the leftists.Though i am the one who is actually from a leftist family with no guilt at being a mystical hindu with no qualms staying along with or moving with them with respect for each others religious social norms,till all this started..Weird scenario!

But that is how it is .so why is this person putting such tight screws since when i joined bjp though every one treated it as a joke? If he doesn't i would be more restrained .So it is in the hands of his boss or group.
Actually i do not want this fame.it was clearly thrust on me by perversions and insecurities of the political parties , specially towards the end.

If i need to restrain then my life should be more relaxed and natural,unlike the present jail like set up and constant prodding.
If the party in power is willing to risk it that is continue like this , what can i do about it?Just adjust as i did in past 3 years.

Of,tackling the problem of sponteneous movements by youths.

8.20.am ---1.6.14
                            My very very publivc /political/civilsociety diary.

No soner ditd i decide yesterday night  to stay off for 3 months in a row and also off this addictive diary writing to get out of my hassles and constant pinpricks than i felt my father making constant apperance as i drifted of to sleep .hypnotist at work ,surely.
after a walk to ward of the urge to write early morning itself i sat in a lush park meditating over the situation i am in and i decided to write and try and solve the problem that te govt at centre as well as in hereare liable to face viz anger of centrist and radical youths against the system.
Since i am being used mainly [tho fgn affairs is another of mine] to deal with tensions arising out of sensitive centrist youths  civil protests  i ll write my view on that subject.
History.---I observed in my ealier forays into net ,that whenever i blogged on hiduism --that is slokas or my view point ,toi would immediately come up with blogs on corruption. I linked the two and concluded that it was toi/secularists attempts to deflect youths attention from religion  viz hinduism/communal[from thier view point]who may be lapping my blogs .[i had no idea at my outreach except that a young  right  humorous blogger whose blogs had  over a million hits was thrilled by some of my blogs on hinduism and anecdotal  reminisesnse from my past and posted them in some other website.and then he quit blogging  after it was hacked and blocked ,cited  boredom as a cause with  a,follow up invitation from other rights to join twitter ],to secular subjects  like corruption --secular because it affects all equally.

But ofcourse it finally boomeranged on its patrons  or the side of politics they preffered ,with birth of anna movt that brought corruption to the attention of all youth  .Middle agers like me and others were not too bothered about it but youth being youth they got all fired up causing quite a few jitters in politiacl class .The opposition being in opposition weren't much bothered and maybe some of them  even enjoyed the discomfiture of the ruling party.In that famous debates on lokpal viz sense of the house all the parlimentarians looked like as if they were fortifying themselves within those halls   from the verbal  darts and glares  of resentful youths on the streets  outside.

Belive it or not i did give the solution  a very obvious and simple one , a courtsy that one politician extends to other as mater of routine,to make anna break the fast  and defuse thesituation .Just abandon ego and come down a peg or two  if one is truly intereted in upholding insitutions and are truly  bothered about india's name abroad,that is all.

Ok. my troubles started theneforward . i'll not go ointo it again except that those who had burnt thier fingers in that annamovt had become wary of such eruptions and i was zeroed upon for 1, supporting that movt2. and contradictorily for providing the solution as well  .
Since i proved successful in toning down the movt and sort of help transform it into a political one and also provided materials un wittingly ofcourse to deflect youths anger from  against state to society in nirbhaya movt i was regularily worked upon to provide emotinal evidence to the leadership to take decisions  which th eparty managers/leadership had alreday decided upon or were in a dilema to act upon with regards to correct course of public preception .

My blog s,diaries since 20 12 are replete with such incidents where i was made to cough the much neededemotionalevidence.
After burning htier fingerson corruption that swept away their patrons, benefactors and inclusive party to which seculrists owe their alligience they have latched upon women's issue..rape of minor girls is  extremely emotive .And it is being used extensively by the same duo toi and times now apart from other channels as well probably with the motive as usual ,to divert the energies of youth from becoming communal or anarchist.

Apart from this issue there are other weakesses in  the system and political parties which is galringly visible to ordianry educated youth , but the parties cannot overcome all those flaws if they have to get and continue in power .like criminaisation, oestentation'.keeping aloof from educated public once in power ,compromisung on principles , ideals etc., The politiacal parties have become so deadened to the ordinary sensitivities that they tend to jerk out of thier cosy circle only when youths take to streets

The media is playing a major role in mobilisation of such protests and sees to that the hysteria doesnot abate Pure business .In democracy how can they be censored?Now that the opposition bjp is in power they have to tackle this whilst cong and others can leisurely enjoy the ruling party bjp'sdiscomfiture.
How should the gvt/ruling party tackle this sponateneous gathering? My observations and suggestions--

There is always the potential of such protests taking place in future and this will have to be tackled with seriousness  and not on adhoc basis  , if the govt truly wants to save itself from such embarassments and get ahead with the task of governing.

suggestions---Appoint  non partisan   persons who are totaly impartial and committed only to thier job, that of succesfully solving the issue of youths sponteneous , leaderless protests.
They have to be alert to news and to all those campaigns being made non stop on tv, net ,paper etc.
Find out as to what is troubling them .Try and solve it with sincerety, sensitivity and immediately without bringing politics, authoritanism ,egoand avoid being judgemental.

This cannot be adhoc .It has to be 24/7 .

If i am going to be relied upon then it is not scientificand logical handling of the issue.

I may react immediately or may noy.i may write my observ ations or maynoteven if i am heavily nudjed.
My forcible co operation cannot be relied upon even if it had proved succeful till date.If thegovt is smart and wakes up to the urgency of this problem and puts in place a team --media anlysts, impartial inteligence, pshycologists, socioligist, mediators, nurtures and teachers who are not too loyal to the party or leadars[ but on the side of the party in power] as that would cloud thejudgement , as soon as possible , it can tackle this .

I am writing all this because i know that i wouldnt be let free till i the solution giver comes up with a solution to this vexatious [i donot have the heart , unlike politicians to call it vexatious since i feel that youths like every one else have every right toe xpress thier views and protest in civil viz non violent manner.And i have given it .
.It is for the govt toact upon it.

To accept or not acept is a call the govt has to take.if accepted it would be putting a system in place .if not it will be adhoc ,relying solely upon the vagaries of emotions and indvidual efforts and initiatives,

Former reliable ,latter un reliable.









 

Reaction to news.

New Pm is set to give a free run to all bureaucrats.

Since bureaucrats in in mea have tasted success in foreign policy easily through my writings without having to spend sleepless nights as i am in their net doing all the slogging by writing impositions after impositions even with change of govt which is itself a  proof of the continuation of shady practises honed to perfection in the last regime being put to use as usual to make me deliver the goodies. viz a shower of concessions from abroad .
NM has made it easier for them by giving the babu's a free run and it is now headed by a lib and very public personality S.swaraj. who would care two hoots for my sensitivities ,that of having to constantly conjure up some thing forcibly  at the cost of my normal life and my  need for privacy in my house .This is not a office. would royalties and politicians care for the creature comforts and sentiments of commoners?

Frankly the change in govt has not changed my exploitative and precarious position in any manner.

King is dead .long live the king!

Read news next day that a specialist in foreign affairs is being hired by nm.Hope this specialists specialities are his own and that  his methods are open and transparent.

written on 30.5.14.friday 1.30pm -published on june first